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Ancient-Hoofbeats's avatar
Ancient-HoofbeatsStudent General Artist
I used to say the same thing about my mom who drank herself to death...but eventually I learned to let go and forgive her. People understood that I just needed that time to grieve privately and to understand what happened before I could grieve publicly. I'm sure that your friends and family will also understand, but if you ever want to talk about it or anything, I'm here :)
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emberhadesHobbyist Digital Artist
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emberhadesHobbyist Digital Artist
Yeah losing a family member/ someone close to hurts I understand. I lost my mum when I was a little girl and it still hurts. When people talk about their mum's birthdays and such... o3o (Emo corner now) D: Keep going on someone will reach out :D
KusaKat's avatar
it's normal for it to hurt. I lost my mother and it still hurts. Just be honest with those people. They probably already know you aren't telling the truth anyways and no one can blame you
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koshplappitHobbyist General Artist
Tell the truth. It makes things a lot easier. Don't be afraid to admit mistakes!
Pingouinou's avatar
I lost my mom and had the "luck" to meet someone who had been through this before me.
She helped me because I didn't want to talk to the others. Like you, I said I was okay - and I clearly wasn't...
So, you can contact me if I can help...
RemembranceOfReality's avatar
my mom died and i totally know how you feel! you just need to pull someone aside and tell them the truth!
Corvusanimus's avatar
I know how that feels... I was the same way about my mom
XxRockFiendxX's avatar
just tell them u need an ear. they'll understand that it's not something that just up and goes away forever. and if they don't there are plenty of people you can go find and talk to about it.
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horohuraStudent Digital Artist
you already admitted you still hurt to all of use find one of use to talk to and help you out
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KokorookaikasuruStudent General Artist
It's a natural part of the grieving process to be in denial, and people probably think you're lying about not caring anymore anyways. That's how I feel it is anyways, but maybe not. Tell a really close friend and gradually work your way out from there, but don't make a huge pity party. Just let them know that you still need that support.
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RemiroQuaiHobbyist Photographer
Ask for help. You are allowed to be wrong, especially when feelings are concerned. My dad passed away almost exactly a year ago and... it is not always easy. :huggle:
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tamarialovestechumsaHobbyist Writer
" remember when i said i was fine. " *deep breathe* " it wasn't true. i'm not okay."
LikePeeringEyes's avatar
When someone you love is dying, it feels like you're dying too. When a family member of mine was dying, I felt worthless and helpless that I couldn't help them. It killed me inside. However, I didn't tell anyone how I felt. It ate away at me like an infection, and all I can tell you is that you NEED to tell someone. You HAVE to, otherwise it'll eat away at you and slowly, you'll just self destruction.
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lizziebydesignProfessional General Artist
Asking for help is not a weakness and it isn't annoying. It is a strength and you would be considered very brave.
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ToflunHobbyist Digital Artist
I know exactly how this feels, if the secret teller wish to talk about it, I would love to. :)
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salty-dreamsHobbyist General Artist
put your pride and fear aside. realise it is not weakness to complain about your pain. and just snap. don't worry how it will turn out, whatever way it turns out you will feel better, i promise. release yourself, you are holding yourself back. you are overthinking yourself and not what you think other people around you want of you. just snap...cry, scream, it before it is too late and you shut completely
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It's ok to feel bad about your dad dying. It's alright to feel hurt. I think you need someone to talk to, I promise it'll help.
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Rose-EclipseHobbyist General Artist
I personally have never been in such a situation.
But could you try talking to someone close about it (though i understand that you might not have anyone really close other than your father)
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Talk about it. Its better if you do. You remember the good times you had with him. His voice is smile, the unique things he could do just to make you smile. You ever need to talk im here. Just send a note. And that is for everyone here.
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JokerbugHobbyist General Artist
Hey ST, send me a note if you need someone to talk to. I know exactly what you're going through. I lost my dad a little over a year and a half ago. My little sister doesn't like talking about him. It's not that I don't want to talk about it, I just don't know how to with my friends and family without feeling guilty because I'm pushing my negative emotions onto them.

Just remember your family is your best resource on who to talk to because they knew your dad just as much as you did. Even if you've said you don't care, it's okay to take it back and tell them what's going on with you emotionally. Then from there they can help you decide how to help you deal and if you do need outside help like therapy or counseling. If you're not ready to talk to them about it, there are also several grief websites and hotlines that you can talk to other people about what you're going through.
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SogriStudent Traditional Artist
its understandable that you would lie to people about this. its okay to ask for help. i know there is someone out there whois worried and wants to listen.
ZIM402's avatar
do the most difficult thing
*more difficult than asking for help
admit you were wrong
THEN ask for help
*the #2 most difficult thing
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Cinder254Student General Artist
I'll tell you one of my very dear friends lost her father and she always tells me she doesn't care, or it doesn't matter, and I would do anything for her to tell the truth for I see the pain in her eyes, they just would have to say they do care and it hurts and I would give them the biggest hug of all time and brush off the previous words. For whether you told them you don't care or not, I'm sure they did.
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