Just getting the depressing/self loathing stuff off the front of my page; while I still feel like that time and time again, I don't like it being the first thing I see every time I start up dA. I wish I could let myself draw. Then I could post it here, show it to friends, and get some feedback, improve, post more, get better. It's one thing to understand a concept than to believe it, I guess.
I've certainly let the optimism of that last journal go to waste. I'm not happy. I'm quite lonely actually, seeing as how I only see people on the weekends now if I can even get out of bed to do so. How can things have gone so...meh? 27, with nothing to show for it..my life feels like such a waste, so much time lost to stupid depression, sickness, pain.
I have nothing but regret.