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Matt Tuck by DestructiveDelirium Matt Tuck :icondestructivedelirium:DestructiveDelirium 3 2 Love:Death by DestructiveDelirium Love:Death :icondestructivedelirium:DestructiveDelirium 19 11 Adrift and at Peace by DestructiveDelirium Adrift and at Peace :icondestructivedelirium:DestructiveDelirium 4 6
Self Destruction
Burning Up
Breaking Down
Moving Faster
Thinking Slower
Falling Harder
Feeling Weaker
Crashing Death
Fading Life
Self Hatred
Meaningless Love
Sleepless Nights
Unwaking Days
Cruel Living
Fair Dying
Sinful Exsistence
Blessed Exstinction
Never Right
Always Wrong
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Darkness Approaching
My darkest days
Approaching fast
An endless tunnel
A sudden drop
The void swallows all
Nothing escapes
Lost futures and hopeless dreams
Cruel lives, and broken pasts
Everything ends, Nothing Lasts
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Who I am
Who I am
I've come to realize
I'm less then a man
Filled with sorrow and anger
I'm the empty shell of a man
A catalyst to my own demise
An explosion from the inside
I'm not good enough,
Smart enough,
Strong enough,
To last in this world.
This is who I am
This is what I've become
I'm a cancer to myself
And there's nobody else
They are who I'm not
Who I never will be
I'm a cancer to everyone else
And there's nobody else
I can't deny my fate
My line is pre-drawn out
To try for higher
Will resault in failure (So why bother?)
I was lied to when I was told I could do more
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The battle between Light and Darkness,
I Fell into the pit of black.
Darkness engulved me.
Cruel hatred seeped into every vein.
Sorrow, Pain, and Depression traded for Rage, Anger and Hatred.
Arose from the darkness
Not a man, but a monster fueled by anger.
I no longer reconize the face in the mirror
I no longer care.
A world full of Sin and Death.
A world that no longer cares.
I have become apart of that world
I have become Fear and Chaos.
I am Hatred,
I am Malace,
I am Delirium...
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Through The Eyes of the Dead by DestructiveDelirium Through The Eyes of the Dead :icondestructivedelirium:DestructiveDelirium 19 21 Hockney Project by DestructiveDelirium Hockney Project :icondestructivedelirium:DestructiveDelirium 3 15
Letting Go
Letting Go
We’ve come to the end
(this is it)
I can feel us fading
We were so strong
(this is it)
But everything has to end
I know we’ve fallen apart
(this is it)
I’ve watched it all come down
I’m taking my own road
(this is it)
This is the end
This is my goodbye
This is me letting go
This is where it all falls down
I’m letting you go
I’m saying goodbye
I never thought we would fall apart
I never meant for this to happen
Goodbye are always hard
But sometimes they’re necessary
You deserve much better then this
So leave now and never look back
I love you (I loved you)
It hurts to see you go
My eyes are burning, my chest is aching
As you walk away from me.
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Without You
Without You
Your eyes are blank as we stare eye-to-eye
Your mouth is closed as we sit in silence
Your heart is empty, and vacant of my name
You used to be there for me
(where did you go?)
You used to care for me
(why did you go?)
We used to be such close friends
(what the hell happened?)
We used to be everything
(now we’re nothing)
But somewhere along the way…
…things fell apart.
I’m not a saint, and I’m not perfect
But what did I do to deserve this from you?
It seems like yesterday when you first spoke to me
The days have come and past
I’ve lost you and have no one else
Everything we were, gone in a flash
All those times we spent,
All those days just wash away…
…and now mean nothing
I don’t know what happened
I don’t know why we fell apart
I just wish I could hit rewind on this sad story
You don’t tell me anything
Claim everything will be fine
But I’m watching my world fall apart…
…in slow motion.
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I Love You, I Hate You
I Love You (I Hate You)
I want to hate you
You’ve let me down again and again
But I can’t let you go.
“I’m sorry”; Your words bring tears to my eyes
“I hate you”; I don’t know how to say.
You’ve hurt me, and always have
I can’t trust you…you hurt me
I’ve given my life for you
But you don’t realize that I love you
Though I don’t even know why.
I had faith in you
Told anything to you
But you threw it all away.
Did you care when you left me standing?
Did you ever care at all?
I don’t know why I put up with your shit
Love tends to fuck up common sense
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Bloody Neck by DestructiveDelirium Bloody Neck :icondestructivedelirium:DestructiveDelirium 1 8 Death by DestructiveDelirium Death :icondestructivedelirium:DestructiveDelirium 13 15 Frank - 28:06:42:12 by DestructiveDelirium Frank - 28:06:42:12 :icondestructivedelirium:DestructiveDelirium 7 30 From The Inside by DestructiveDelirium From The Inside :icondestructivedelirium:DestructiveDelirium 33 27

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I'm tired of being here,
all locked up in my head.
Every day I hear a whisper,
and I'm closer to being dead.
Something taps me on the shoulder,
something I can't fight.
When it talks in that low voice,
my eyes are shut so tight.
Once it gets to a cetain point,
and I'm still sitting on the ground,
it tells me to do things,
I'm trying to ignore the sound.
Its voice is harsh and filled with confidence,
and I can hear a hint of sorrow.
Even when it's telling me,
I won't live to see tomorrow.
I don't know what to say,
and I don't know what to do.
I'm still hearing it now,
and I'm still suffering too.
I can't tell what its weakness is,
but I know I hear some lust.
I just have to get through this,
and have no one to trust.
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The End of the Simple Life by Izabeth The End of the Simple Life :iconizabeth:Izabeth 34 16 Wp 001389 by The-Black-Sheepy Wp 001389 :iconthe-black-sheepy:The-Black-Sheepy 2 15 Sketch: In the name of Depression by paintausea Sketch: In the name of Depression :iconpaintausea:paintausea 334 150 Depression by moranox Depression :iconmoranox:moranox 337 26
I've heard so many people tell those who suffer depression to just 'cheer up.' I wonder if they can really believe that it's that simple.
Depression isn't just sadness. It is emptiness, it is misery. It is pain and nothingness at once. When you are truly depressed you lack the ability or will to cheer yourself up. No one just 'has depression.' You suffer from it. This is depression:
You will wake at 5, 6, maybe 7am, feeling as though you had only just fallen asleep. It's likely you did. If you don't have to be somewhere, you could lie in bed for another 3 hours...too tired, too miserable and pathetic to crawl out of you bed. Or maybe you will sleep until 1pm, because it's so much easier to sleep through most of the day than actually live it, and you're so unbelievably tired anyway. You will push through the day, knowing that every hour will be a struggle and not knowing how you will feel tomorrow. People will ask what is wrong, and you will simply smile and say 'nothing, I'm just tired
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I've been a member here for over 6 years apparently. It feels a lot longer then that though. Back when I still had art as a creative outlet. Back when I actually had creativity to use. I miss those days to be honest and if I had the chance I would go back. There is nothing for me here anymore and yet I still linger. Not just DA but everything in general. I'm going nowhere in life and I only have myself to blame for that. But I really don't want anything more. I just don't want to continue on. I want to hit the off switch and just fade away. Just a faded memory. That is all I feel like anyways. I find myself looking at the past, remembering the good and bad memories, more so then I pay attention to the present or the future. I'm just so tired, both emotionally and physically. The only thing really keeping me afloat is what friends I have left and close family. And some days I wish they would stop caring for me. I don't want to be a burden to them. I wish they would forget about me, move on like I was never around. I don't want to cause anyone any pain but I feel like that is all I do and ever will do. And they don't deserve that. I'm not really sure where else to go with this so I'll just stop now. That is all.
  • Listening to: Jeff Williams


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Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
Current Residence: Ontario, Canada
Favourite genre of music: Deathcore, Metalcore
Favourite style of art: Dark, Surreal, Abstract
Personal Quote: "Lasers make everything better... except Alderaan."


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EnvyOfTheNight Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the fave! :dummy: :heart:
DestructiveDelirium Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You are most welcome :) Sorry about the late reply.
xXxsilentxsorrowxXx Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks 4 the watch !!! :hug: :heart:
and sorry for the very late reply !
DestructiveDelirium Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No worries. Your welcome
madstalfos Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2010
Thanks for the fave :horns:
cat-mcr-ever Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2010
would you like to join our group? we are a group dedicated to all video-games, ever (MMOdA, massive multiplayer on deviantART)

Th1nk-G33k Featured By Owner May 12, 2010
Canadians are whores! UGLY SLUTS!! D=<
DestructiveDelirium Featured By Owner May 12, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Now that is not very nice :(
Th1nk-G33k Featured By Owner May 13, 2010
Muahahaha!! >=D
Th1nk-G33k Featured By Owner May 12, 2010
How come you can draw? I hate you.

Frigging Canadians.

-Your American facebook friend
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