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And All That Could Have Been
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Adrift and at Peace
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Self Destruction
Burning Up Breaking Down Moving Faster Thinking Slower Falling Harder Feeling Weaker Crashing Death Fading Life Self Hatred Meaningless Love Sleepless Nights Unwaking Days Cruel Living Fair Dying Sinful Exsistence Blessed Exstinction Never Right Always Wrong
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Darkness Approaching
My darkest days Approaching fast An endless tunnel A sudden drop The void swallows all Nothing escapes Lost futures and hopeless dreams Cruel lives, and broken pasts Everything ends, Nothing Lasts
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Who I am
Who I am I've come to realize I'm less then a man Filled with sorrow and anger I'm the empty shell of a man A catalyst to my own demise An explosion from the inside I'm not good enough, Smart enough, Strong enough, To last in this world. This is who I am This is what I've become I'm a cancer to myself And there's nobody else They are who I'm not Who I never will be I'm a cancer to everyone else And there's nobody else I can't deny my fate My line is pre-drawn out To try for higher Will resault in failure (So why bother?) I was lied to when I was told I could do more
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Delirium
Delirium The battle between Light and Darkness, I Fell into the pit of black. Darkness engulved me. Cruel hatred seeped into every vein. Sorrow, Pain, and Depression traded for Rage, Anger and Hatred. Arose from the darkness Not a man, but a monster fueled by anger. I no longer reconize the face in the mirror I no longer care. A world full of Sin and Death. A world that no longer cares. I have become apart of that world I have become Fear and Chaos. I am Hatred, I am Malace, I am Delirium...
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Through The Eyes of the Dead
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Hockney Project
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Letting Go
Letting Go We’ve come to the end (this is it) I can feel us fading We were so strong (this is it) But everything has to end I know we’ve fallen apart (this is it) I’ve watched it all come down I’m taking my own road (this is it) This is the end This is my goodbye This is me letting go This is where it all falls down I’m letting you go I’m saying goodbye I never thought we would fall apart I never meant for this to happen Goodbye are always hard But sometimes they’re necessary You deserve much better then this So leave now and never look back I love you (I loved you) It hurts to see
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Adrift and at Peace
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Self Destruction
Burning Up Breaking Down Moving Faster Thinking Slower Falling Harder Feeling Weaker Crashing Death Fading Life Self Hatred Meaningless Love Sleepless Nights Unwaking Days Cruel Living Fair Dying Sinful Exsistence Blessed Exstinction Never Right Always Wrong
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Darkness Approaching
My darkest days Approaching fast An endless tunnel A sudden drop The void swallows all Nothing escapes Lost futures and hopeless dreams Cruel lives, and broken pasts Everything ends, Nothing Lasts
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Who I am
Who I am I've come to realize I'm less then a man Filled with sorrow and anger I'm the empty shell of a man A catalyst to my own demise An explosion from the inside I'm not good enough, Smart enough, Strong enough, To last in this world. This is who I am This is what I've become I'm a cancer to myself And there's nobody else They are who I'm not Who I never will be I'm a cancer to everyone else And there's nobody else I can't deny my fate My line is pre-drawn out To try for higher Will resault in failure (So why bother?) I was lied to when I was told I could do more
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Delirium
Delirium The battle between Light and Darkness, I Fell into the pit of black. Darkness engulved me. Cruel hatred seeped into every vein. Sorrow, Pain, and Depression traded for Rage, Anger and Hatred. Arose from the darkness Not a man, but a monster fueled by anger. I no longer reconize the face in the mirror I no longer care. A world full of Sin and Death. A world that no longer cares. I have become apart of that world I have become Fear and Chaos. I am Hatred, I am Malace, I am Delirium...
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Through The Eyes of the Dead
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Hockney Project
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Rii: Birthday Gift
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Beneath the surface
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Spreading Depression
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Depression
I'm tired of being here, all locked up in my head. Every day I hear a whisper, and I'm closer to being dead. Something taps me on the shoulder, something I can't fight. When it talks in that low voice, my eyes are shut so tight. Once it gets to a cetain point, and I'm still sitting on the ground, it tells me to do things, I'm trying to ignore the sound. Its voice is harsh and filled with confidence, and I can hear a hint of sorrow. Even when it's telling me, I won't live to see tomorrow. I don't know what to say, and I don't know what to do. I'm still hearing it now, and I'm still suffering too. I can't tell what its weak
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The End of the Simple Life
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Sketch: In the name of Depression
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Fading Away
I've been a member here for over 6 years apparently. It feels a lot longer then that though. Back when I still had art as a creative outlet. Back when I actually had creativity to use. I miss those days to be honest and if I had the chance I would go back. There is nothing for me here anymore and yet I still linger. Not just DA but everything in general. I'm going nowhere in life and I only have myself to blame for that. But I really don't want anything more. I just don't want to continue on. I want to hit the off switch and just fade away. Just a faded memory. That is all I feel like anyways. I find myself looking at the past, remembering th
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Back?
Well now, if anyone still follows me, you may have noticed I actually uploaded a new picture. It's been over two years since I've actually drawn something more then a doodle or a rough drawing. It's been way too long. Will there be more? Who knows. Maybe atleast a few. Well I was planning on writing some longer journal entry then this, but I'm running short on time so I will have to leave it at this. I guess I got general message across. Anyways, hopefully I will have other works in the near future (and hopefully not take two years to complete just one picture.. ) And yeah, that's all for now.
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Let's make this official
Seeing as I haven't probably posted any new artworks in.. what a year? No idea. And if anyone even still watches me they may be curious to know as to why. (doubt it)  So I'll make it official that I am pretty much leaving deviantArt. Not like that was suprising. I have lost all inspiration and motivation to draw anymore and that disapeared a long time ago. I don't think I have actually done a reall good drawing since when I was still in highschool. But anyways, enough of that. Just wanted to make that official, plus to post this here incase anyone new stumbles across my account and comments and doesn't get a reply back. Anyways, goodbye anyo
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Thank you for the fave! :dummy: :heart:
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You are most welcome :) Sorry about the late reply.
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Thanks 4 the watch !!! :hug: :heart:
and sorry for the very late reply !
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No worries. Your welcome
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Thanks for the fave :horns:
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