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Can I Think Myself Out Of Depression?



From my Facebook entry the day I made this:

Ended up not going to bed... Got myself all set, was fucking miserable, and wrote a poem. During the course of writing, I toyed with the whole "they're just thoughts" thing, and had a go trying to just "snap out of it", similar to how I stopped being depressed in yr10, back when no one knew I was unwell. It doesn't really work long term in my experience, if it did, I wouldn't be depressed now. But tonight the question "can I think myself out of depression?" helped me get off the floor and paint a bit, and then this page happened. I really need to keep finding ways to not let the emotions destroy me. Especially since I still have a week until I see the new psychiatrist. I won't survive a week unless I do something, even if I have to play these mental games with myself. My life currently depends on my willpower, a frustrating sort of brute force, but I have no other way to fight against my own mind trying to undermine itself. I'm clinging to every bit of psychological reinforcement I can get.

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HP psc1400
Date Taken
Feb 14, 2016, 6:33:16 PM
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