Just viewed your first ever Facebook posting in months, and I'm so pleased to know you are doing so well . . and like you said at the start of your post being 'I'm not dead', I'm so glad your not, because I've come to really regard you as a friend and a part of my life, a small part perhaps since I only ever see you at MCM, but a friend and a part of my life nonetheless, and not just another DeviantArt user like it was the first day you and I met in October 2013, like you had once been to me when I took this picture of you the day we first met.
I'm going to be honest with you about something, and I hope it doesn't upset you, but I'm going to mention it anyway, and that is from time to time, when you've not appeared active online with new content with writing a new Journal or uploading a new piece of art you've produced, I've often had this god awful fear that one day, I'm going to wake up in bed, come down stairs, go onto my Computer - and read from someone that your no longer alive . . and end up crying over you, because to me, your a friend, one I may only see at MCM, but still a friend of importance to me nonetheless . . and I hope that I never have to fear such a day when that might happen, because no one wants to go online and learn someone they have befriended online and later met in person is suddenly gone.
There was a YouTuber I used to watch for about 4 or 5 years, Emily Hartridge was her name, you may have heard about her, she was sadly killed on an Electric Scooter in London back in July. Unlike with you, I never met Emily, but her death did upset me, but if it was you that was no longer alive, your own death would hit me pretty badly because unlike Emily, you and I have met, which makes it more personal I guess. This was Emily if your not familiar with her www.youtube.com/user/emilyhart
For one thing, at my Computer desk, I've got these two pictures of you and me in photo frames, along with JK and Sam, one other DeviantArt user you've probably never heard off called Rebecca Everson [Froodals] and a couple of lovely girls from the Anime / Manga retailers Tokyo Toys, and when I look at these pictures of you and me, I always think of you, wondering how your feeling, hopeful that your happy, and that you'll be happy to see me and my sister again at MCM like you always have been . . but yeah, I look at this pictures of us every day at my desk, thinking of you and hopeful your happy, safe and well.
Anyways, thank you for finally posting something on your Facebook. It's great to see your alive and well, and that dress you wore in that new photo really suits you.
Sorry if maybe I have upset you with my little fear that I said I wanted to be honest with you about, but I just wanted to let you know that as someone who cares about you and sees you as a friend, your death would upset me, and no doubt so many other people, and even if all of us who you view as your friends are not always with you every day, your always being thought about in our thoughts day in, day out.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE XX