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Published: March 16, 2016
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You might have noticed I've got back to drawing and posting art recently (like this little pencil sketch I colour in ^) and people have been asking for an update of how I'm doing :)

Briefly, if you don't know, I've been ill since November. Mental health. I've needed to be hospitalised twice for psychosis/depression/suicidal ideation. It's been an, uh, crazy few months. I've gone as far down the rabbit hole as anyone wants to go, and then some. And here I stand at it's exit, a little blinded by the sunlight, but delighted to be facing the real world again.

There is still not enough ground between me and the hole. My legs wont let me run yet, so I have to walk slowly, treading carefully, feeling with my feet, one step at a time. I'm at a good distance now. Far enough that I dare look back, and see the hole, smaller. One day it will be so far away it will be only a freckle, a blemish on my skin showing where I've been.

It's now been a whole month since I left hospital. Which sounds like a lot, but each fragile step has been tough, though in the right direction. I've just been officially discharged by Treatment Team, who were seeing me daily at home. Everyone seems pleased with my progress. ~Myself included!

Thank you everyone for being there during the darkest time in my life. The fact that so many people have been caring supportive and compassionate means so much to me. It makes me feel like the world is stuffed full of good people, trying their best through tough times, supporting each other. Your kindness and light gives me hope that in the future mental health will be better understood and treated by society.

I want to apologies to everyone who I haven't got back to, or replied to. I have so many unanswered messages and so many lose threads which I now have to tie up...

I've now almost finished writing the full story of what happened, grim details and all. It's so in depth I've had to break it down to several parts, I'm drawing some artwork to go with it too. It's hard, but talking about or experiences with mental illness is already winning part of the battle. I've lost a lot of my life to this illness. I feel like I am at least giving something back by talking about it.

So yep, very happy to report I'm out of the rabbit hole and making my way to firmer ground,
One, step, at, a, time.

Peace, love and Footprints,
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Mar 16, 2016, 3:21:30 PM
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DarkUnknow's avatar
DarkUnknow|Hobbyist Digital Artist
I pray for you to recover and feel better in life. May God give you endless happiness in the future. 
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ArianaNolwenNyme|Hobbyist General Artist
soooo beautyfull :3
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Country-Punk's avatar
I really like this piece. Wishing you the very best.
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Anna-mator's avatar
i heard of you on youtube, and i read the description and got scared, so i tried to find this account so i could offer condolences, (took a while Sweating a little... ) and then i saw this and i feel relieved and happy :D (Big Grin) 
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I love and enjoy your art style, and I admire the way you use art to work through your difficulties. 
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HikadaTheo|Hobbyist Digital Artist
I like that one
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czmanga|Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Amazing work !
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XxxSmoresxxX's avatar
How're you doing?
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noviaemily24's avatar
Overcome the time so hard you've gone, prove how strong you are, keep fighting and run away from that rabbit hole, you deserve to be happy :), you are a great person and a great artist. You can do it!! We love you!!
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Thoughts and prayers are with you!
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morningstarskid|Hobbyist Photographer
Beautiful artwork! Glad your putting some breathing room between you and the rabbit hole...I remember every minute of my breaks grom you? I believe that adds to the battle to keep it moving and get on with good things and behavior mods in our lives...
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chromosaure|Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Omg best style I love it love it love it I wish I was that good!!!!!10000 out of 10 possible points!
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AhsokaTano1611|Student General Artist
You have a wonderful art style
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Dimeolas7's avatar
please, consider writing the book, illustrated by you, and tite it 'peace, Love, and Footprints'
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PIRATEMG's avatar
I'm really happy you fell better!!! You're art is really strong and I think you're strong too: life is full of difficulties but I wish you'll be able to exceed everything!!!!
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maruyang|Hobbyist Artist
really beautiful your artwork. i hope you find peace.
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I, and all the rest of us, support you every step.

I've never been that far down the hole, but I've struggled for years with depression, anxiety, OCD, and some of the features of my autism.
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And I want you to know that your art has helped me feel better able to express my own troubles and struggles.
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WierdAnimePerson13|Hobbyist General Artist
I hope you feel better
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CourtOrder|Hobbyist General Artist
:heart: sending love :heart:
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I'm only now seeing this and it's wonderful to know you were getting better then. I hope your forward progress continues. I'm proud of your journey so far and I believe it'll keep getting brighter. Lots of love and prayers. 
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You are beautiful and incredible. I wish I had known about you when I was going through my own trials many years ago. You are an inspiration and you bring so much light to the world. <3
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AlexisCalmets|Hobbyist General Artist
Do you take commissions for portraits? Like for a twitch profile etc???
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