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Self Help

By DestinyBlue
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Just to let you know I'm out of psychiatric hospital again.

This time for good I hope :)

I know I haven't really gone into my experiences or detail with this currently episode of mental trouble. It's all a bit raw and weird at the moment, I'm just putting the pieces of what's happened together myself. I've been open about my about my experience with depression and anxiety, which are horrible monsters, but I haven't needed hospitalization because of them. Unfortunately this episode has seen a new monster rear it's ugly head: Psychosis.

Psychosis is where your lose touch or contact with reality. You interpret things differently to 'normal', like seeing, hearing or believe things that aren't actually real or there. My creative brain got a little -too- creative, and I couldn't tell what was real and what was not anymore, I experienced hallucinations and delusions. It's been rather frightening and upsetting. I will tell you exactly what that monster looked like properly later. It's all a bit raw right now.

Thank you for your messages during this difficult time. I read them all. It's probably best I didn't reply, as I was pretty incoherent at points. I hope to be back drawing and interacting normally soon :)

I really really really really want to be better for good, and I'm working hard on it, putting on lots of metaphorical plasters ;)

I wasn't so happy with the face of:  Fix Me by DestinyBlue So I improved it a bit, and cropped it so the message is clearer. Not sure which one I like more though... What do you think? 

Peace, Love and Reality,

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OscarTylerFitsgerald's avatar
Im sorry to hear about your troubles. your art is amazing and you earned yourself another watcher. 
MindPictureBody's avatar
mental health care XD
Photo-illusionist's avatar
strong message with this your not alone just want you to know that....but why so adorable it inspires the protector in me lol i just want to hug the character 
Wokemo's avatar
Nice colorsWowie [Undertale] 
dazdn's avatar
They're both great!  Keep up the good work.
thinkinthemid's avatar
I like this one better than the other one. The colors are more vibrant and the look in her eyes is easier to capture. The message of the picture is also clearer. Yeah.
Jhannuzs's avatar
you make me think about my inner harmony
Mini-gemini92's avatar
You are not alone sweetheart. I have severe depression and it really is a monster!! I hate that anybody has to experience those types of feelings.
Piper-Fukario's avatar
what do u use
for painting or making the art?
this is grogeous btw,all of your art is
TheLastSolstice's avatar
If you watch MLP or not, I think that you would like the character Screwloose. ( The fan song for her is really good:… )
WaffleMaker458's avatar
your art is truly amazing! you earned a new watcher! keep it up :)
DoodleBunBun's avatar
one day i hope to just as great of an artist as you, even though i am only 13 and i'm not that great. but your art is very inspiring! i am very impressed. i look up to your amazing art skill and talent. hopefully one day i can learn from you.
Merengil's avatar
You know what I love with that drawing ? Her eyes. They say, "eyes are the window of the soul"... What I can see in these is hope for what's next, and a lot of life. I can tell you you're on the right way right from these :D
Best of luck for everything, you're not alone :) We deviants keep supporting you :D
IDontKnowAnymore2's avatar
Agh I love your art style so much!! I hope I can draw like you some day.
Dreamwalker22's avatar
Just from looking at your art I can tell you are a uniquely beautiful soul. You and your art have been an inspiration to me. You shine so brightly even when you are weighed down by so much, I cannot imagine how brilliant you will be when you are free.
nena211's avatar
I hope you'll get better soon. It's good that you are able to write about those things. Most people... including myself choose to rather pretend that everything is ok with them. And trying to ignore the problem doesn't work in a long run and it only make things worse. I'm happy for you that you were brave enough to seek help. Don't give up and keep creating your beautiful art!
Alpacanaa's avatar
hope ur ok to~!
thehungrybookworm's avatar
We are here for support if you need us. Monsters are scary to face alone.
UltimateLazerbot's avatar
i couldn't imagine how that much be for you, id imagine its very frightening and i hope everything gets better for you.
Tezeze's avatar
I like this face more than the last one. :)
I wish you all the best in getting better! I hope those monsters won't take a hold of you permanently. 
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