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Pleeeeeease don't pop....

Unfortunately depression has reared it's ugly head for me again...  Depression by DestinyBlue [Where I first opened up about tough times]

And it's come with it's sister, anxiety.

Anxiety is the smaller, meaner one, where as depression is the more manipulative. Depression makes you think she's your friend, then pushes a knife into your hand and whispers to hurt yourself. Anxiety punches you in the chest while shouting in your ear about all the times you fucked up. It's an unpleasant duo.

I try and not listen to either, but it's hard. 

I'm really glad I opened up and told my story with mental health, but it's actually it's still quite hard for me to talk about online. I really don't want to sound like I'm moaning or throwing a pity party. I have many wonderful blessings in this life which I am so grateful for, but I do also have a mental health condition which sometimes makes life horribly difficult.
I also know there are thousands of people who struggle like I do, and I know just opening up about my experience can help. 
So I don't want to be quiet about it. Sorry if it comes off as moaning, but I truly believe this is an issue worth opening up about :heart:
It's a struggle at the moment, and drawing helps me deal :)

Thanks for all the kindness shown towards me, it is comforting to know how many people understand x

Hope the painting itself is kind of self explanatory... but I'd love to hear your opinions and interpretations on it's meaning :)

Just opened my print shop up for Christmas: with free shipping all December :heart:

Peace, Love and Red Balloons,
Blue xx

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UncleSunday Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2019
This is so cute and sweet!!!!!
DevLisa Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2019
I think I might be able to relate, but the problem is, that I actually feel the same way about putting that stuff online. It's scary, people will talk about you, like you just want attention.
Now, I still am not entirely honest about my life online, I always let my flaws go away, I'm still not perfect, I know. But then other people get so open about their life, it might make me feel regrets and all that, but still... It's scary to be honest, online. After this, I think -I should- be more open about the real me, and just accept these flaws. And I hope you guys, and you Blue, have a nicer life, an improving one, a blessed one.
Because that's what you deserve. <3
ThatRandomUnderbirb Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2019  Hobbyist General Artist
I feel like your art is inspired me to make art like yours. I know i should just post this on your wall but i got lazy and I really like this post. Keepup the good work and great art. I feel like we all need you on DA...
Lularuu Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
i feel like it is more of, the balloons are maces, and i'm the balloon. too scared to pop
GaladrayAngel Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
me 2
jennahawke39 Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2018  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for making pieces like this one, Blue. I got it a few months back and I look at it everytime my anxiety acts up. Lately, my anxiety has been so bad I've been having a hard time just functioning in regular life. Your art makes me feel better and it gives me the courage to smile.  I have a fee prints and this one is easily my favorite.  Thank you for your beautiful art and how it helps me make it through the rough times
Scotchtape333 Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2018  Student Digital Artist
this is so pretty!!!!
goosetooth Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
this is such an accurate portrayal of anxiety. I have severe anxiety, it's so severe it's significantly handicapped me and affected my life.
ThisRComics Featured By Owner May 9, 2018
so accurate. Anxiety is normally complicated to explain. And now its sumarized in one image
Cable-Bunny8 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Woah, all of these are so beautiful~ 
khaithianpau Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2018
This made me cry..... 
QuartziteProductions Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
I suffer from mental illnesses two depression and anxiety 

it it makes you feel like your going down a pit and going crazier every second 
Chickiepop Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2018  Student Digital Artist
but please don't pop
Agneska101 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Student Digital Artist
NyxTheFlyingKatFish Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2017  Student General Artist
love it and using for a school project <3 <3 <3
StrawberryScissors Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2017
You don't sound whiny at all. Mental heath is a serious thing. Yes, many people have the same problems, but I applaud you on your courage to open up about it. I hope you get better!
Wonderwoman07 Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2017
I will pray for you. 
selkstudios Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2017
thank you for making this more easy for me to tell people what this feels like
cdoodlenoodle Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
This piece has so much emotion in it! When I first saw it I thought that it was about not letting people get too close to you in fear that they might get hurt, but I understand your meaning too. I hope you feel better soonHeart 
Maehedrose Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2017
Nobody thinks you're moaning - at least no one who matters and toss the rest! - so you talk about it all you want ... talk frequently and in great detail; just talking can help relieve pressure.  I know, for a fact, that people who really suffer from mental distress are always worried about sounding fake and attention seeking but the people you need to hear you will know better. 
kaytbear Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Your art has such deep meanings. I love that.
GabriellaPArt Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2017  Professional General Artist
I love your style and the colour pallets that you use throughout your pieces. You have a new watcher!
Blisle Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2017
I love this photo! I can relate, and feel like this daily special when in groups. Great job BlueDestiny!
DoctorWhoOne Featured By Owner Edited Aug 5, 2017
I don't know if you ever watch people on YouTube, but there's a user I watch called Emily Hartridge who has Anxiety and she often speaks about it in her Video's, thou they are not all about Anxiety, they are usually pretty random . . and some are somewhat naughty topics shall we say . . but I've looked up with ones about Anxiety so if your ever interested, here's her Video's on the subject, 7 of them when I looked up Anxiety on her YouTube channel…

As you love to say - Peace Sign Emoji Peace :love:Love and 5 seconds hug  Hugs !

P.S. Got my London MCM Expo ticket sorted . . good thing as well, cos my sister tells me they are running out fast, all three days !!! :iconhappyfellaavatar:
bunnywithmonocle Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
The symbolism here... It's so sad.
Benign-Dragon Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2017
Paranoia would be thinking the balloons were filled with nails and chloroform.
DocterZeptard Featured By Owner May 10, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
those balloons are adorable. Nice work
Ebooher Featured By Owner May 1, 2017
FaethS Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2017
Being someone who suffers from anxiety, believe me when I say I know how this feels all too well.
PurpleBushie Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2017  Hobbyist Artist
yep i think thatd make me pretty frickin anxious
Dimeolas7 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2017
lovely pic, its not moaning or throwing a pity party, its whats going on. Life and society have a way of making us all feel guilty and like we cant admit when somethings is wrong. It isolates us and keeps us from dealing and healing. Tricky thing is, that it sneaks inon ya, like its our own voice so we must believe it. nah, lies all lies. I know its lies yet it still gets me. I am trying to keep a relaxed awareness and when it tries anything I tell it to leave me alone. Im trying to learn the discipline to be in control, and when i can do this it works. I'm my worst critic however so is tough sometimes. I'll say this, in looking at your work you're an exceptionally gifted artist. 
Ciri-Smith Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2017  Hobbyist
This picture is so beautiful, but it also makes me sad... but that show that this artwork is really good. Art should give emotions. (sorry for my English.. I am from Germany)
superoctopie Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2017
Whats poppin Carlos Icon  
wkeeble12 Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2017   Traditional Artist
Isn't it just annoying that pain pokes you everywhere you go....?
B-jayy Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2017
so pretty :-:
TheHantaiCollection Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
This is absolutely beautiful because this is exactly how it feels for me.
Maxpower111 Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2017
wow! this artwork describes anxiety perfectly I mean this is exactly how I feel when my anxiety get the better of me
BasketAiger Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2017  Student Traditional Artist
I relate to this beautiful piece of art way too much.
odetobirds Featured By Owner Edited Dec 27, 2016
I have Anxiety. And this is exactly how it feels.... 
EllieDoodles101 Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I relate to this so much, I just hate it when my anxiety comes. It sucks.
Moltenkitty Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2016  Student General Artist
I'm honestly not sure if I have already commented on this or not.. (so please forgive me if I already have <3) but for me it's all the things I want or have, and am so afraid that they (and me too) might just *pop* one day, and like that, gone forever.
Paint-is-Trash Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I love the feel it has to it! Very nice
Nat-The-Sagittarius Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2016  Hobbyist
I love your work! 
AnimeGirl513 Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2016
Beautiful and heart wrenching. A true story of the struggle with anxiety. I know the feeling.
DasLouis Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2016
I nearly cried when I saw this. It's always so hard to put these feelings into words, but this just sums it up perfectly. Beautiful work, as always. Hope you're feeling better!
MarchLito Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2016
This is me. It's beautiful.
hntrenary2 Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2016
This explains every part of my depression

Thank you for posting such wonderful work
grace0rulz Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
i feel like this a lot...its a horrible feelinhg...depresion and anxiety are...but nobody beleives me....
Melon-X-Limey Featured By Owner Edited Dec 2, 2016  Hobbyist Filmographer
Aw :( You should try to explain to them how you're feeling, try to show them what the symptoms of anxiety/depression are.
kitsuine Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2016  Hobbyist
(my interpretation, relating to how I feel)
The balloons represent the people in my life: friends and family. They're all happy, but to be honest everyone always looks happier in your eyes when you are experiencing troubles of your own. Sometimes seeing them can make you smile, make you happy...however, you can't help but have feelings anxiety, paranoia, depression in your life.

If someone gets close enough to come into contact with your anxiety. Pop. They're gone. Gone out of your life permanently due to misunderstanding you.They see your anxiety as your distrust in them,that you seem to see as your relationship as not worth much if such 'small worries' will make you fluctuate...despite you not being able to help it for you don't choose to have anxiety, it grows on you.

The anxiety (spikes) isn't the thing that is keeping people away however, but it is because of it that you choose to hold people at arms length. You hold them away so you will never have to feel loss for when your relationship ends. You come off as cold, antisocial, selfish.  

This is how I feel in my current point of life, I have lost extremely close friends to such misunderstandings and that in itself has warped me into what I am today, someone who prefers the comfort of being alone most times. 

Thank you so much for this drawing, what you have captured is thought-jogging to the point that many people can relate. It's both a beautiful and touchingly sad piece...many words contained in just one piece of art. You have both talent and strength for being to express your experiences and feelings into your art. I hope that this year is looking brighter for you ~ <3
(Whenever I try expressing my feelings to people of through creativity, I always end up breaking down and never finish) 
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