demonica

I watch your intent profile See your hands Dance gracefully over the keys A grace that never surfaces With anything Or anyone else You laugh, Something on that glowing screen Must amuse you You're turning at last My heart leaps A smile begins But no You only want to Show me what The Master has to say Your ruler Your God Who dictates your time Your mind Your heart I watch sadly, Smile turns false Nodding in agreement Then leaving I don't want you to see the tears They wouldn't register anyhow I know, it's stupid. But I'm also fleeing the image In the reflection of your eyes I saw not myself Nor darkness Nor

Slim wraiths of sorrow wrap your dark arms about me Let the calm chill of shadow take over the harsh Burning Light I call for salvation A reprisal from life Longing for the sweet Seduction of nothingness Know that I wait, Head high and palms open Know that I watch Heart full and lips smiling ...and do not mourn, never that. For among the bitterness of life, I could never find hope Among the sterile sunbeams, I could never find joy And deep within darkness... its tender embrace... No white No black No lies, Only Grey.

There has never been a sunrise that I did not begrudge the ending of night- the darkness beckons me it sings to me of freedoms untold in daylight Where I may dare to have a self MYself; I can aspire to be more than a shadow in this absence of light. Sunsets forgotten lead me unto ecstasy into the NightDawn. There shall I fly, Shrouded in white Armored in black into being into seeing all my reflections in focus at last.

My white reflection burns me reminding me of innocent days and starry nights When I was trusting when I had faith Now I am blinded by the fires of truth Old dreams come back to taunt me and I am lashed by chains of hopelessness There is no respite only unending visions and unfulfilled prophecies of freedom and love as I go plunging through hell; sorrow incarnate