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every shade of orange
i cannot remember the boy’s name. i grasp at spider web wisps of faded memories of his face, of his clothes, all I can see is orange. the only concrete images I can recall are that of his thick rimmed glasses as he read his poems, his fingers as they held a clove cigarette to his lips after class; he smelled like soap and cloves and laughed without using his eyes. the rest of my memories of him are the orchestrations flowing from his mouth: sunset soaked streets that criss-cross under fading suns, raw sienna dirt under gnawed fingernails and dead ochre and vermillion leaves skittering across hard asphalt. i picture ja
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HowtoUseMyspacetoKillYourself
How to Use MySpace to Slowly Kill Yourself Ana and Mia are best friends Best Friends! they tell each other. friends until the end! they hook their pinkies and kiss their fists and type their passwords into myspace. warped and blurred reflections funhouse mirror images they take pictures in the bathroom mirrors an attempt at photographing their insides which have started to poke through their tautly stretched flesh. post pictures of their progress to their ideal skeletal state still frames of ribcages vicious hip bones barely covered by skin. hide and seek from all of us but their community of skeletons with nothing
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asesinato de amor
asesinato de amor You had perfection in your hands and two ends in your mind. I saw the synapses fire and the reactions start in motion. Sedated, I watched, as you pulled the trigger, and I blinked as the bullets kissed my skin. You had perfection in your reach, and you chose to smash it to pieces. Now shards of indefinites are all that remain, scattered like the broken glass on which I lay upon in repose, -exposed exsanguinations- at your feet. Our eyes meet. -an infinite second- Now you're pulling the trigger, two shots to the head… You had perfection in your hands, and two ends in your mind. But you had made your decisi
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lullaby
Sable eyeliner mixed with tears: saline etching stainless steel. Eat diamonds, cough up coal. Blood and conversation. You ruin me. This is my lullaby to you.
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minuet
minuet It's quiet here, in my repose. Through dusty sunlight and broken window panes- Remnants of passion juxtaposed against shards of deception. -Machiavellian tendencies, to say the least.- Malice is my favorite color. And it looks best on you.
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nocturne
nocturne I can feel my heart beat in my ears And my breath in my chest -the blood in my veins… But im not real. Falling falling Paralyzed Im not real.
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requiem
requiem the kiss kiss of stainless steel Madeline Madeline she's laughing up and down her arm in the bathroom; in her mind chewing glass the taste of windows and sky of blood and tears a consciousness full of lightning all the stars no longer shine nightmares have bled into dreams snowflakes and rose petals are ripped flesh and razorblades Dear Madeline stay upstairs and out of sight until December melts until the year is new and we will pray for this suicide.
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star crossed lovers
Star crossed lovers I'll show you how to do this right. My hands around your throat- You'll repay me with your last breath- And with your death we all will laugh.        Now I can laugh again. Choke the life and suffocate the sin. Purge my soul of what you did to me.        I thought I heard you speak        I thought I heard you say-        And beg for forgiveness        A cruel poetic justice        To act out our opposing roles. The dying sun's bloodstained rays reveal us alone I never thought it would be this way. Tell me now- where do we go from here? Shall I leave you to lie in wait where you now repose Or should
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ghost of summer
ghost of summer i felt sorrow sliding down my cheek and i reached up to wipe it away but my fingers grasped only air- i'm fading fast. where is the cool summer wind on my face- warm raindrops kissing my skin- embracing the night with open arms June is coming. I need this. Can I keep this?
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did i ever tell you how you make me feel? how when i see you my insides melt and the world inverts- because you make me nervous how when i hear you breathe my name into my ear my throat closes up and i choke on my own words- because you make me afraid how when i lay next to you i can feel your heart beat through your shirt and it makes my heart skip a beat- because you make me anxious how when youre gone the smell of you lingers on my pillows for days and i find myself sleeping on your side of the bed- because you make me lonely. and when you leave i just want to bury my face in your chest and cry- because you make me miserable.
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5.23.10
i obviously do not use this site anymore, but i am not dead. just elsewhere. maybe ill come back one day? probably not because i now know of all the plagiarism and out right theft that this website enables. but i will give you a quick update since my last post like 2 years ago: -jake has long since been out of my life. turns out he was just using me to get over his ex-fiance. hes now engaged to some random troll faced bartender with three kids from 2 different guys. so i feel that is his karma, ya know? OH and not long after my last post, i fell at chipotle and broke my ankle. i had to have surgery to have 9 screws and a plate put in. i
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3.3.08
whoa. its been almost a year since i last updated. alot has changed. an awful lot. im graduating in may, so thats good. jacob and i are together still. weve been having issues lately because the topic of marriage comes up and shit like that. my life is just school, work and jacob. it sucks. i am hanging in there because i know that things will get better and alot less stressful when i graduate. i cant wait until i just work and dont have hw or papers or tests. ive been in school for almost 20 years. im sick of it! ugh. other than that, nothing is too new. ive cut out some dead weight in my life. i dont hang out with people who are crap fr
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6.30.07
wow. it's been a long time since i've been on deviantart. i've been super busy. I divide my time between working in solon/aurora, jake in medina, and packing up my stuff in kent. i work at my dad's new company out in aurora. it's nice that it's so much closer to kent than eastlake was. and i'll probably continue to work part time in aurora when school starts. so that is a good thing, too. i am literally taking a break from packing my things to move into my new place. i got a one bedroom apartment in stow, i think technically, its stow... and i am so excited about it. it might be small, but its mine. and i cant wait until im donemoving. its
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PygarHobbyist Photographer
Thanks very much for the :+fav: of Gemini! :thanks:
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ShawnCossProfessional General Artist
Hey wanted to say thanks for coming out and stoppin by and saying hello. Sorry we didn't get to speak longer about literature but I couldn't be rude to potential buyers =D.

When can we expect the book written in diary entries?
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OOoooh that's a lot of hidden comments! I hope you don't hide mine! ha, just to say I think you've got some real talent and I really enjoyed reading some of your stuff, well done =]
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ShawnCossProfessional General Artist
Hey Jenn. Thanks for adding me =)

I love your writing. Especially the Ana/Mias myspace one.
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hello to you

where's the second part to this story eh? haha feels like ages since i read the beginning

hope to see it up soon hehe x
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Thanks for the Fav! How did you come acrost my page?