Its so very hard,
To look you in the face,
When I know you think,
Im just a big disgrace.
I wish that I knew how,
I could make you see,
What it really is,
That you mean to me.
No matter what it is,
That you hear me say,
You dont believe I love you,
Not even one full day.
Im nothing but a huge mistake,
Theres nothing about me thats perfect,
Other than having you in my life,
Im nothing but a fucking reject.
But I will tell you this,
A million times a day or more,
I love you with my heart and soul,
And without you Im just dirt on the floor.
And when you say youll leave me,
I feel as if Ive been ripped in two,
I wish youd slap me, kick me, beat me,
Pull out my hair, I can handle that too.
Just know that if you go,
Youll cut out my heart,
Rip away whats left of my soul,
So just load me into a burial cart.
And just know that if you stay,
Ill love you every single day,
Ill gladly bear any hurt.