Struggle of the pain

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By davebold370
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Oh sweet pain,
That drags my world away,
I long for death,
Giggling faces bind me here,

As I lose so they gain,
My dark slumber delays,
I draw upon His breath,
As the deer.

I have hurt myself. The pain is great. It's been a full year of pain. I want to die. But my kids are the reason I don't. But I can't do it myself. So, I look up and ask for help. 
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Animated-bear by poisen2014 un grande abbraccio,resta con noi amico mio!
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I hope you are not serious but it could be you are. Please talk with someone in person about it and seek help
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The poem is deeper than the first 4 lines. 
As I lose so they gain. As I lose my strength the family gains theirs.
My dark slumber delays, it delays because they bring me joy because they gain.
I draw upon His breath, is a point that I draw upon Christ's breath for strength
As the deer, flows with the song that is linked. As I am physically and spiritual drained, I thirst for time with Christ. 

I hope that helps. :D
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was more thinking about the comment section + when people write such things it means its on their mind. It is always good to talk in any case