Within these paragraphs, I have summed up the world around me.
Paragraph ONE: The Macro Level
Living in Bahrain hasn't been easy. It use to be a calm place where people like myself would dwell into meaningless activities to keep ourselves busy since the stereotype of Bahrainis is true - we are lazy. But that's only because we're bored. Now, with the King loosing his mind and announcing Martial Law and allowing his neighbouring states to occupy the country on INVITATION, we (the people) have started a new mindless activity - staying alive. The will to survive and stay safe has never been as strong. Each individual within the borders of this kingdom have felt the change and have been forced into this new routine: Waking up, checking the news, checking if its safe outside, coming back as soon as possible and staying home until we fall asleep. No one has the balls to stay out after dark and if they are out, they are paranoid as fuck. The people of the country are not only going through an unofficial civil war, but with the Media Wars going on and the occupation, we are in effect, freaking out.
Paragraph TWO: Micro Level
This is my personal life routine: I wake up for school, I go to school, I come home for lunch, I clean my house, feed my pets, go out, come back and do homework, go to bed. Now this usually includes company at my house already, or perhaps a party to crash or a few hours drinking with friends at my place. The usual, mindless attitude. At the time, prior to the recent events, I was looking for a part-time job and redecorating my house. Now, my whole world has been flipped. I can't go to school for fear of my life, I can't leave the house for fear of my life, I can't go see my friends for fear of my life, I can't have delivery since the delivery people have feared for their lives, I can't stop watching the news everywhere, I can't stop talking about politics, I can't stop dreaming about it and I can't stop freaking out.
Paragraph THREE: The People around me
Now, with all this kept in mind, obviously the people around me have changed in their moods and attitudes as well. They have become the paranoid broadcasters of not only fear but hatred too. Some have stopped talking to me due to my political views, others refuse to associate, and more and more, you realize who your friends really are when even though they are the opposition to your political view, they somehow manage to refuse to see you in that painted light. They are the ones who have stood by, and fought off any political bullshit that could come between us and we respect each others views, as they are of course an individual's views and just continued being there for each other. I personally don't blame the people for how they've reacted to the situation, as most have obligations to their families or fear for their own safety and well-being. Good luck to you all, and hopefully you'll remember the past more than the present state of matters.
Paragraph FOUR: The Dilemma
Honestly, in these terribly dark times, it is impossible to keep a smile on your face or even think of yourself long enough to be selfish without reprimanding yourself for being just that. These are very hard times. With the economy standing still, and daily nessesities hard to come by, you wonder where your loyalities really lie? I do miss the Old Bahrain, I never said I didn't and I do want change and my Basic Rights, but that puts you in a tough spot - Are you too spoiled and cannot live without everything and anything being regularly available? Are you patient enough to hold out for however long this may take? And I also assure you, by the looks of it now, its only going to get worse. I don't know, I hope I am strong enough to stick to it. I really do hope that it'll all end soon, that we can move on and love each other again and forgive and forget and have true change.
Paragraph FIVE: Final Thoughts
Bahrain is such a beautiful country, the mix of people here truely gives you a sense of a multicultural society. Unfortunately, this society has many layers and many sides. Discrimination in every form is very visible in the country and it is our own faults for letting it get this bad to begin with. Also, the lack of proper education to most have crippled the progression of the young Bahraini's mind. It is very difficult for most of us to do the smart thing, we usually go for the easy way. Social Classes are very apparent in Bahrain as well by the way, Socialites love to play this game of excess and no consequence. The divide between them are gaping and almost impossible to bridge. My thoughts for now, are with my people and I wish for a better tomorrow where Bahrain could be ONE again. Where Bahrain can move forward.
Listening to: News