I enjoy the fact that I have online relationships that have weight, and meaning, and are important to me. I like that I am the kind of person who can have relationships like that.
But sometimes it's hard not to feel like I'm living vicariously. Sort of living this virtual existence behind a mask presented via the various personae I have online. And even scarier is how much enjoyment, and satisfaction I can achieve through just these relationships.
Don't get me wrong. I also have real life relationships. I play music in the flesh with other talented players. I hang out and go out with my wife and several of her close friends. I am friends with a couple of them on my own. Then there are my kids, and my grand kids. There are other real life relationships I have as well, at several different levels.
But several of my online associations are such that I would consider life style changes to keep them. Sound silly? Well, some of these people I respect, as men or women of truth and character, to a far greater degree than many I know in the flesh. Those that are among the most significant figures are all highly creative, often professionally so. Many are friends I have known and cared about for a decade or more... often a lot more. I trust these people and care about them. I laugh and cry with them, and tell them first when something important happens to me. I know about them, how they live and what they want and need. I know them.
Looked at in that light, where does one draw the line? I may never meet some of these people face to face, yet I know them and like them and look forward to hearing from them. Are the relationships any less real?
I'm buying new equipment and learning new recording techniques to improve how my song ideas sound. I'm doing solo work on my original tunes now.
Next journal I'll post links so you guys can go listen to something.