That's two for the pinky. I'll try to address that when I add the colar and jewelry. I've been trying to work up the impetus to do a series of erotic works. I want to do work that comes only from inner drive, instead of a drive for money. I got this piece from blank white screen in PSCS3 to the point where I posted it in about 6 hours. My guess is I'll hit my stride doing pieces that take me perhaps 14 hours over 2 days. If I can build a body of work, I can market it in several different ways online to make money.
But while I'm actually doing the work, I want to focus only on the joy and the drive of creating. I'd like it to feel like it used to feel in my 20's when I was building my skills up in order to earn a real position as a paid illustrator. I put everything into works I never expected to bedirectly paid for. I put everything I had into each piece, but the only force behind the drive to create was my passion for art. My passion to draw. During the course of actually persuing my professional career, I lost that. I've joked over the last decade... calling myself a prostitute.
The joke is it's so true it isn't even funny. I got to the point where I simply did not pic up a pencil or turn on my computer unless someone was writing me a big juicy check. Up until my recent run-in with major surgeries, I made good money. But I gave a lot back for it. Bad deals from lying owners, contracts signed and then renegged on, putting in the up front work on huge art projects, and then the money falls through and the designs are never produced.
Time and again, working for owners who knew less than I did about the industry we were in, and the art that would sell and open new markets. I will readilly admit it was NOT all bad, but it was hard. Being even moderately successful required a whole lot of personal sacrifice that had nothing to do with my skills as an artist. You do that for 30 years, it is hard not to get burnt out.
And I did. Bad. So bad I didn't want to do art at all. Not for money, not for fun. So I didn't. All this past year, the only art I did at all was the art for my band's logo and t-shirts, flyers etc.
Now it's coming back around, though. This piece is really more or less me shaking off the rust. If I can keep doing these, the ones I do a couple months from now will look tons better and be a lot tighter than this one.
And hopefully I can enjoy this, enjoy creating, without the pressure. A lot of other things in my life feel really good. It's be nice to put my art banck in that category... ya know?