DarkMatt94

SO How you ppl doin'? I've stopped uploading stuff since 2012 (more or less), mostly 'cause I barely even do anything anymore, which SUCKS It's been so hard to get any jobs, which also sucks since I gotta gather cash to go live outside this piece of ass country I gotta leave this year, if not the next, I'm getting old gosh darn it back on the topic that I've stopped uploading stuff: no one will definitely read this since it's been about 7 years and no one even read these back then speaking of getting a job: I really wanna get a Galaxy Note 9 cause then I'll probably feel inspired enough to draw on my phone whenever, and it'll have enough i...

Sup I'm absolutely 200% sure that no one that followed me here 6 years ago still use this and even if someone did, no one would see this, BUT STILL. -About depression: I still feel not motivated most of the times and anxiety is a hell lot more intense now. BUT. I've taken meds and at least I don't want to die anymore. -About drawing: I barely do it anymore, it's just when I upload stuff here, if and when that happens (it's been like this for years now). I'm not even as good as I was, I don't think. ALSO, I've been uploading paintings, but those are just painted over pictures, so it's not 100% original, it's just painted over, but still the...

So yea, I'm sad again... This time my girlfriend(?) had a mental thingy where she doesn't know if she wants to be with me anymore and I really don't know where she got that from, but it really scares me because I love her so much and I don't want to lose her too! That came out of nowhere and then she was going to visit me (she lives in a different city) for the weekend (plus monday, cause it was a holiday here). Turns out saturday she made a party for one of her friends (and invited the rest of them) to her mother's house (which is in my city) whilst her mother wasn't there. Of course, I got jealous, but moving on: Sunday she said she'd st...