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I’m going to start talking to my wall,
Instead of people,
With all their arrogance,
Who never listen at all,
You sit there,
And I wait with apprehension,
When I talk nonsense,
Just to see if you’re paying attention,
But you don’t look up,
You don’t utter a single word,
It’s as if I’m nobody,
So I hurt,
And while I’m not saying nobody cares,
They don’t care enough to reach me their hand,
Just words – void of any feeling,
I suppose,
I’m just damned.
:icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 1 3
If only you knew
I can’t bear the weight of the world on my shoulders,
And I don’t understand why only I am expected to,
While you tell me I’m stupid,
While I answer fuck you,
I dragged myself out of bed,
I consoled my sister as well,
While the tears suffocate my heart,
I feel like I’m already in hell,
You can’t even give me a hug,
Or talk to me straight,
While I did the best I could,
I think you underestimate,
How much she meant to me too,
And while I might seem strong,
You of all people,
Should know how much I’ve had in my plate,
While I’ve always been there for you,
If only you understood,
If only you cared,
If only you knew,
If only you knew...
:icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 1 3
Why turn on a light,
In a room with walls so bare,
With an always open door,
But no one who’s ever there,
Why stand in front of a window,
When there's nothing to see outside,
Just an empty street with kill lights,
Why stand there and stare,
Do you hope to fill an emptiness,
From people around in your home,
Who lave your heart with money,
But have no love to spare,
Or are you simply thinking,
Wondering if this is the life you want,
If this is what your heart tells you,
If he will still love you when grey colours your hair,
Or maybe you're just passing through,
On your way to your bed,
Do you wonder the same thing,
And why you just don't seem to care.
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The Nine Slaves - Ch. 12 - Yaoi :icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 3 0
Gone for so long,
I should have guessed it would happen,
You’re someone else’s now,
And even though it’s been years,
I always thought I was strong,
I guess I was wrong,
But it hurts so much,
To think I was the only one,
To look forward to you coming here,
To spending time together,
See the smile on your face,
Feel the stubble on your chin,
To start anew – a new begin,
You and me,
True and free,
I should have known better,
It’s just a fairy tale,
And it’s unfair to ask of you the same,
Pain my heart goes through,
I failed,
Not just myself I guess,
And all that’s left in me,
Is asking the same question,
Over and over again,
Do I still love you,
Or do I just love the ghost,
Of our memories…
:icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 2 5
Little ol' me
So tired,
Nothing’s the same,
Not admired,
Not desired,
Am I to blame,
Rotten to the core,
Disease slowly eating away,
At my dead body,
With hell to pay,
And more than I bargained for,
I guess it’s just,
Little ol’ me,
At death’s door.
:icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 1 1
Not an elf
I was reading,
One of your poems again,
And your words of love,
But not for me,
Left me bleeding,
Left me with such a pain,
It was like the last shove,
To get me on my knees,
I surprised myself,
With the feelings inside,
I always denied I had,
So that I believed it was true,
And I’m glad I’m not an elf,
Slowly fading with just my pride,
And I’m mad,
That our visits are so few,
And I’m so happy for you,
That my tears won’t stop falling,
Causing me to drown,
In the little box I made around me,
You were never mine – that much is true,
That’s just the thing,
That’s what got me down,
Because you are still free,
While still in love,
And I hope you’ll never read this,
But I’ll take my chance,
Because I know you sometimes still look my way,
And I should be glad,
You’re at least still my soulmate...
:icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 1 3
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The Nine Slaves - Ch. 11 - Yaoi :icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 11 2
Dragon Fly At Blijdorp (Zoo in Rotterdam) by Darkfallenangel21 Dragon Fly At Blijdorp (Zoo in Rotterdam) :icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 0 2 Portrait by Darkfallenangel21 Portrait :icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 1 6 Misha by Darkfallenangel21 Misha :icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 7 0
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The nine Slaves - Ch. 10 - Yaoi :icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 10 15
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Brain death :icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 2 0
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The Nine Slaves - Ch. 9 - Yaoi :icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 8 14
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I Can't Help Being Me :icondarkfallenangel21:Darkfallenangel21 1 3
I admire her strength,
I pity her end,
I love her tenderness,
I hate there are things I can’t,
Do to help her,
To lessen her pain,
To end her misery,
Shut down her brain,
So she may rest,
As much as I would miss,
Our time together,
A loving kiss,
On my forehead,
With tea as drinks,
Together laughing,
At the silliest things,
All I can do now,
Is be strong for two,
Bear the burden alone,
But sometimes even I feel blue,
I cry forlorn,
For the loss yet to come,
For her I feel,
Coming though at random,
I’m losing her,
Like she lost her man,
Until Alzheimer and Time,
Have taken everything they can,
And I get mad at people,
Who do not care,
Who aren’t there at all,
Who won’t do more than stare,
Yet find the burden too heavy,
While their shoulders are free,
Of anything that would weight onto one’s mind,
Seeing only what they want to see,
Hearing only what they want to hear,
Doing as they please,
With no eye for her wellbeing,
They just want her to leave,
And pass
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Where exactly did you first kiss the last person you kissed?
Sounds wrong, but in my bed.
Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
nay, I like most kinds of soda. I just drink more water than soda

If the person who hurt you most told you they were sorry would you believe them?
Yes, people change and it's been a while someone actually apologized for making me hurt.
Who did you last make a bet with?
Don't remember. I don't make bets often.
Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
My best friend
Would you rather have long or short hair?
One half long, other half short.
Do you miss anyone?
My old cat. My best friend the moment I leave her place.

Do you currently have feelings for anyone?
Yes. Couldn't say what for feelings though..
Who did you last hug?
My best friend
Have you cried this past week?
Yes, I seem to have dnoe nothing else past two days.
When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
Did you cry from a text last night?
Nope, it was my family.
Is there anything in your room that reminds you of the past memories?
Pictures. A lot of items actually.
 Do you think you're wasting your time on the person you like?
Probably. He doesn't like me back so I'm pretty sure it's a waste of my emotions. But then again, it's better than feeling nothing at all.. (Is it?)
Your bf/gf calls you at 4AM saying come outside, do you go?
If I cared enough for him/her I probably would.
Who's the biggest douchebag that you know?
My sister. She a knows-it-all but not in a good way..
The boy you like runs up and kisses you, what do you do?
Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other?
Jup since he's the boyfriend of my best friend :P
In the last year have you gotten close to someone you never thought you would?
Have you ever gone out of your way to make someone happy?
All the time. Too bad it doesn't pays off for all the effort I put in.
Ever stayed up all night on the phone?
No. I don't like calling.
Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
Do you want to say something to someone?
Are you ticklish?
If I'm in a ticklish mood. I can turn it off though.
Will you be in a relationship next month?
I don't think so. I don't see miracles happen.
Do you have a brother?
Do you live in the north?
Jup, the north of holland
Do you like rap music?
Depends on the band. I like Hollywood undead. And some other random songs with rap in it.
What will be the next mail you get?
Hopefully a response from my boss to be. 
Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with a P?
I don't think so.
Anyone you're giving up on?
Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
What were you doing at 10:30 last night?
Who was the last male you talked to?
My father
Who is someone that can always make you laugh?
My best friend
What were you doing at 10am this morning?
What were you doing an hour ago?
Walking the dog
Do you plan on moving within the next year?
I really hope so. I'm sick of this place.
Are you wearing anything on your feet?
What are you looking forward to in the next 3 months?
Halloween party. Being at my best friends place.
Do you remember your dreams?
So often I feel the need to finally sleep the moment I wake up xD
Have you been to a baby shower?
No, I hate babies xD
What cell phone company do you use?
Do any of your close friends have kids?
Thank fuck not xD
Do you know anyone who is pregnant right now?
What is the closest red object to you?
My mouse xD
Who was the last person in your bedroom?
How has 2011 been for you?
Don't remember but probably better than this year.
Do you know what the last person you kissed is doing right now?
Probably studying.
Do you have a picture of yourself kissing someone?
Are your boobs real?
Yes. I just checked.
Did you have a better day yesterday or today?
Do you have any plans for the weekend?
No. Write hopefully. 
Is there a girl you can't stand?
Yeah, multiple.
Have you ever gone to the beach?
A few times.
  • Listening to: Wildstylez ft Niels Geusebroek - Year of Summer
  • Reading: My own writing
  • Watching: Game of Thrones (Well not like, right now xD)
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Lemmon Amstel beer (Radler)


I am my deviations. Yet I'm not. I am a poet, yet I'm not. I am me. What else is there to tell?
If you have a question, ask me... ^^

Current Residence: The Netherlands (Holland)
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Favourite style of art: Poems and Art
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: Packard Bell
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Wallpaper of choice: Dark with a poem
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Personal Quote: Life is what you make of it...



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Eszies-Eszie Featured By Owner May 21, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday, Angel ;)

Still loves you to bits :hug:
Eszies-Eszie Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I sent an angel to watch over you last night but it came back.
I asked, "why?"
The angel said, "angels don't watch over angels."
Twenty one angels are IN your world.
Ten of them are sleeping, Ten are playing, one is reading this message. :heart:

Love you hon!
SiamesePawlerNeko Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep,
At least fifteen people in this world love you.
The only reason why someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you
There are at least two people in this world who would die for you
You mean the world to someone.
Someone that you don't even know exists loves you

When you make the biggest mistake ever something good would come from it.
When you think the world has turned your back on you, take a look.
Always remember the compliments you've received. 
Forget the rude remarks.
So if you are a loving friend send this to everyone on your list including the person who sent it to you.
Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they like you. 
Something good to you will happen to you at 12 in the morning and four o'clock pm tomorrow, it could be anywhere. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. 

Send this to fifteen people in fifteen minutes!! 
Make someone else's day! Help get a smile on someone's face! Help someone out!<3 remember that your loved
-Fight for you
-Respect you
-Involve you
-Encourage you
-Deserve you
-Save you

Send this to all your friends & me...... If you get 4 back you are liked but, if you get 7 back you are seriously liked. 
SiamesePawlerNeko Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
i heared your slave story is awsome ?!

and so do i find it too Haruka Nanase (Sexy Triceps) [V1]  welldone 
Darkfallenangel21 Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014
Thank you :) That means a lot to me!
SiamesePawlerNeko Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
your welcome, i love itt !!
Eszies-Eszie Featured By Owner May 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:happybounce::happybounce::happybounce: Happy Birthday!!!:happybounce::happybounce::happybounce:
Darkfallenangel21 Featured By Owner May 21, 2013
Eszies-Eszie Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Welcome! :)
Gotitlikethat Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You deserved it
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