For the past year I feel like I haven't been as active as I would have liked to have been. I'm in this weird place where I am I super focused on finding and exploring new techniques, without actually putting out a lot of finished work. At the same time, I've been torn about where I want to go with my art. Fan Art has been a super easy place for me to start. The designs are already there, and the challenge lay in trying to translate the work into glass with as much accuracy and detail as I could manage, while still remaining what I felt was true to the medium at the time. Original art designs... honestly has been the bane of my existence. It's a direction I want to go, but I have zero idea of how to get there. My brain simply doesn't work that way. I had hoped trying D&D stuff would lead to a bit of breakthrough but really I was just doing the same things and going out of my mind trying to force myself to do something that I just could not seem to do. So basically, I've been artistically frustrated and just focusing on techniques, while still left grappling with the question of where to go from here.
To start with, I feel I have reached an end of what I can achieve without having a kiln and securing one has become my number one priority, and all the things that come along with it. Finding the money for this... yeah I am poor as hell and one of those extreme cases people use to warn others about the dangers of student loans. That's why I haven't gotten a kiln in all the years I've been doing this, as it's a huge investment for not just the kiln, but all the stuff that goes along with it. I haven't focused on selling anything in a long while, choosing instead to just focus on the art, but that will have to change for awhile to do some fundraising. So I apologize in advance for the etsy or patreon or whatever plugs I'll end up putting in later posts.
Secondly, I am changing my current focus to LGBT stuff for awhile. I know I will lose people that are just here for pure fan art, and I debated for awhile about created separate channels for different interests, which I still might do, but I feel the DarkeVitrum name will be the umbrella name that will cover all of the work I do. I am a gay artist, I am a proud artist, and I am more than happy to express that and try and help others express themselves. I'm also hoping to find a gay charity to partner with in the future to donate a % of any lgbt themed stuff I sell to help out my community. I will still do some fan art stuff, and as you have seen with the gaymer controller, I will be crossing these genres over a lot. There will be adult themed lgbt things I'll be making, so be aware of that as well. I am hoping while I explore this new genre, especially where there aren't designs straight up available, or I am so significantly altering other designs, that I will find some kind of stride and comfort in making more original stuff, especially since I have such an invested interest in it. Here's hoping anyways. Glassware will become a thing to hopefully make something that's accessible to everyone on all budgets, and hopefully get me closer to that kiln.
I have ton of different hopes for the future, most of which I am too scared to express for fear that they won't ever happen, but what I can say is I intend to keep doing glass art, and keep getting ever better, and finding out where it can take me in life. One of these days, i'd like to see it on a near full time level. I have been talking about doing youtube videos for a good year now, and I think 2019 is going to be the year for that to finally happen. I do a lot of things with glass that others have never done or thought possible, and I want to show them that it is totally possible, and they can do it too. I do still stream on Twitch, but will how long stuff needs to set and dry or the various other processes, it just isn't a viable way to show people how it's done.
Okay, I have rambled enough. I'll probably clean this up a bit later, but I just felt the need to get this out there atm and off my chest. I love Deviant Art for having this option.