darkbylarissa

he's gone. gone for a week and a day from now. it rain only once since i moved in with him. i used to wake up everyday, next to him, watching the sun on the sky, from bed. i love sunny days. i love the sun. i love everything about the sun, actually. i would so love to give more details about everything, but i just can't, i'm speechless. actually, i have been a totally different person since he left. i feel homeless, empty and disgusted about my life. i can't find my words. i'm not going to school, because i just can't watch everyone's faces smiling, asking me how's it been. it's been lovely, dear. actually, it was just perfect. oh and k

the following words could make no sense at all, or too much. it seems that my fairy tale gone bad. no, don't get me wrong, prince charming is still prince charming, we're still in love. we made it to "i love you", we even moved in together. but for some reason, he has to turn back home, in romania, which means we came to an end. it's stupid and naive of me, to hope it will last till we meet again, but i don't even want to think about it. i don't FUCKIN get it! i swear i just don't get it! these two months i felt truly happy in each and every way possible. why can't it fuckin last?  WHY THE FUCK CAN'T HAPPINESS LAST?!? i'm sorry guys

so... :excited: yes. damn. i'm happy. paranoiac [actually scared] but crazy in love. i'm really happy. haven't felt this way in a while. weird thing is that this time everything works exactly as it should. we're different, but not so different. anyway, we moved in together, so guys, prepare to find a lot of sweet lovely dovey deviations. i wannaaaaaaaaaaa contaminate all of you with what i feel :heart: