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I've held this account :icondark-spectrumds: for almost exactly nine years today. I've technically been on deviantART for about 11 years with my first account being this old thing: :icondark-spectrum:.

I don't feel too different though. I actually miss the days back in 2011-2013 when it was more lively (and I felt that I meant something to the community). Nowadays, it's way different especially with inactive accounts and people moving away as a whole (at least people I know).

I wasn't going to have any time to draw anything commemorating this (not like it's necessary) because I have to work the rest of the day away (not art-related). But I appreciate anyone who's bothered to stay here while I was on this account for so long. Thank you for any and all support. :)

If you don't mind my multiple accounts though, here's where you can find me:
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  • Playing: Dragon Quest VIII (3DS)
  • Drinking: Water
Hello. I apologize for the inconvenience. I realized that I wasn't being fair so I'll just post the links to my new accounts here if interested. Thanks!:)

Instagram1
Instagram2 (professional?)
Tumblr
Twitter
(Patreon is under construction)
(Maybe another dA account later? DA kinda makes me mad tho.)

I will probably be moving to these new accounts on their respective services, mainly because I don't feel as comfortable uploading there on my old accounts (and sometimes a fresh start is the best option). Also, if I follow you with one of these accounts, it's me especially if we're on good terms/mutual then it's cool if you decide to follow back.;0

I don't mean to make everyone chase after me like this but I have to do what I have to do if moving on makes me happy.^^

It's high time for me to get serious and for me to be taken seriously!:eager:
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  • Playing: Dragon Quest VIII (3DS)
  • Drinking: Water
Hello again. I apologize once more for my inactivity. I have been away getting things set up with new social media accounts for a more "professional" setup. I will use these accounts to post works I feel I did the best I could do on almost like a portfolio. I also decided that it would be the perfect opportunity to have a fresh start to give art another chance after my chaotic adolescent years.

You see, only a few people I know actually know I have these accounts so it's not popularity I'm seeking (though it would be nice). Also no need to worry about art theft unless it looks really suspicious. I seek a newfound trust. I'd like to have people to follow and to follow me who respect who I am as an artist currently and for the future, not anyone who's held hard feelings from the past as I've greatly moved on from that. Not everyone knows what happened and that's fine (I still don't because my mind wasn't right). I still don't have the help I need if you will and my family issues are worsening, but I'm getting there with my new understanding of things. I apologize if I was ever out of place taking out my stress on you guys. I always appreciate your patience and support.:thanks:

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Okay so first thing's first, I will be slow with updating for now. I have to get back into the swing of things and focus on practice and creating artwork I like.
I have created new Tumblr, Twitter, Instagram and Patreon accounts. I also have a Twitch for streaming when I can. Everything is still under construction however. I plan to make most of my accounts SFW and since it's already been marked, I'll leave the Tumblr for NSFW as well as SFW.

I will also apologize for reuploads. I need placeholders until I create new work. However, even creating new work will be difficult because I decided to spend time redesigning characters.^^; Oh, but I have been developing my characters' stories as well!

If you are interested in following my new accounts, please don't hesitate to send me a message/note so I can give you the link(s)!


Thanks again. :)
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  • Playing: Dragon Quest VIII (3DS)
  • Drinking: Water
I sincerely apologize for the lack of activity as of late yet again. I'm just going to discuss updates.

First off, I'm a bit confused at the sudden influx of views I got around Easter/April 1st to April 2nd. It was about 50 pageviews or so when normally I've been getting about 10-20 thanks to my inactivity. Did people think I was gonna draw a bunny picture or something for Easter showcasing my guys? That's cute but not at the moment. I've been busy (and I've been inexplicably sick but it's probably worsening anxiety).

Oh yeah, and other than that, I've been further developing my characters and I've done over 10,000 of those little gesture drawings.

Well you see, a lot happened in March. I dropped my phone and it got ruined so I had to get another in the mail which set me back a few. I've also been trying to find a real job (consistent) so I had to update all of my IDs and info, etc. so I could actually stand a chance to get hired somewhere other than the occasional ushering gig I had since 2016. Later on in the month, I actually got a call back from a local movie theater to work there during the Film Festival so I had to prepare for the interview and eventually I got the job to work in April. However, I'm not 100% hired yet as it's a temp position (more than what I had in my life) as an usher (actually more janitorial) and if I do get this job, which I'll know in about a week after my long working weekend (many hours), it will not be as hectic as dealing with thousands of people each day. It will put me on the path to earning more money to pay off any owed debts and so I can afford better art supplies and technology, and to fund my video game and figure hobbies. I need another computer, eventually another phone, and I'd like an iPad Pro and Apple Pencil for artwork this time. (I'd also like to try for medical school but even that takes money to get into a good program to cover prerequisites.)

So yeah, no time or motivation for artwork because of this and I'm still not ready to be as active as I was when I was a college kid. It's just too much competition for something people are supposed to simply enjoy. This even caused an artist I've admired to eventually quit. I am in a bad situation right now and it doesn't help matters when family thinks I'm joking when I say that I need money and a job. I don't even have a proper workspace for my artwork yet and by that I mean a nice clean room with a desk and whatever else. I'd do commissions if I felt confident enough in my environment. >_<

Sorry guys. Thanks for your patience. :)
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Hello, I apologize for the long absence. I still won't consider myself to be "back" if you will. However, thank you for the birthday wishes! I didn't really expect any after my inactivity and that's okay. If you didn't know, I just had a birthday December 7th (I also like to refer to it as Pearl Harbor Day).

I probably won't fully be back until I can create something I'd not be embarrassed to upload. I've taken a break from social media communication cold-turkey because I desperately needed one and it allowed me to think about what's more important. I've still been deciding on how I'd like to organize my accounts better either for artwork, personal or both. Other than that, artistically I've still been doing those little figure drawings and I did Inktober (nothing to be proud of in my smallest sketchbook).

Regardless, thank you for the continued support. I will always appreciate it. :)
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  • Drinking: Water
Please follow my new Twitter art-only account.

I'm still setting things up but more importantly it's currently under the theme of my favorite, sweet chocolate alabaster demon Alabastor. :love:

Thank you!:heart:
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  • Playing: Persona 5 (PS4)
  • Drinking: Water
Hello everyone old and new! I SINCERELY apologize for the absence/limited activity. (Would've been back earlier if dA hadn't any issues with my 3-month membership rebilling so I apologize for having nothing fancy...ever.) I do, however, have to mention that today marks the 8th anniversary of this account's creation. Oh, and please don't misunderstand. I've actually been on deviantART since 2007 so this year also marks my 10th anniversary here altogether.

My original account: :icondark-spectrum: (Please excuse the old art styles. I was 14-15 back then.)

I'm not sure if I will ever get around to making any commemorative works. I can't make any promises (though I considered a sketch dump of works since May). I've been too busy not doing actual artwork (WIPs) and kinda "practicing" or whatever first. You see, I've been doing these gesture drawings for 5 to almost 6 months now. They're really small and I do at least 20 a day for 20 minute sessions. Right now I'm on the verge of reaching 5000 drawings all referenced from Quickposes.com. I would definitely recommend these and similar gesture drawings for any artist whether they're beginners or experienced. (I just hope I'm doing something right.)

I've also been dealing with some family problems. I mean, I've always had those but my grandma had major construction on her house and my dad's been sick (and as usual, there's nothing I could do to help really). So there's that.
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Some positives:
  • I reached my 1000 dA watcher goal this year.
  • I finally found a pretty safe place to upload confidently (IG).

Some negatives:

  • I still don't have a nice workspace to actually do art comfortably.
  • I'm still no good at communicating with others (so forgive the inactivity).

I'll get back to you guys later! I'll have to go through my messages soon!

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Also, I've been more active on Twitter and Instagram and on occasion, Tumblr. PLEASE follow me anywhere you like!



Out of all of these, I think I like Instagram the best. Not only do I feel more welcome there in comparison to the others listed, it's more forgiving if you're inactive sometimes (like me) and they don't really have that silly "visibility algorithm" thing going on as bad. Only thing is they are more strict on content.^^;

Thank you very much for your time and as always I appreciate the support. :)
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  • Drinking: Water
I'm glad to say that I have finally purchased my first PayPal commission and it's from :iconelectrichimaera:
and of my OC Luna Moth (still no name!):[Comission] Luna Moth by ElectriChimaera
I think they've done a wonderful job portraying this character even though I couldn't really provide many details as to his personality or his design.;u;
Go and check out their commissions and don't forget to ask in a note/DM! They're still open! :D

Thanks for your time!:thanks:
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darkspectrum-oc-stories.tumblr…

This is where I occasionally type up information and stories about my original characters as well as character design notes. 

I apologize. It will be a while longer until I can get back to drawing finished works. I usually update my Twitter and now Instagram with my WIPs and sketches (so it's not like I'm not drawing, it's that nothing's ever done especially for deviantART). I've also recently hit a 3000 figure drawing milestone for anyone who thought I was slacking off all this time also.^^; 

Thanks for your patience and understanding! :thanks:
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I must show you what I've been up to during my absence. Aside from playing over 130 hours of Persona 5 (PS4), I recently got myself a new tablet. I have a cute little white Samsung Galaxy Tab A 10.1 with S Pen. I could've pushed for a low end iPad but those are still too expensive to keep up with ($100 for the Apple Pencil vs. $40 for a Wacom Bamboo Smart battery-less stylus). I prefer the Wacom digitizer on select Samsung devices mainly because I only ever used Wacom graphics tablets on PC so it's familiar technology.

Okay, so I got this nice mid-range tablet just to have something convenient to do digital art on wherever I go without having to take my 5 year-old laptop and 3 year-old tablet with me everywhere. It was a dream I had for a short while (and it's far cheaper than any decent Microsoft Surface tablet or computer). So far, it's been really nice and kinda convenient. I have stuck with Autodesk Sketchbook and MediBang Paint for Android but I haven't really mastered anything color. Just sketches in line and some value until I get used to the programs and drawing on a screen directly. I'm still not good with the tablet but I haven't had it but for a couple weeks, all right? ;u;

Some examples of what decent things I've done. More can be found on my Twitter and Instagram.

Twitter: twitter.com/DarkSpectrum22
Instagram: www.instagram.com/darkspectrum…

Top is a direct reference. The last is a pose reference.





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Thanks for your attention and I always appreciate the support. :thanks:


(I mean it's just been a little over half a month and I believe that I already lost like 10 followers including losing more than I thought I just gained. Like gosh, I usually don't upload to deviantART if I have nothing I'm proud of since my gallery is already cluttered. Gimmie a break! Did I really commit such a horrible crime? What did I do this time? XD)
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First off, thank you for the support during the entire month of March! I'm very lucky to have earned new fans and new connections with people (as well as some virtually rekindled ones) throughout this event.:thanks::heart: Forgive me for I'm very nervous.>_< Please forgive the spam throughout the month also. I know it cheapened the value and quality of my uploads since I'm not used to creating work constantly as I'm actually a slow worker. I've probably said it many times but this is not the best I can do and anyone who has known me for several years will have noticed the decline as I was not always this inconsistent. ^^;

I'm also extremely sorry for being so distant!
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Looks like I've finally completed this theme challenge thing known as Magic Meat March. I feel like I just finished a huge homework assignment.:lol: I basically took the basic premise of this event and ran with it while taking minor artistic license. I just wanted to draw skimpy, pinup-ish pretty boys (my OCs) and attempt to draw one at least once a day. In a way, this counted as "a CG a day" or something because I gravitated toward digital most times as it was actually more convenient to do quicker work (because I always worked at the last minute).

I'm sure I spent about a couple hundred hours this month drawing whether it's those mini figure drawing sessions or drawing for the theme. I guess one would think that after all these hours of drawing that improvement would escalate exponentially. Well, not in this case. Maybe because it wasn't the deliberate style practice I used to do when I was younger? But yeah, the quality varies. Some are good, some are bad, and the rest are just decent I guess.

Feel free to browse if you like:
Adem 3-1-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Selph 3-2-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Alabastor of Alabaster 3-3-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Alabastor 3-4-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Zaiyn and Shaiyn Zephyrion 3-5-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Demon Guy 3-6-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Alabastor 3-7-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Dante 3-8-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS

Mature Content

Alabastor 3-9-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS
Alabastor 3-10-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Alabastor 3-11-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Harpy Boy Ouranos 3-12-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Kaisei 3-13-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Adramelech 3-14-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Noir 3-15-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Lucky 3-16-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Lucky 3-17-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Alystair 3-18-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Zero 3-19-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Luna Moth 3-20-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Alabastor 3-21-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Triginta 3-22-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS

Mature Content

Janis 3-23-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS
Alabastor 3-24-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Akheilos 3-25-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Karcharias 3-26-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Cyrus 3-27-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Narcissus 3-28-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Shinpei 3-29-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Triginta 3-30-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS Alabastor 3-31-17 by Dark-SpectrumDS

What are my plans for the future?
Well, I always joked about it but maybe I'll actually work up the nerve again to study ball-jointed dolls and draw them for the aesthetic. As old as I am and for as long as I've been trying to draw seriously, I'm still very confused as to how people just improve so fast. Everyone's just so much better and I wanna do it, too! I don't think it's just practice mind you. I think my problem is that I am a social outcast and I never actually surround myself with people I wish to study from. (Part of that is because I've been rejected countless times and such things simply come easier to others...which is a real motivational killer...and I suspect I have a legitimate problem socially) My mind has been clouded with thoughts that distract my progress so it's like I'm not improving no matter how many hours I sit down to practice. Interest is very important.

Oh, and more importantly, in the future, I could always do paintovers of these uploads and see how that goes!:la:


What I'd like from everyone else is patience. Please help me with my studies (once more) so I can finally become a real artist. Any and all support will be greatly appreciated. Even if you just view my gallery every so often, hey, it all adds up. :)

As far as my skills go, like I mentioned before, I would like to get back to digital painting. Like I said, I'm more than positive that so many people from my past expected me to become this great digital painter. I'll do it if it can bring me happiness. Cuz you know it's quite lonely when people don't know you or your focus since I currently have too many styles again... I've always wanted to do semi-realism and I was getting there until college. I am very interested in how the experts do it. I always look at concept art and I collect art books but I never thought to copy them lately.

What should I improve on? Well, I have created a list of things in no particular order:
  • Heads and necks (for some reason I forgot how to draw heads at different angles and properly connected to necks)
  • Hands (more natural poses)
  • Value (I've ALWAYS struggled with this, esp. light direction, shapes, and intensity of light/shadow on objects)
  • Hair (I forgot how I did it but I was always fascinated with drawing hair)
  • Poses (dynamic)
  • General anatomy (because who doesn't need this)
  • Surface anatomy (definitely because I always forget and i need a solid style)
  • Portraiture (for facial structure)
  • Composition (esp. filling the frame)
  • Backgrounds (because I never do those)
  • Color palettes (esp. less saturated ones not done intentionally)
  • Concepts (because I'm boring)
  • Details (esp. character outfits as I tend to skimp on them)
  • Overall aesthetic (my style's been fluctuating lately so nobody knows what I do or who I am in my work)
  • A sense of maturity (in everything since I still feel so..."childish" at 23...?)

Thank you very much for your time and interest. I always appreciate everything (even if I always get caught up in all my problems only). I will now limit my uploads from once a day to maybe once every few days if I have something good. I don't want to keep being nervous when I draw. Maybe I'll try studies and upload those a few times as well. :D

(Maybe if I'm really lucky and if deviantART is still around, I'll be good enough to have my work in those high quality groups)


If you'd like to see another instance of a theme-related upload compilation I've "completed", please visit my Inktober 2016 journal: Inktober 2016Hello everyone (who's still here since I've been inactive for almost two months). I've actually completed Inktober 2016. All October, I drew at least one picture everyday and completed each drawing in ink after graphite. I have 31 drawings of varying quality (unfortunately). The drawings were all done in a side-bound book and I haven't tried to scan them but I have photographed them all with my phone. Maybe I will properly scan and edit my favorite ones.
Please forgive the overall quality. I never have enough light for photography, I didn't want to use the flash, and it's more difficult since I work on things at night. Because of how the book is made, it's already difficult enough to photograph each drawing the further I get. I used it because of the paper. They are Crescent Rendr brand. I chose the hard, side-bound book because it simply looks nice in person.
I gradually got more expressive if you will yet I'm still rather tense. Earlier works look worse than my later works but the ap

(I'm quite embarrassed at the quality of these uploads because they were rushed, poorly photographed and not to the best of my ability...)
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PAINTING PAINTING PAINTINNNNNNNNGGGGG!!!!

Painting is definitely the thing now, ESPECIALLY digital painting. Of all things, I haven't even done that in a long time.

Look the truth is, I'm feeling like a major failure and reject. Almost everyone I know paints. Yeah, I do appreciate the connections also, but I'm feeling terribly left out because I don't paint. I mean, I've actually been passively rejected multiple times by other artists (who also happen to be pals with the folks I know), on accident mind you, because I didn't paint. I'm missing out on my life because I don't paint. I'm losing confidence in myself and I believe that I will never get it back unless I paint! Everyone I know even got popular because they paint! WTF have I been doing all my life all this time? TAT

Part of it is that my "paintings" get more attention than anything else. Like these (though they're not the best):
Noir Lovelock by Dark-SpectrumDS Delmar by Dark-SpectrumDS Karcharias Delmar: Sleeping by Dark-SpectrumDS

And so many people misjudge me because of this. (Plus, I don't like the direction my "art" is going in right now...)

I never had the time before to focus on digital painting. Now I do, but I'm too busy with this event thing.

I'd like to do what I like but that's not so important these days. Yeah, so I'm more comfortable with graphite. So? Folks expect me to do full color!

Regardless, ever since, I feel like I've been expected to become this great painter and because I haven't made much progress to that goal...well...

JUST BEAR WITH ME PLEASE! I'm almost done! I'm going to go paint next month hopefully! I have over 1,000 reference images to pick from! :eager:

I'm going to pray to the holy art gods... SO yeah, when I grow up, I would like to have a nice graphite style AND a nice digital painting style. They can be different as long as I can be happy. :pray:
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Please forgive me. I'm feeling quite "unstable", if you will, for lack of a better word. I've seen "something" I should not have. There's a very good reason I've been avoiding a lot of social media and communication. I just want to get my artwork back on track and, hell, be more respected once again like I used to be. (It's that feeling you have when you see a failed social connection. ;u; )

Also, my social life is terrible. I am truly oblivious to various social cues. Please forgive me. I'll at least try not to disappoint anyone again, especially myself, with lackluster artwork etc. Just wait until the end of March. I'm treating this Magic Meat March event as a "homework" assignment to complete something related to the project everyday before I do my real personal "assignments". I'd like to get back to digital painting again as well but there's no denying that I'm much more comfortable with a pencil on paper. ;;

I appreciate any support and I read comments even though I may not respond on time. Thanks again.
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I must apologize for a number of things. Don't mind me! This is just an update basically about my "down days". I haven't personally come across anyone outright telling me these things, but I do feel like something's off... Maybe it's all in my head. I've definitely been extra anxious all year. ;_;

First of all, thank you for all the support and hello to all the new watchers! I don't deserve any of this at the moment ;u;

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:bulletblue:So I must apologize for all the spam. You see, I've been trying to do this "Magic Meat March" thing everyday because after university, I technically have all the time in the world to do stuff like this (just not the mental capacity any longer). These past two weeks were filled with inconsistency and disappointment overall. Yeah, I've "improved" over just a few days, but that's not really "improvement" as it wasn't actually "practice", especially on the digital art thing I wish I spent more time on in this day and age. ^^; Plus, this is clearly stuff I already learned but never had the time to put out into the forefront.

But yeah, every time I upload, it just cheapens the quality of my "gallery" and it's quite painful to say in the least. It's feeling "forced". I dunno why I constantly put myself through all this trouble. The only things I'm really getting out of this would be finding a more comfortable "style" and getting exposure (and that's working out less and less because my works are now being overlooked under the tag now for some reason). Challenges like these were supposed to get me more consistency and discipline because I'm no longer obligated to comply with a routine schedule at this time. I was planning on sticking it out to the end but I'm sure I'll have more "down days" down the line so please bear with me. >_<

:bulletblue:Also, I must apologize for having "too many" OCs. It's difficult to care about unknown characters without much story unless they're hidden behind some excellent, high quality work (which is something I'm not capable of at the moment). Anyone with 10+ or even like me with 100+ should know how difficult it is to keep up with them.^^; My traditional sketchy style is coming back but the major thing holding me back is that I still have an inability to process "human" communication in my works. This has never happened before and perhaps it's from years of stress. Over time, I wasn't able to "role play" with others, like my sister, with our characters or action figures etc. so now my stories play aimlessly in my head but my creativity remains stagnant.
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I really, truly wish I could do better and I wish I could have done better after all this time. I've done hundreds of pose drawings this year and I've drawn everyday for about 2 months. Alas, I still feel I have extremely high expectations from folks because I'm never "good enough". I mean, people who normally haven't been around me anymore since my "art skills dropped" actually liked some of my recent works but I'm sure that's short lived. I don't talk to anyone anymore because I'm nervous and ashamed, not out of arrogance or anything. Holding conversations has become extra difficult. Keeping communication to a minimum was supposed to be my "therapy" to get me more relaxed since I'm highly introverted but the withdrawal symptoms are killing me.

Life's supposed to be filled with "ups and downs" but I really don't know what this is at all as for me because it's all in my head. :lol:

Thanks very much for your time. :)
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Yeah, just wondering about what happened these past few days. I noticed a sudden influx of unknown visitors starting on the 5th of March with 143 and on the following day at 227. It's an exponential growth in comparison to my current normal of about 20 more or less. I was also checking to see if it had died down and I think it's almost safe to say it has. I'm just curious is all. I don't recall being featured anywhere otherwise I'd have a "mention". Other than that, I have been uploading once a day this month for the sake of challenging myself and honoring Magic Meat March.

Eh, I dunno. I feel like an intellectual and as an intellectual, you always ask questions and require answers. Well, thanks anyway for whatever happened! I appreciate the increased exposure while it lasted. It almost brought me back to the old days when this place and I used to be much more active. ^^; :)
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Oops, I wasn't even paying attention! Looks like I just hit 70,000+ pageviews today. Too bad I didn't have anything else in mind to commemorate this. ^^;

Well thanks anyway! I always appreciate people viewing my page as that shows there is at least a little bit of interest. -v-
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I'm in the process of replying to all sorts of comments. I will leave this message in a journal because I know people will see it. I am going to sincerely apologize for all the late replies spanning over a year. If I wasn't occupied with school, my internet just gave out on me. Now there's hardly an excuse as long as I never lose my internet connection again.

Thank you very much. I will get back to you all as soon as possible. :D
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OMG so first off, I'm still expecting the internet to be messed up around this hour (about 3AM and later) so I'm not used to this luxury quite yet. However, I would like to update my current social media accounts where I may upload on occasion. Please visit them if you like. I'm art blocked now ironically after all that drawing so it's either crap or nothing at all at the moment so watch out.^^;

Currently "Art Only" Twitter: twitter.com/DarkSpectrum22

"Art Only" Tumblr: darkspectrum-art.tumblr.com/

Facebook "Art Only" Page (that I really don't know how to use): [link]

I also have an Instagram but I just learned how to use it better a few days ago:
www.instagram.com/darkspectrum…

I was also seriously thinking about starting over completely with a new email and new sign-up information on these various websites to be more "professional" and just to get away from it all including the stagnation. I mean it's about that time and I'm falling behind the whole universe, even, with my lack of productivity. Unfortunately it may be some time because I'd have to settle into a style I like that I'm not ashamed of so I can have the perfect head start. If only y!gallery didn't get hacked I'd be so much more happy...;u;
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Holy HELL guys! I've FINALLY got NEW INTERNET! My mother FINALLY got the cable bundle thing and now we have super fast, reliable internet! It's 10x faster than the piece of crap that we had before! You know what that means? I may actually be assed to try streaming more often! That also means I may actually reply to more comments (no small talk however for now). Then that may also mean commissions soon! I was going insane being stuck in the house with no job or life after college with a poor internet connection. Now everything is going to be fine I HOPE. I mean, even online employment is also a viable option now!

Hold on though. I NEED to get used to this little luxury for now. I've never had a connection this fast before and where we live, the options are extremely limited compared to many people elsewhere. Maybe I'll be back soon. I would like to adapt first and recover from my "war flashbacks" if you will.

As always, thank you very much. And thank the GODS I'll be more happy living at home now. -u-
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  • Playing: Final Fantasy XV or Tales of Berseria, etc.
  • Drinking: Water
I know this is random but I'm in one hell of a funk artistically. So what better way is there to spend my indefinite free time (outside of my tedious deliberate practice, of course)?
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I'd like to mention that out of all of my inspirations, the artist who has inspired me the most is :iconjinx-star:. This artist has inspired my style since around 2009/10 as I gradually went back from my cutesy style to my more "manly" artwork. I have no idea how or when I came across their work but thankfully I have. It's too bad it's been almost 4 years since any updates here and I'm not sure if they've uploaded anyplace else lately.

First off, not many people I know have actually played and enjoyed any of the Final Fantasy XIII games. I got a lot of my inspiration and joy around 2010-2014 from those games and I still occasionally go back to them as the soundtrack and the nostalgia interest me. I do LOVE Final Fantasy and Square Enix in general. I went back to see a journal stating that they played XIII-2!

More importantly, there are striking resemblances to several of their designs and interpretations in comparison to the ones I have created strictly from subconscious and an overall similarity in intended aesthetic. It was probably from browsing their gallery often back then. Like these for example:
+OF BONES AND FUR+ by jinx-star +HEADSHOT COMM VI+ by jinx-star +COMMISSION: MILO+ by jinx-star +DEVIL DEVIL VI+ by jinx-star +DEVIL DEVIL VIII+ by jinx-star +PRINCE IN EXILE+ by jinx-star +MY RELIGION+ by jinx-star

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Yeah, so I've been in a "dark" place lately being unhappy with my life, myself and my artwork and fortunately I'm slowly recovering while the mystery of my "demise" remains in the back of my mind. It feels like an aura of impending rejection every time I upload a drawing or leave a comment. It makes me very upset at myself for forgetting what was important to me these past few years after that and I always wonder what I could've been even though schoolwork brought me down. I never intended to be "popular", attract "special" artists or suffer through social art politics and cliques or whatever. I just wanted to draw my own characters, give them life and be comfortable. Depending on my designs, they were supposed to be excuses for learning anatomy and other things simultaneously. This is why I like jinx-star's gallery and overall style.

The artwork of jinx-star is very comforting and well-paced (with work dating back to around 2004 so since their last uploads, it was up to 2012 making it about 8 years out of the 11 on that account). Their style is also "Eastern" with "Western" inspirations and simply done in pencil with special effects or even a smooth digital paint style also with special effects. There are no real backgrounds or anything: just the aesthetic. I've always wanted to achieve this at least since not everybody has the patience to do HQ/CG renders all day. It's okay to leave certain things to other people if that's not what you like to do. The worst thing to have when struggling to regain confidence as an artist is to be overwhelmed.

Thank you for your time. :)

On a side note, it's only okay to compare yourself to other artists if that's your preference. I hope I'm wrong but I feel like I've been compared to too many artists through outside people so when they come to my gallery, instead of appreciating me for being me, they become disappointed and leave shortly after. I'm terribly sorry for inciting such confusion as I do draw inspiration from multiple artists. Now I've also been told that a few folks secretly have works inspired by my works as well. It's fine to be inspired like that but just don't deliberately steal.^^;

(I also had internet problems for about a year now and for 5 days a week I suffer with it therefore I cannot bring myself to use it often and be very active online much anymore. My data plan is even more unreliable and there's only so much you can do on a smartphone. I know it sucks.)
  • Reading: My typed text
  • Playing: Final Fantasy XV or Tales of Berseria, etc.
  • Drinking: Water