Been a little over 5 years since I last posted a journal entry here, so I think I owe people an update on how things are going. I'm still getting used to this new deviantart; it's changed so much since I last posted on here, so please bear with me!
First off, thank you so much to everyone who's still around supporting me, leaving wonderful comments and favorites. Even though I've been silent all this time and hiding away, I've still been checking back to read all those kind words and it truly means a lot. I wasn't aware of how popular my references would get, and I'm glad that they've been helpful to all of you. Stay creative!
Now there have been a few things that I need to clear up:
1.) I'm not doing requests right now. I've still been getting comments on an old journal entry about doing "free commissions" (cringing at what I used to call them... they aren't commissions, they're requests lol) and that's great people still want to see work from me and draw their characters. But right now I don't have the energy or motivation to do them.
2.) My mental state. This is a personal subject and it's awkward and hard for me to talk about, but I feel it's important because I may be misleading people if I don't straighten out the facts.
In a past journal entry, I described finding out I was bipolar. This is false--I have dysthymia (or major depressive disorder), and I've had this disorder since I was about 11 years old, but I am NOT bipolar. The reason I thought I was bipolar was due to a misdiagnosis on a professional psychological test, and because I was experiencing symptoms relating to it due to a number of stress factors at the time, including college work and medication withdrawal. My emotions were very extreme and irregular, and for a time I was even put on prescription medication normally used for psychosis and bipolar disorder. I had to drop out of art school. I have since then continued therapy and I'm in a pretty stable condition right now. I sincerely apologize for the misinformation, or for misrepresenting anyone who actually does struggle with any type of bipolar disorder. It is not an easy condition to live with for the sufferer nor for the people around them.
3.) Am I still doing art? Unfortunately, I've been struggling for a long time with creating anything major and I don't know when I'll be back in the groove again. I might submit some doodles and unfinished stuff in scraps soon. We'll have to see. I am trying to pick up the habit again.
Until then, I'll try to keep checking in with you all and reply to comments and notes. Staying in touch does help me, and I just need to get over this phobia of social media lol. Please take care everyone