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No Sanctuary
what is left
here for me
neither reality
nor oblivion
are my sanctuary
what can still
bring me joy
like a child
by a single toy
what is that
lurking near
inside my mind
bordering eyes
shadows are here
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Enjoy! by Darigankat Enjoy! :icondarigankat:Darigankat 3 0 Cupcake background by Darigankat Cupcake background :icondarigankat:Darigankat 0 0 Landscape Practice by Darigankat Landscape Practice :icondarigankat:Darigankat 0 1 ADD meets Depression by Darigankat ADD meets Depression :icondarigankat:Darigankat 1 0 Boss by Darigankat Boss :icondarigankat:Darigankat 1 0 Mermaid Mirror by Darigankat Mermaid Mirror :icondarigankat:Darigankat 1 0 Vanity by Darigankat Vanity :icondarigankat:Darigankat 0 0 Meadow by Darigankat Meadow :icondarigankat:Darigankat 0 0 Vi by Darigankat Vi :icondarigankat:Darigankat 0 0
Why do I wear eyeliner?
My eyes can see;
they dont need lining.
the scars are invisible
to everyone but me.
My lashes are long;
I don't need mascara.
It will only darken
my liquid sadness.
I will cover up the scars
that line my tear ducts.
I will hide the places
Where my misery leaks.
I will cover up the spot
where my lashes sprout.
I will hide the tears
in liquid black.
This is why I wear eyeliner.
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Summer Writing Challenge: Day 9
I've never been a patient person. Rob was always the one who wanted to wait for better opportunities, a better chance at getting in or out of a place. I always wanted to just hurry up and go, get it over with.
I know I shouldn't have been wandering the streets alone, but Rob was busy off being a hero, helping some poor kacheek with some food or something. She'd started following him around and I'd started getting more than a little annoyed. I thought about the little chest under my floorboards but knew that Rob would find out and be furious.
So I just cleared out. Told Tria I was around and I'd come back now and then to see if she needed me. Truth be told, she was more than a little preoccupied too, focusing on the preparations for the feast day.  I figured when the feast was over maybe I'd go back and things would be back to normal.
I ended up hoarding some food and holing up in someone's attic for a few days, lying low and staying quiet, carving designs into stolen soap w
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Summer Writing Challenge: Day 8
It's hard, knowing that I will never see her again, never be able to talk with her, hear her laugh.
In a way, everything ended up as it was before. When I was in my own dying, desecrated body, I could not possibly hope to talk to her. And now, in this beautiful body, my dying, desecrated soul cannot find hers.
I am lost.
Memories come and go, sometimes quick and unclear, sometimes fast and vivid. Hours spent in carriages touring the city, wandering the streets, disguising ourselves so we wouldn't be recognized. Hours more sitting in her rooms, with her showing me the things she'd made, the things she'd written. Hours just talking to her, being near her. All were gone now.
I know I should be grateful. Many did not even have memories of the ones they loved. Many never got to spend time with them. I should cherish the time I got to spend with her.
But when you can only remember, it hurts so much to do so.
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Summer Writing Challenge: Day 7
To my dear Mistress,
I have been with the target of my search for over four months. She remains living and unhurt, against your wishes. I should perhaps have obeyed your orders immediately, although I am now glad that I did not.
You see, the orders you gave me do not seem to match with my observations. As you so charminly put it, 'the girl is too young, untrained, and has too much power. Starchildren are always brought up in the homeworld of the Council, so that they may be properly monitored and controlled. She is a danger to herself and others. She carries with her the disease, and, if it takes root on the other planets she travels too, it may wipe out life on multiple worlds. She is setting out to undo all the good things I have tried to do for my worlds  in the past century. She must be stopped.'
However, Miss Della, you have made some untrue statements here. Dezzi is physically young, but acts as ancient as you yourself. She controls her powers well and uses them only when ne
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admittance is defeat
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you were never gracious.
you're slipping underneath, this
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never allowed a dream and
you're afraid because it's soaking in
your pores again, unattainable and unoriginal;
the meaning of life never meant enough-
you were never hopeful.
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of your pillow, and a lifetime of secrets
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you're a walking travesty:
your chest ticks, dull
your wrist beats, dying
time is keeping you but
you were never patient.
you lie large enough to make us believe you
don't entertain nightmares, but what if
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to sing out
(you were always beautiful)
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Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
My name is Kaci
on the internet I mostly go by Kitty, Kitten, or Mew
I live with my amazing boyfriend who I adore.
darigankat is my UN on the site that first inspired me to be creative, neopets.
I like art, food, reading, and video games. A lot.
I'm currently unemployed and not in school because I'm still trying to figure out how to be an adult.


its been a little while
i stopped kind of living for a while because its hard to care anymore about much of anything
school and just life also give me a lot of anxiety that didnt use to like, give me panic attacks
but something here is not right

i had a blockage in my ascending colon for perhaps several months, which i think is a result of stress. it hurt a lot and because i refused to tell my parents about the problem it took a long time to get me to the doctor.

im also essentially done with this year of school. i'm really scared for next year and college. im still unsure what college i want to go to but i think i'll be majoring in chemical engineering.

i have been keeping up with art (not writing) because i've been taking an art class, mostly. i have plans for at least one project over the summer and i want to start drawing more frequently but who knows if that will happen.
i miss art.
and i wish i could go to an art college but considering im done with my junior year of high school and looking at my skill level that isn't possible or a good plan for the future.

in happy news i have a this guy i love who keeps me alive and usually also succeeds at bringing me happiness.

i miss you all.


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ellecats Featured By Owner May 27, 2018  Student Digital Artist
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for adding my work to your collection.
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for adding Challenge day 05 - Killing me inside (song) to your favorites. I'm glad you like my art :)
Darigankat Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Your art is great, and also that story about your cat really touched me - my cat is old and slowly dying and she's the first pet I'll have ever lost, and I also suffer from depression... so kinda touched base.
DylanSeto Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014   Artist

Just wanted to thank you for the fave!

Also, since I'm currently focusing on music, I was wondering if you'd be interested in supporting me in that endeavor of mine?

If you are, I can link you to where you can find that stuff!
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for the watch. I'm glad you're taking such an interest in my artwork :hug:
rosaris Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2014  Hobbyist
Thanks for the watch! <3
Setorange Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
doo wop
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Setorange Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the favorites ♥ ~ also happy late birthday.
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