sometimes i just want to get closer. closer to the people around me. i just want to know everything about them so i can see how they are, so i can see if i can love them. and i want them to love me too. i want someone to get closer to me. i want to get closer to myself. i want to laugh with someone, and write with someone, and paint with someone. i want to explore with someone, and live with someone. nothing else really matters, as long as they enjoy being with me, and i enjoy being with them. it's really not so complicated as it seems, i wish i had just put my mind to rest sooner. but they say if you've never failed, then you have never trul
i remember some nights i would stay up late working. and when sleep finally took me over i would crawl up into bed and i would find you nestled there, asleep and beautiful, and waiting for me. i remember i would kiss you and wrap my arms around your body and just be happy that you were there. sometimes you would turn around and kiss me back, rest your arms about my chest and kiss me again. sometimes we would talk for a while, sometimes we would make love, sometimes we would just sleep. those nights were some of the best nights i ever had. i miss those crimson nights.
i remember thinking often how amazing it was i could find love like that in
sometimes i get this unbelievably profound feeling rushing through my body. it feels like i'm about to burst into a million particles of energy and flow out into the universe, like tiny little stars through the hearts and minds of every single person i've ever known. like suddenly all the mysteries of the world are understood and there is nothing left to experience except to travel out of my body and into the stars. i start to imagine these majestic scenes in my mind, and the thoughts keep going and going and rolling through the deepest parts of thought and emotion, that I wonder if anyone else has ever possibly felt like this. how many great