It's DanielBenfield's birthday week!
DanielBenfield's avatar

DanielBenfield

I'm still alive!
Deviant for 17 years24 Watchers70 Watching10 Deviations
25.9K
Profile Views
503 Favourites

Despite the best efforts of my depression, a hurricane, my gallbladder, two wisdom teeth, a rebellious jaw, and a number of other things I've since forgotten, I'm still alive. :)



Sorry for the long radio silence. My interest in DA has fallen down something fierce (not helped by the fact my old documents are on a computer we don't use anymore), not to mention a number of life events taking priority, but I'm still around.



As for what's happened since we last chatted...

* I had surgery to remove my gallbladder in 2017, followed by the removal of my two left wisdom teeth in 2018 (they were impacted and one was "hot", resulting in unbearable amounts of pain).

* My brother Charles quit his job at Toys R Us in 2018 due to crappy scheduling (often 2-3 days a week and about 15 hours total) and the fact he had to take multiple buses to even get to work. He soon got a decidedly better job at a storage facility near where we live (only to later be let go), then after a long while decided to go to community college to learn A/C repair along with starting (mostly online) classes to get his high school diploma. He got hired at his current job in 2022, which pays amazingly well but has some crazy long hours.

* My mother, sadly, went through a stretch of seizures and memory loss starting in mid-2017 (thankfully has been very infrequent since late 2018). She was also diagnosed with lung cancer last year, but by all indication has kicked its ass. :)



While I've visited this site rarely since 2016, on several occasions I've come back to clean up my notifications and update the byline of my page. I've also taken the time to update my FFN profile (https://fanfiction.net/u/1581696/). I'm still writing when the inspiration strikes, which admittedly is far less frequent than it was a decade ago but has been boosted by the quite frankly insane work by Spacebattles that is The Infinite Loops Project (https://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/FanFic/TheInfiniteLoops).



Thanks for sticking around. :)

-Dan

anonymous's avatar
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Yes, I'm still alive. :P

Not much has happened with me over the past eight months, to be honest, aside from my birthday ($55 in Nintendo eShop cards, $40 cash, two subs from Subway, and a late surprise of a Third Doctor Sonic Screwdriver). Still haven't seen a doctor, and I know I should, although I've been using mouthwash at least once a day as part of my wakeup routine (albeit after some initial paralyzing fears that I'd ingest some).

I've also been able to get ahold of some Crystal Pepsi, and holy crap is it delicious. Seriously, I wanted to buy some from Pepsi directly (since it's a limited run, for no apparent reason), but they don't sell any online. :(

Several months ago, my computer began taking progressively longer to start up and would shut off suddenly without warning...and then one day, it wouldn't turn on at all. Turns out, the power supply had been failing (probably because I used to keep it on for days at a time, which I've stopped) and had died. Charles ordered a new power supply directly from Dell for about $10, and it got here and put in within a few days.

Speaking of crap, my Xbox 360 repeatedly shuts itself off from overheating (even though the vents are clean and the system's not on the floor) after about 30 minutes or so. Chuck bought a new power supply, since we thought that may have been an issue, and the 360 overheated again. Meh, I'm using my TV's YouTube app now. :P

On a brighter note, Japan Crate is still awesome as ever. :) Haven't tried the company's DokiDoki Crate or Umai Crate (cute stuff and Japanese noodles, respectively), but maybe I'll get 'em as a Christmas gift to myself.

Writing...I had a dream shortly before Christmas and wrote that down. :) Also, I was going to post a teaser for 2016 which I'd written on Christmas Day, but that never happened either. The big thing is that, while I was catching up on Funakounasoul's Journal posts, I noticed that one of her characters, Koyomiko, is turning 10 on November 1...and I was inspired to write a short story.

No, seriously, I got inspired to write something. That hasn't happened often over the past couple of years. Granted, I still need to get a bit more info on some of Koyomiko's many forms over the years and add a bit of polish, but it's otherwise finished and will hopefully be up in mid-October at the latest.

So that's the latest in the life of me. :) How have you folks been doing?

anonymous's avatar
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Good lord, has it really been over two years since I last made a Journal entry?

...Shows you how much goes on in my life. :P

In all seriousness, though, the last two years haven't been entirely unmemorable:
* Last year, for instance, I finally managed to get a 3DS for...I think it was $150? I have about a dozen games for it, plus a few I've downloaded via the eShop (I really got into Pokemon Rumble World, for instance). If you want to trade Friend Codes, let me know. :)

* The main thing, though, involves my bouts with depression: earlier this year, I finally saw my doctor's office about them. The first doctor I saw (there's three of 'em in this particular office) prescribed me three medications, none of which seemed to work. The second doctor I saw replaced them with one medication and added a muscle relaxer due to my back problems.
** A later visit was to do my bloodwork, and resulted in me downing a ton of Smart Water and sitting in a lab's waiting room for what felt like hours because only two people were on staff at this place (not the doctor's office). To my surprise, since I hadn't gotten it done in much longer than it should've been (at least a year, if I'm not mistaken), everything checked out fine there.

* On a more positive note, shortly after the above doctors' visits I started getting a couple of subscription boxes (namely, Japan Crate and 30 Days of Candy), partly to help me keep my mood up and to give me something to look forward to in the mail each month that wasn't a bank statement or something from my insurance provider. :)

* As for writing...I still do it sometimes, but after more than seven years I gotta wonder if the spark's still there. I sometimes write if an idea strikes me, or if I have a particularly interesting dream, each of which has happened within the past few months.

As for Christmas, we have a turkey ready to go for tomorrow, and my brother's not working that day so we'll have time to do stuff. Hopefully, your holidays are (or have been) going along well, too. :)

anonymous's avatar
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Other than contributing to the Wheel of Fortune History Wiki (wheeloffortunehistory.wikia.co…; for some reason, the "a href" code refuses to work for this link only)...not much. Back in June, I began uploading again to my YouTube channel, using my Twitter account to help promote it. (I can't believe I've spent nearly five years here and never plugged these. :O)

Do you mind if I tell you a little story about that? Of course you don't, it's the internet. :XD:

Originally, I uploaded in segments through a convoluted DVD-to-PC transfer method using the audio/video wires of my Xbox (later Xbox 360), a blue audio/video-plug-holes-on-one-end-and-USB-plug-on-the-other contraption where the audio/video plugs really didn't go firmly inside, and Windows Movie Maker. I had to babysit the program in real time, which meant I couldn't use anything else on the computer, couldn't move for fear of accidentally severing the tenuous audio/video plug connections, and had to wait a very long time for the files to be created. The whole thing got me depressed in the end, and as such I stopped after putting up an episode of Monopoly (yes, it was a game show, and not just in the States) for Christmas 2010.

In June of this year, my brother told me about Magic DVD Ripper, an easy-to-use/low-PC-intensity program that rips video files straight from DVDs into whatever format you want, or simply copies discs in whole or part. I downloaded the trial, and quickly realized that this could get me back to uploading...so I did, buying the full version shortly after the trial ran out. :)

(Sorry if this sounds like one of those inane infomercial testimonies you see at 4:00 in the morning after you fell asleep watching Jay Leno. :P)


anonymous's avatar
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In

An apology

2 min read
...Wow, I'm sorry about that last entry. That was at least 2-3 years of pent-up rage exploding at once, albeit mostly calmly.

Anyway, right after I posted that entry I saw a Journal entry called "Life is Beautiful", by :iconcapukat:. It spoke very heavily to me, and made me feel a bit better. :)

That said, two lines in particular made me think of my rage-fueled post:
* "There are moments in life when you don't feel like picking yourself back up again.
When others try to lend a hand and no matter what, you won't raise your own to grab that hand and pull yourself back on your feet."
...Except when nobody tries to lend a hand, how am I supposed to pull myself back up? :(

* "Don't aspire to get the sympathy of others for what you might lack-- instead, aspire to catch their admiration for the things you do with what you have!"
I've tried this, catching little admiration over the past five-and-a-half years. Like I said before, I've lacked drive and support for a long while now.

As I said in the other post, a lot of my problems are admittedly my fault. My parents would take out their anger on myself and my brothers, so I guess that's why I took my anger out on you guys. I really shouldn't have, though, but this is the kind of thing you really only think of after hitting the Submit button.

Still, Capukat's Journal entry brightened my mood and reminded me that no matter how bad you think your life is, don't let it get you down. Strive to get past your doubts and fears, even when it seems (or actually is the case) that nobody cares about you. :)

Again, I apologize for that outburst.


anonymous's avatar
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Featured

Well hey turns out it was over SIX years by DanielBenfield, journal

Well, at least it wasn't another two years... by DanielBenfield, journal

*wipes away cobwebs* by DanielBenfield, journal

So what *have* I been doing lately? by DanielBenfield, journal

An apology by DanielBenfield, journal