Hey guys....it's been a while
Most of you that I used to talk to are either gone, don't remember me, cut me out due to dumb actions on my part, or are some of the very few that I don't want in my life that refuse to leave. Things haven't been easy lately, but I've been managing pretty well.
I'm the past year I've been divorced (long story and I'll spare you all the details), turned 22, broken my first bone, admitted myself to the hospital twice because I needed it, laughed alot, cried alot, and just been messing stumbling through life. Things have changed alot since any of you last spoke to me, and as youve noticed pretty much all pictures
I hope that you are doing well. :)
I wanted to share some good news....as of April 10th I am 1 Year & 6 Months Cancer Free so far!!!! :boing: Yippeeee!!!!! :party: I am also in a new position at my job which I am enjoying very much. :)
A HUGE "Thank You" to everyone on here who helped me get through the surgery & radiation treatments, I am SO Thankful & Appreciate Each & Every One of You!!!! :heart:
Oh, & I unfortunately went on a couple dates with an awful guy - had to tell him off as he wouldn't leave me alone....even when I told him I didn't want to date him anymore. :(
Now I am feeling Strong & Cent
Thirteen years ago this day,
You stole my heart away.
It was all the little things
That love brings.
From keeping me dry
To starring at the night sky.
You wiggled into my heart
Right from the very start.
We will never be perfect
And love is not a destination.
We laugh, cry and reflect.
We are always in motion.
Our journey has only begun.
We will always love our fun.
And if your dog or cat ever dies,
I'll by you a ewe.
In the last journal I wrote I was not doing so well, but things are getting better. Nothing has changed much, but I have been taking care of myself better and adjusting to a new life. I am still pretty lonely though. I did make a friend, but he is very interested in sleeping with me and that complicates things. I need a friendship were sexual attraction is not a factor, but for now I will take what I can get. I am working on applying for jobs, and when I get one things will be a lot better. Until then I am trying to spend more time in my studio (well the section of my bedroom I have set up for taking pictures and for painting). I have been wo
I'm sure most of us have read the quote, "a man has two options in a relationship, either stand up and be the man she needs or sit down so she can see the man behind you." I've seen this posted and re-posted on Facebook and today it finally has meaning.
I got so stuck in thinking that there would be no one standing behind him that I'd be left alone. I know, it's a ridiculous thought. I became so focused on trying to hold him in place, to prevent him from leaving that I ignored how horribly he had been treating me. I was willing to accept less than I was worth and even put myself in a place where I would have given up things that defined me a
I have a regular customer who comes in fairly often. This man is in his 70's and is one of the happiest men I've ever met. Yesterday he came into the bar and the familiar smile and warm compliments he usually offered everyone were absent. I brought him his usual tall bud light and shot of jack without asking for his order and placed it in front of him. As I walked away I felt his hand grab mine, when I looked into his eyes I saw true sadness. His hand trembled as a tear followed the wrinkles of his cheeks before falling onto the bar top. Neither of us said anything. He released my hand and sat silent, sipping his beer.
As the night drew to a
Some would call me a red flag. Well those who conform to society's standards and norms I suppose would label me as such. I see my life filled with lots a freedom and occasional pangs of loneliness.
For years I felt like I was damaged goods and looking back this was the reason I allowed myself to date that guy who ended up stalking me. I told myself I could not do better and I needed to finally get on with settling down. Being a woman in her late forties, never married, no kids, never even living with a man gives people the stink eye. Looking back in my 20's and early 30's I had fleeting moments where I thought taking that brutal step may fai
I think I just conjured up the best anti car-theft device idea ever. An app that in the event of a car break in, you'll get an alert on your phone and/or laptop and with this app you can get your car of danger by remotely operating it from your phone or computer, and the thief gets gobsmacked when your car fires up and starts to move on it's own.
"HOLY SHIT THIS CAR HAS DEMONS!!!!!"
P.S. I was listening to the GhostBuster's Theme when I conjured up this idea.
So, for those of you that noticed, I did a nice little photo dump.
I know I should post more on here, and I'm going to try.
I hope everyone enjoys!
Hey, post recommendations on what you guys would like to see more of from me. Keep in mind, anything involving nudity, even remotely, is only for my sweetie. :D
So, I know I practically dropped off the face of the earth. Since my last post back in August, here's what's been going on.
I'm not sure if I mentioned I had an MRI done. The docs never told me that I could have an adverse reaction to the barium solution, because of my history with asthma and allergies. I wanted to throw up for 2 weeks. At that point, I got tired of my doctors. The MRI showed no inflammation, no abscesses, no nothing. Also, when they failed 3 times at putting an IV line in for the contrast solution, they put in my record that I refused it. They didn't have the decency to note that 3 times it was attempt
For those of you that follow me here on DA, but haven't friended me on FB, I wanted to let you know what's been going on.
On July 13, I had to go to the ER to have a perianal abscess drained for the 3rd time in 5 years (it's a fistula) I was recovering well enough the first week. When I went into the follow up, I had no idea they wanted to insert probes into the wound. I refused to allow it, since I was never notified of what they were going to do, and consent wasn't sought. I did consent to them inserting the probe rectally, and they couldn't find anything concerning the fistula.
The same doctor that tried to insert the probe into the