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Letter to a Bass Player
     I feel like I need to say something, yet not knowing how to approach telling this feeling to another person, when I don't even know if it is in anyway reciprocated or makes any sense at all.  I am scared because I feel that I want to say something and its going to be the wrong thing, or I will get laughed at, possibly being made fun of on the other end of the screen. I am willing to face that rejection if the case may be.  It's just open to so much doubt and interpretation or just out right 'no thanks'.  I guess I would deserve that, wouldn't I? I had a chance to take, and I played it off, a while ago, probably almost about a year ago now.   He was interested in my costume making, and talking about sewing and music too, and I told him that I could talk about music for a long time, but I had to get going, receiving was done unloading the trailer.  He asked if we could talk about it over dinner some time, and I really had a hard time saying I
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2013 Triumph Bonneville SE-1 by D-Angeline 2013 Triumph Bonneville SE-1 :icond-angeline:D-Angeline 3 0 The Heartbeat of America by D-Angeline The Heartbeat of America :icond-angeline:D-Angeline 4 0 Black Sheep Racing by D-Angeline Black Sheep Racing :icond-angeline:D-Angeline 9 2 Portrait Commission May 2018 by D-Angeline Portrait Commission May 2018 :icond-angeline:D-Angeline 9 4 Jessica Rabbit Cosplay Pin-Up by D-Angeline Jessica Rabbit Cosplay Pin-Up :icond-angeline:D-Angeline 3 0 Jessica Rabbit Cosplay by D-Angeline Jessica Rabbit Cosplay :icond-angeline:D-Angeline 5 1 Jessica Rabbit Cosplay, feat. Marilyn Monroe by D-Angeline Jessica Rabbit Cosplay, feat. Marilyn Monroe :icond-angeline:D-Angeline 5 0 Scorpion In Amber by D-Angeline Scorpion In Amber :icond-angeline:D-Angeline 2 1
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A Scorpio Writes Something
        I have a leather jacket addiction, so it seems.  Maybe it's not that bad. More unbranded than Lewis Leathers.  I am constantly feeling stuck in between redneck piece of white trash and upper east side, Manhattan style wanting of luxury...does this Versace go well with mud and 5th wheel grease?
        I am a mystery to myself, the levels vary ever so often...maybe I'm too wordy and think too much about very small details that mean nothing. In the outer world anyway, human interaction. However, paper, pencil, and ink are a different world altogether, which in being this way has helped me. Being able to see the small details, and really look at them, study and understand them, keep them in mind and recreate. Getting up early to write the things out that keep you awake at night.  I think everyone should try it, just once. Even before work and you are tired, and its cold and the caffeine is still trying to k
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Permanently Delete
"This will permanently delete the conversation history"
        I stared at this prompt way too long this morning and finally decided to hit delete, realizing it was all nothing and should never have occupied so much of my emotional energy.  Yet this has still been a vampire, to hit me when I am weak and wondering.  
        I thought I could make a fiction out of reality, but to go back in my mind and dig out all the little details to make an interesting story has been too much, and I can't do it.  I do understand that aspect of it now, how hard it is to go back and make a story out of pain, and it is ever so easy to make up creatures and monsters as a stand-in.   I need to burn everything and stop wondering because he will do this over and over again to other people.  There won't be a story that I can write that will get that through t
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If you happen to stumble onto my deviantART page, then HELLO! Look around a little, I do a variety of different styles and techniques, plus a little bit of costume design and cosplay. I'm inspired by a lot and want to create my own version of showing how all of it comes together in my mind.

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     I feel like I need to say something, yet not knowing how to approach telling this feeling to another person, when I don't even know if it is in anyway reciprocated or makes any sense at all.  I am scared because I feel that I want to say something and its going to be the wrong thing, or I will get laughed at, possibly being made fun of on the other end of the screen. I am willing to face that rejection if the case may be.  It's just open to so much doubt and interpretation or just out right 'no thanks'.  I guess I would deserve that, wouldn't I? I had a chance to take, and I played it off, a while ago, probably almost about a year ago now.   He was interested in my costume making, and talking about sewing and music too, and I told him that I could talk about music for a long time, but I had to get going, receiving was done unloading the trailer.  He asked if we could talk about it over dinner some time, and I really had a hard time saying I couldn't...I was in a relationship, even if my heart was not, but it took me awhile to figure that out.

    I'm weird and awkward in a way that I try to hide and always end up failing at hiding. I haven't quite been able to get to the point where I don't hide, but I'm trying to shed a little of my shell every day.  I always second guess myself, even at times when I know I have done really great work, but still ask is it good enough?  The self doubt is kicking in now, that's why I am writing this, I thought maybe I should, finally get it out, and ask about how it is you feel about me...or am I just reading into it way too much, as I always seem to do.  I have too good of an imagination and my day dreams can become a focal point of what I want to have happen in reality. Works well for art, but hasn't really worked well for life.   Self-doubt seems to be never-ending, but I try to deal with it as best I can in forcing myself to conquer it, so I'm writing this message to get my thoughts together:

   
So, I've come to the decision that I want to see your band play, even if I have to go by myself.  I also want to talk to you in person, and figure out what it is I think I feel...maybe it will be a little awkward, but I got to try, admitting to the fact that I would be nervous in general going downtown by myself, topping it off with the actual anxiety of meeting you, but I want to do it anyway.  I'll figure it out, take a deep breath and try to act like a normal human being, just trying to have a conversation and get to know another fellow who it seems has a lot of the same interests I do. I would like to meet another perfectionist, even of a different creative avenue, and discuss how it works for and against our respective art forms. I know that sounds pretty dry, and even though I love to talk about the academics of all kinds of things, I also like to have an honest-to-God, fucking rock n'roll good time. I feel that you are the same way.

    I have respectfully let my feelings be known to my co-driver and former boyfriend and we are not in a romantic relationship anymore, and he has accepted that. It has been a long time coming. I wanted to mention that because I don't want you to wonder about what is going on, you can ask me about anything and I will be open about everything, it can just be awfully hard to type so much out in a chat screen... I don't like to put out there as public a relationship status or make posts about it, because I'm not wanting to possibly get all that attention, I can't deal with it.  I mean, I really don't know if you even care about all this, or what you are even looking for, if anything, at this current time.  I just thought I would let my thoughts out on the subject and see what you might have to say and what your feelings are about me.  

    I'm just trying to sort my thoughts out on it, about how I feel, it always seems like we can get talking for a long time, and I love everything we talk about, doesn't seem like it has been hours, you know.  I understand you probably know a lot of people and see all different types, and I hope that I'm not being too forward on letting you know all this, it's burning a hole in my mind, and I am sorry if it's weird and kind of crazy, but here it is anyway.

    So if the offer is still good, I would be willing to talk about music over dinner sometime.


    I will be putting this out in the universe, not expecting anything but honesty, and to maybe just start a conversation about relationships and feelings in general. I don't want to put pressure on anyone or to feel that it has to have a definition, I just want to have a conversation about the ways in which we can feel sometimes, and that I cannot remain in my own mind in figuring this out any longer. Let me know what you think.
The Heartbeat of America
Xmas 2018 present for my brother, these are his two personal favorite trucks -- well, I know the blue one is anyway.  The brown suburban just went out with a hell of a story, here is the youtube vid if anyone wants to check that out... (fastforward to 2:47 if you don't want to watch the whole hillbilly parade of trucks rolling onto the track lol)

youtu.be/G7mcdANgKgE

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Portrait Commission May 2018
A commission passed on to me from a friend, had it for about a year before I could really get into drawing it, with working with Halloween props and a costume commission, plus all my own costumes on top of it, but it is all finally done!!  Plus I have been having some issues with uploading files from my phone to deviantART, but I think I figured out I have to run them through PS first just to change the file type?...I don't know, but it worked for this, so here ya go.
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D-Angeline Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks!
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Thank for the watch :iconthxwatchplz:
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IrvingBraxiatel Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2016
Welcome to Doctor-Whovians! For administrator-y reasons, I'm obligated to ask you to read the submission guidelines if and whenever you submit art. That aside, please check out our vast gallery of awesome art.

Have a Who-full day and don't let the Daleks exterminate you! ;P
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D-Angeline Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks! Will do :)
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Thank you for faving my Zippy- Cat Ear Aviator! 
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twistedmentality Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2015  Professional General Artist
thanks for the fav!
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Joe-Roberts Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
 Thanks for faving :)
Doctor Who, Dr Who by Joe-Roberts 
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Thanks for the watch!
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CrystalChaos0810 Featured By Owner May 15, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch :D
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ty for the fav!
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