Hey hey hey
I told myself from time to time to make a journal...but I forgot to until this very moment -woohoo bad memory-
A lot has changed since I've started my hobby of drawing and ever since I arrived onto this website.
I fell down here and there (and still paying consequences for) and I learned a lot of new things as well, so it evens out somehow
I remember when I first entered here...I wrote kawaii
A L O T .____.
I legit got a reply from a super old comment I made and I saw my comment was something like 'KAWAIII!!!!!!!!!' -internally cries at old self-
But those days are all done with and I'm more mature (hah) XP
My style has shifted here and there and I'm glad I came onto this website because I improved a lot because of it.
When I first came here I thought I was pretty decent but then I saw a lot of people that are wayyyyyy ahead of me in skill (and they still are ahead to this day hehe)
And from there on, I continued to work hard
My best drawing for this year and improvement (in my view ofc) is this o/ :
Who knew the way one has their lineart matters a lot o: (I didn't that's for sure) I used a more thin line art in the second one rather than the first one.
The way I have the colors in the second drawing and the composition appears to flow better as opposed to the first drawing. The first drawing had a different idea of a pose, but I wasn't able to execute that properly considering that's a problem I have...(not being able to have clear ideas flow out)
I'm glad I improved this drawing by a lot, and within 1 month too
I still have a lot to work on but hardly any time to because school yayayay -internally dying-
My school life is something I really need to improve on...need to do good and pass before the year ends >_</
Ofc things aren't going my way because I'M ON A VACATION IN A COUNTRY WHEN I SHOULD BE AT HOME STUDYING TT__TT
eh I have to figure it all out somehow ;_;
Anyways, I forgot the point of me writing here
(I do this a lot irl too)
All I want to say though is that I have changed a lot and with the new year approaching, there's still a lot more I want to improve upon o/
I'm even thinking of getting new traditional media, considering I haven't really bought any in years hehehe (and I seriously need to upgrade anyways x_x )
I need to do better in digital media and actually find a day to test out all the functions in PTS (Despite me using it for years now, I actually don't know all the works of it XD )
Other important things for me is to actually get a clear view of what I want to draw, which is something I struggle with constantly
I also need to improve upon coloring techniques, the effects I actually want to achieve, and more.
I have to work hard haha o/
I also wanna test some animation, I just need time to actually do it OTL
But I'll try at one point o/ (I wanna promise I will, but I can't promise something I'm not even sure I'll have time for.)
I hope to do good in school and drawing ~
Overall though, what I have achieved this year is better control of my mentality
One important thing I learned for sure from this first half of the year and the entirety of last year is that when someone isn't making you happy and you forget what the feeling of happiness is, it has a severe impact on your mentality. I never was good with the idea of putting yourself in front of others, but I now realize it's needed in certain cases because it's important to remember that you also have importance along with the person you're sacrificing yourself for. (What bad wording haha)
So this year hasn't been all that bad, but it most certainly could've been better.
Which is why I have next year to start over on o/
So let's make this a good year everyone ^w^/