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So lately I feel like the cosplay community as a whole has taken a ugly turn for the worst. I am not saying this as a whole in general but more so from the florida cosplay community. It seems like alot of people that I know or follow in the community have been using their popularity or becoming popular and using it for all the wrong reasons. With that being said I am sure you are all wondering what the heck I am even talking about. These are just some observations that I have made by following a few people. I won't state who and how I saw these observations but it was just by following them on social media. Facebook, Instagram. etc. So here are some of the observations I have made and how I feel like it has poisoned the community along with how it has affected myself.

Sponsoring:
The efamous people have been getting free sponsorships: I gotta say it must be nice. People picking you to sponsor them because they have so many followers. Like seriously I don't understand how people are just handed sponsorships so easily when there are people who try and actually work pretty hard over the years to build a really good cosplay portfolio yet there not even noticed yet the ones who just pull stuff out of their ass and bitch and complain they are just being handed things like it is no big deal. I really don't understand it. :/ And I don't mean sponsoring like what reika has. She actually earned that. I am talking about store sponsorship. Like seriously. You can only be a sponsor for a store unless you are like super duper popular. It's ridiculous.

Gifts:
Alot of the same people have been asking their fans to buy them stuff? I am not kidding. They will literally post wishlists on their social media and just pretty much saying their hoping their fans will buy them stuff. And I mean these are complete strangers. That kind of stuff right there would make me too nervous to give out my address. I just can't comprehend that there are people out there would do stuff like that. I mean you are literally giving out your home address to a complete and total stranger just because they send you stuff??? Are you that crazy?

Complaining:
I think this is the one that irks me the most entirely. I have noticed alot of people I follow often complain about not having the money to pay for bills and how their life sucks so much and don't have the money for anything. Not even food. Yet there going to every single convention not just in the state but out of state too. How??? How do you have the money to be doing all of these things yet.....You complain how your life is so hard and don't have the money to afford bills. How??? How can you afford going to conventions when you claim you don't have the money to keep a roof over your head??? Are you mooching off of family and friends??? I don't know how they do it but that is what it seems like. 

I just feel like the old prospects that I had toward the cosplay community no longer exist. It seems like the old cosplay term no longer stands for what it did. If you are not famous you don't matter. And if you are famous then you are bombarded by followers or hated by many. There is always that in between. I have just lost so much respect for the community and why I have been contemplating on leaving it. I no longer enjoy it and what it used to mean to me. I mean cosplay was my main hobby. It was like my other life. Like hannah montana. But it just doesn't feel like that anymore. I have been casted aside by people who I once thought were my friends yet in the lolita community I am making new friends everyday! I make more lolita friends than I make cosplay friends within 1 month. That's a complete difference. I know there are a few bad eggs in the lolita community but I feel more at home and at peace with other lolitas it seems like lately than I do with cosplay friends. I am not saying this as a slap to the face but it is based on how I feel and what I go through on a daily basis. I am just tired of no longer mattering to the people who once told me they miss seeing me or miss being around me. I feel like it is a complete lie now. Most of the people who say this are all cosplay people. Yet they will say it online but I know it is always a lie. And I'm tired of living this lie and no longer being able to enjoy something for myself. I have contemplated on leaving the cosplay life numerous times and it seems to me as the years go by that feeling I have just gets more intense. I no longer enjoy the cosplay life like I once did. So I think after 2016. I will quit the cosplay life entirely. Once I leave the cosplay community I will probably still keep my pages up as a reminder of who I once was and can reflect on it from time to time but I am sure a majority of my uploads will no longer be cosplay related by the lolita fashion side which I feel like do not get enough TLC in my life. But I think once 2017 comes around I am just going to attend one cosplay convention a year and do one new cosplay maybe and then maybe attend the DFT con hopefully every year if I am able to and if I can even afford to go? Who knows only time will tell I guess. :3