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Untitled by CryptRose Untitled :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 2 1
Bird of the Summer
you're a bird of the summer
i only ever see you then
but don't worry i'm happy;
for the rest i found somewhere.
i want your life and your smile
and your wings to fly away.
i want your freedom to run when i please
and return when i'm okay
now only when the sun shines
though once when the snow came
you'd seen it all but not me
so i spun and you stared...
and i'll always remember
how i danced in a snowfall
bird of the summer, i
wonder do you think of me?
of the sparkling white winter we spent,
the silence of what used to be?
now only when the days stretch,
though i fear i may melt,
i find someplace that's near the sky
and hope to fly away;
and i'll always remember
how i danced in a snowfall...
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you're not leaving. by CryptRose you're not leaving. :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 1 1 Wind by CryptRose Wind :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 1 3 Valley by CryptRose Valley :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 3 3 you're all that i have by CryptRose you're all that i have :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 1 4 soft by CryptRose soft :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 1 10 Hold in your breath by CryptRose Hold in your breath :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 2 9 Aftermath by CryptRose Aftermath :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 3 4 Thaw by CryptRose Thaw :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 3 1 Rejazz by CryptRose Rejazz :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 8 7 Breaking through by CryptRose Breaking through :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 2 5 Snow I by CryptRose Snow I :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 0 1 sunrise by CryptRose sunrise :iconcryptrose:CryptRose 4 5
no moments to last forever because
i will always be terrified if you pull me closer
to you with cold hands and shaking body.
i think the words you should hear
yet i speak nothing but silence.
i see the beauty in you, but dare i voice it,
unconscious rejection meets my every word.
you may ask me to stay but i'll always wonder
do you mean it at all?
i'm scared to death of staying close – falling deeper.
I'll whisper never just to hear you say forever
to the air next to my neck. i really wish that you would feel it.
and your head on my shoulder is pressing the button
that tells me to say the words i never can.
my skin is warm because you make me alive
spears of ice are puncturing at my insides
as a frozen heart is dripping.
it's all i can do to keep you from noticing
how i sometimes break in beautiful ways
to the sound of your words.
you are beautiful as you are real,
and your eyes remind me the ice i made myself out of
is awfully transparent.
i have a pulse and i c
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i am picking out parts of people
holding them tight in my hands as they fall apart
fitting them like clay, pressing them
into the hole you left, in the me you kept alive
i look at them like they could fit the shape
i close my eyes to the feeling that they can't fill the gap.
somedays i am chaos
you broke a lot more than just my heart.
i want to feel in love so much i am breaking myself into the tiniest pieces and squeezing myself into that cat-shaped hole, because today i'm sure i am plasticine.
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_ w_sh _ may,
_ w_sh _ m_ght;
_ w_sh _ could
rega_n my s_ght:
_ saw your face;
_ gasped and tossed
my glance your way.
my eyes got lost.
"you have my eyes."
"f_nders keepers."
"how _mmature."
"losers weepers."
you wear my eyes
l_ke pa_rs of pants.
roll_ng them or
throw_ng a glance.
but jokes on you!
cos the f_rst t_me
_ saw that face,
Beauty struck me--
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Susana Mendes
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
My heart, trapped inside my Eden, tangled with my soul.

Current Residence: Wherever my mind takes me.
Favourite genre of music: Depends on the song.
Favourite photographer: Glífero, fotografista oficial suzytíneo
Favourite style of art: Art-noveau, classic nostalgia and steampunk
Operating System: Windows Vista Business Pro
MP3 player of choice: Ipod
Shell of choice: Small, strong, purplish and with the sea inside.
Wallpaper of choice: Lillium
Skin of choice: No Hannibal Lecter inspirations here, thank you.
Favourite cartoon character: Aria or Navee from Senda
Personal Quote: Oh darling, so, so many.
  • Listening to: heartbeat
I don't recognize myself anymore. After a year running back and forth, trying to find a place in my day for knowledge, love, friendship and ambition, I have frozen for a second and I don't recognize myself anymore.
I don't know if that's good or bad, I only know nostalgia drove me back here, and memories have made me yearn to make amends I'm not sure are possible.
Three years fly by like they're nothing, and I'm thinking with such strenght I fear my cranium may explode.

I'd love to scan some of my drawings, maybe write down a story or two, but I know that's highly unlikely. I'm sorry.
I miss all the people I used to know here, I miss all the people I met here. But I don't miss the way I was.

I hope life treats you all kindly.


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TheeForsakenOne Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2015  Professional General Artist
Happy Birthday. :aww:
TheeForsakenOne Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2014  Professional General Artist
Happy Birthday. :nod:
ntdespoina Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2013  Professional
i would be glad if you could join my group :iconamazingmurals:
thanks :heart:
TheeForsakenOne Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2013  Professional General Artist
Happy Birthday. :nod:
rorymac666 Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hi Susanna what's up?
CryptRose Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
hey, nothing really. No time for much other than studying. You?
rorymac666 Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Similar I guessss
TheeForsakenOne Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012  Professional General Artist
Happy Birthday. ^^
Disharmonic-Forecast Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy DA birthday, Suzy. ^^
Witneil Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2011  Professional Traditional Artist
Taggei vc!
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