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I miss you guys on here. Do any of you have Instagram? I hope all of you have been well.

Happy Halloween to you all! <3

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I don't think I'm ever coming back to DA with so many Artistic outlets out there now. However I do miss all of my Friends that I met on this wonderful network.

If you still care to follow me wherever I go click below.... - I'm on Tumblr! - My Blog - My Webpage - Stardust - Twitter (Don't use it much anymore but you can still find me there). - My livejournal it's quite personal so I will only add people that I've befriended on here back I will not add anyone I do not know.

I don't know how I feel about DA anymore which is why I haven't posted anything in a long while. Sometimes I don't even log in to check messages. I'm not sure if this is me leaving for good & perhaps just using this account to see my friend's updates or if this is just a hiatus or break of some sort. Only time will tell...
It's been awhile since I've updated this journal seems that I tend to procrastinate on everything these days due to being sick, being to lazy, or being to busy. I really hate that. I think that sometimes I don't reply to friend's comments because at the moment I can't think of what to say & just slowly let what I want to say drift back to me later & then write back to them later (sorry for that).

I got 2 freelance jobs recently building 2 websites & the making of the CSS/DHTML/Javascript menus have been driving me absolutely insane. But you know this always happens & even though sometimes I seriously want to have my head chopped off due to the stress that I get from coding I still very much enjoy it, every single part of that process even that part where I really want someone to just slice my head off. ;)

We've been broke for the longest time due to fixing our European piece of shit car & the fact that I could get 2 freelance jobs has made me really happy because we really need the fucking money. I can't wait till the car is fully fixed & sold, I hate that bitch of a car.

I've been obsessing over Death Note lately because it's fucking bloody brilliant. I watch Anime/Horror Movies/Old cartoons to keep me sane.

Here's to hoping that I can fix that menu soon so that I can finally move onto the next part of the website.

- Should probably add that all the photos I have posted lately have been taken with my Cellphone as my Camera was stolen when my Mother in Law took it on a trip with her. I'm trying to save up to buy my dream Digital SLR.

  • Listening to: Decoded Feedback :: Time to Time
  • Watching: The Wolfman 2010 &amp; Death Note
  • Playing: Rhapsody a Musical Adventure :: DS, Dragon Quest V
Not much time has passed since my last journal entry still I thought I should update.  This Christmas will be our first Christmas as a  married couple & we are really looking forward to that. I recently acquired a job & had to quit my job due to health problems (it seems as though I am damned to be sick for the rest of my life as I have been sickly since my Childhood) though I'd like to think that after I overcome what I have now that sickness won't plague me anymore.

It was really hard to leave my job & I felt really bad about the whole thing but my Family said that it was best to quit. It's better to be safe than sorry then end  up with even more health problems. I'm doing all right though, doing freelance work from home & just taking it easy. My Husband got me a Nintendo DSi as an early Christmas present & I love the hell out of that little gadget as it helps keep away daily stress & makes me giggle & laugh uncontrollably.

Still I am thankful for everything that has ever happened to me in my life good or bad for I firmly know that everything happens for a reason & that every bad event that has passed in my life has made me grow into a stronger human being. There have been more bad experiences than good ones but I'm not ever going to let that get me down. I'm going to continue smiling, dancing, singing like never before, & creating art endlessly.

I have a dark side which is usually reflected in my art, my writings, my thoughts, & just my overall personality. But I also have a very bubbly, happy side & am most of the time hyperactive & committing silly acts if not to say murderous ones. ;P

To those of you who are my Friends (You know who you are) & are reading this I care for you guys & love you dearly & am extremely thankful to have all of you in my life. You make this sick, sad, world a better place, I mean it.

With this said I wish you all a very Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!

  • Listening to: Salsa music on the radio ^^
  • Playing: A Witch's Tale DS, Animal Crossing DS
  • Eating: Ice cream!
  • Drinking: Water it does the body good!
It's not a mystery to many that I got married in July to my Boyfriend of 6 years. Everything has been wonderful & I am happier than I have ever been in my life - marrying Miguel Angel was my biggest goal in life & now I have achieved that.

I'm trying to be more active on DA mainly because I miss it & because I finally have a tool to snap photos again as my Husband gave me a new digital camera as a present recently. I've been using Photoshop like mad - day & night, re-sizing & editing here & there. I'm a PS junkie but I have been using it more than ever now. I'm currently jobless & for the time being that's A - ok. Soon I'll be looking into applying for jobs & hopefully something really good will come up. I've loved this brief period of relaxation.

My Husband is beyond awesome I would be nothing without him. I'll be posting more Wedding photos when I'm not as lazy.

I launched my new website this weekend please visit it & sign the guestbook or shoutbox!

Stardust :: Her Blood - Engraved Text


Other News..

My Mom is going to be renting out my house & I'm going to be moving in with my Boyfriend;) Life is Good!!!


Even Bigger News...

I'm going to get married to my Soulmate! XD
  • Listening to: Placebo :: Pure Morning
  • Reading: Desperately wants new books to read!
  • Playing: House of the Dead Overkill
  • Eating: Cup o Noodles
  • Drinking: Agua
:icondagnostic: is a new DA community that is composed of a bunch of brilliant & talented artists. One of them being a friend of mine, so I thought that I'd help promote this great community.
  • Listening to: Therion :: Birth Of Venus Illegitima
  • Reading: I need to go to Exedra to get some new books!
  • Drinking: Agua
I started working (practice job needed to fulfill graduation requirements + a thesis paper) recently & I'm really happy with my job.  It has been a really wonderful experience & I have started to feel productive - something I haven't felt in a really long while.

It really beats being bored at home I'll tell you & I get to listen to music as I work so it's rather gratifying. I'm working as a Graphic/Web Designer in this Company that conserves animals & nature. School is going fairly well though I'm behind on some of my schoolwork. I get to see Miguel more often than before & that's always a major plus!

I'm really happy. My Parents & Frightdoll were right getting a job has done me a world of good.

The office where I work is surrounded by a rain forest & animals sometimes come down to the office;)

Soon I'll be getting my contract & my schedule because now I am going to be getting paid because they gave me the job & now it's no longer a practice job:D
  • Reading: CSS Book + Lords of Chaos (again!) + The Alchemist
  • Playing: Global Mu Online
  • Eating: Chinese food
  • Drinking: Water - fo sho!
I sit at my computer daily & barely even open photoshop. I only open Photoshop/Illustrator to do school work but lately I had been thinking to myself that I should start working on personal art again.

& I've been trying to learn Dreamweaver as silly as I think that program is - HTML all the fucking way! ;P

Things are good I'm hoping to get a practice job soon to alienate the boredom of my life (meaning that when I wake up in the morning I have nothing to do so I'm bored all day till I go to class in the afternoon) till I finish studying & also to gain experience.

That is all for now...
  • Reading: The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho &amp; Lords of Chaos
I feel in my bones that something good is coming round the bend. I hope to God that I am right.
  • Listening to: The Olymppics
Tired of the daily routine. Tired of not being creative. I hope something good is coming up.
  • Listening to: Day in the life - Street Justice
  • Reading: Harry Potter &amp; the deathly hallows
I've been having somewhat of a writers/artists/creative/mind block lately. I hope that it is over soon so that I can continue working on new & half-done artwork. I very rarely have opened Photoshop/Illustrator to do artwork & since I'm currently camera less I haven't been taking many pictures.

I'm trying to be optimistic about everything including this creative block for I believe that out of everything negative I can draw out something positive. The most important thing is that my health is up to par. Thanks for your comments & well wishes;)
  • Listening to: theSTART - Gorgeous
  • Reading: A whole smorgasboard of books
Love is goodness and honor and peace and pure living... It is the best thing in the world and the thing that lives the longest.

- Henry Van Dyke


First & foremost I want to wish you all a very Merry Christmas just in case I weren't to update my DA journal by then. I hope this note finds you all well & in good health as it finds me.

I am extremely healthy & completely cured & I'm very happy for that & for so many other things. I learn new things everyday that fascinate me. I'm going to be spending Christmas this year with Miguel & my In Laws & I am so excited to see & meet the rest of Miguel's Family:)

  • Listening to: Third eye Blind - Jumper
  • Reading: Le Petit Prince, Lords of Chaos, King Arthur
  • Drinking: Clean Panama water
I believe in true love, & you should 2 ;)
  • Listening to: Jewel - Who will save your soul
  • Reading: Le Petit Prince, Lords of Chaos, King Arthur
  • Watching: Nip Tuck through a corner
  • Drinking: I want agua - Water!!!!!
I want the new Ulver CD - Shadows of the Sun! ;)


We fear the things
We do not understand

The powers

Of good
And evil

Of the world

The past
The future

The promises

The folly
Of those who died

For nothing

Leaving their wives
And their children

For love

The only thing
That makes us human

- Ulver
  • Listening to: Trespassers William - Fragment
  • Reading: Le Petit Prince, Lords of Chaos, King Arthur
  • Eating: I had chocolate cereal flakes for breakfast
  • Drinking: Water, yum!
"Nothing is impossible, nothing is unreachable, world peace is getting nearer." - Samael > 'Telepath'
  • Listening to: The fan
  • Reading: All kinds of shit...
  • Eating: Just had pancakes……

Reading those links makes me so happy. I don't give a damn what other people say I am an Al Gore supporter all the way. I think he would be a great President look how much he has done for the environment:)

Laus Deo!
  • Listening to: Lifehouse :: Everything
  • Reading: All kinds of shit...
  • Eating: Already finished my breakfast
Dearest Miguel Angel,

We have been in Love for 6 years - Best Friend's for 6 years - & we have been together as a couple forever in Love for 4 years. Today is mine & Miguel's 4 Year Anniversary as a Couple & our 6 year Anniversary being in Love & as Best Friend's.

Miguel Angel is the greatest gift God has ever given me. For I love the Silly Boy more each second, minute, hour, day, week, month, & year that passes.

True Love is Eternal - Our Love is Eternal - Love Never Dies - If It's Eternal & True - Our Love is Forever my Love - Amor Vincit Omnia - Love Conquers All - Amor Est Vitae Essentiae - Love Is Eternal Life - Love is the Essence of Life.

I love you Miguel Angel forever & ever, death will not do us part for we will be together in the Kingdom of Heaven. Thank you for being you. I love you for who you are not for what you have.

My Soul Mate - My Other Half - My Media Naranja - The missing peice in my Jigsaw Puzzle - You make me whole - You complete me.


Happy Anniversary my Sweet!!!!

  • Listening to: Coldplay :: The Fan
  • Reading: Ratatouille Comic book Miguel got me!
  • Playing: Wii Sports - Last night
  • Eating: Pancakes...soon!
  • Drinking: Icy cold water
Just a couple more day's left to Miguel's & my 4 year Anniversary. I fall in love with him all over again every single day.

We got a Wii this is the best purchase we have made in a long time.

I love that little Stooge <3
  • Listening to: Miguel snoozing
  • Reading: The Zombie Survival Guide
  • Playing: Zelda :: Twilight Princess for Wii