Friends are rather priceless folks, not being one that makes them easily, I value the ones that I do have. I am not that trusting of an individual, well, it is more like that for me to give trust opens me fully up where I don't have defenses against friends. So I can get hurt fairly easily. Tis the nature of me
I am extremely loyal type when I commit to a friendship. There are a lot of reasons for that, formative years in foster care, I got out of the system when I was 7, but the system never got out of me. A life filled with folks not getting you or your not getting yourself until you find out many years later that your on the spectrum. Not fitting in and the like and the abuse I took emotionally from a lot of folks... things leave scars ... but I have always trucked on usually on my own... that was the nature of me.
That all being said, the last six weeks have been well a real hell on fronts, I'm still wounded, still recovering. I haven't been in this situation in a long time where I frankly just shutdown with the world for the most part. Beyond my family and a handful of folks. I retreated into my shell the last defense so to speak. Things are getting better
These situations, underscore who is a true friend, who are the ones that touch base with you, ask how your doing, listen, want to help, send you notes asking how your doing... keep the communication channels open even when I don't really desire much in terms of human contact. Them folks worthy folks are deeply appreciated for being themselves and I have appreciated the support they have given me. I don't need to name them as they know who they are ... and as such have my unconditional support because they were there even when I wasn't talking about stuff, not knowing that the simple being there is all that really mattered in the end. These peeps weren't so caught up in there own needs and not so self centered to be asking for stuff from me during this time or even during the good times. They didn't sit there and ask how I was doing to get something or expecting something... they simply were there.
I have a family yes, but for me, my friends are very much my family. Call it a result of not having a family when I was a kid. I tend to adopt.
So I have a long way to go in the coming months... and I go through swings of being interested in creative endeavors and 3d ... but I'll get there but I wanted to share my appreciation of those that were true friends... and continue to be.