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Lost In Life
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Published: October 25, 2017
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I haven't painted or sketched anything for the last month or so because I feel very much like this at the moment. I'm stuck not knowing which direction to turn.
There isn't really a clear path for life, no maps or signs pointing you in which way to go and it's hard.
I lost my passion for painting because of this and tried to do anything I could not to paint which was the wrong choice because it's what I love doing. In my mind I just don't feel as though I'm good enough so it tells me 'why bother?' I know however that in order to be better you need to practice but finding the motivation to do so when being lost is difficult.
I am however determined now to get a piece done every couple weeks if not more so that I can get back in to painting again :)

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Vezlevez's avatar
Vezlevez|Hobbyist Digital Artist
Great work !!! what a good representation  !!!
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Craftea| Digital Artist
Thankyou :)
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JenniferCocoaFulk|Hobbyist General Artist
This is how I feel about writing. When I have the chance, I feel like doing other stuff like art, listening to music, surfing the internet, playing games, etc. Then, just when I feel like writing, my family turns on the TV, radio, their endless mouths, or something stupid happens that keep me from doing so. I live in a constant state of frustration, implosion, and anxiety because everything happens at seemingly the wrong time. Sometimes I wonder if I was born the wrong person, at the wrong place, at the wrong time, with the wrong life.
It's just the daily struggle of being who I am. I'm very different from the rest of my family. And it's not that I'm totally strange, either. I merely grew up with a traumatic life, found solitude in the self-distraction of writing, art, and video games, and I wish nothing more than to live a simple life in peace and quiet. I just live with a mom and sister who have mental problems, emotional instability, and social quirks, but I can't move out because they need my help and I don't have the heart to leave them (especially with rent rising in our city).
Like you, I also am determined to not let go of my dreams. I've clung onto them through thick and thin like an old friend through a tough battle, and I'm going to stand and fight until my last breath, because what I love to do and live for is an important part of me.
I already know what it's like to be forced by someone else to not do what I love, and it just violates every inch of your being. It's like someone telling you, "Don't breathe. You're not supposed to live. You're not supposed to be happy and live your life. I am in control of your very soul." It's just not something to be tolerated lightly. I could not be forced to not be who I was, so after a few months, I could not take it anymore and I wrote in secret.
Because what you love to do is who you are. 

Craftea, your art is breath-taking and deep. They have so much meaning in them, and I can tell at a glance that you create your art with love. You already have so much what a great artist has, and you've come so far on this beautiful and inspiring journey. I'm excited to see you journey on further. Every great artist lives a life-long adventure of seeing how much better they can get. It's a thrill. Making something new is like setting yourself a fun challenge, and each individual challenge is an obstacle course you narrow your eyes and smirk at as you prepare to take it on. Everyone's already great if they love what they do, for whatever they love they will live for.
Your art lives for you, too.
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Craftea| Digital Artist
Thankyou so much for your words regarding my art, it really means a lot to me :)
It's not an easy path to do what you want and it does involve a lot of ups and downs but you just have to press on, though it seems as though you know that all to well and I'm glad that you're determined not to let go of your dreams and I wish you luck with them ^^
Also I would love to read some of what you write sometime :) <3
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Hannah-Maresfin|Hobbyist Traditional Artist
My life at this moment Wink/Razz Wink/Razz No, I disagree! No, I disagree! No, I disagree! :D (Big Grin) :D (Big Grin) 
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saskia80|Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is so good
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Craftea| Digital Artist
Thankyou :)
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theheek|Professional Digital Artist
that's exactly how I feel
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Shellquake|Hobbyist General Artist
Clearly some people feel that way.
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theheek's avatar
theheek|Professional Digital Artist
I think a lot of people must I know right now I totally understand and am in that place in my life
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Midway2009|Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Quite an interesting illustration. :)
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Craftea| Digital Artist
Thanks :)
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Midway2009|Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you're welcome
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Artistdx|Hobbyist General Artist
I think at some point we all get to this moment where we just don’t know where to go. But eventually life finds a way to show us a way home. Fantastic art tho.
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Craftea| Digital Artist
Thankyou and I hope to find which way I'm supposed to go soon ^^;
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leoninesoul's avatar
A gorgeous illustration and a beautiful metaphor for how we all feel at a loss for direction in life at times.  Wishing you many meaningful moments of synchronicity and intuitive clarity.  When in doubt, follow your heart and inner stirrings. :heart:
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Craftea| Digital Artist
Thankyou so much <3
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Dab-Zeko|Hobbyist General Artist
I honestly got here by an accident, but I couldn't resist not to comment, this is absolutely beautiful and so creative !
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Craftea| Digital Artist
Aww thankyou so much <3 ^^
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LDFranklin's avatar
Fantastic imagery!  Great job! 
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Craftea| Digital Artist
Thankyou <3
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