So the Tension Finally Led to This.

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My mom and dad are getting a divorce.
They just told my brother and me. Somehow I knew this would happen but I refused to believe it. And now I just can't stop crying.

I'm not angry at Mom. I know she's not happy trying to put up with Dad. On the other hand, I'm pissed at my dad. He never forgave her for leaving for those couple of weeks to figure out what she wanted in life, even though he swore he did. Both Mom and I knew he didn't, though. So ever since she left, he's been acting like he's changed for the better. Apparently he thinks that "the better" means just doing a couple more house chores and not changing his attitude at all. So yeah. He's been pissy all this time toward Mom. And since I've made it pretty apparent that I haven't appreciated his attitude and that I'm "siding" with Mom, I'm sure he's going to start acting pissy toward me.

Honestly, I'm still angry at him for coming in here and starting to blame Mom for all of this. I told him that he wasn't helping when he started making sarcastic remarks and he just told me that he was telling my brother and me what was going on calmly. Then he stormed upstairs grabbed his stuff and slammed the door as he went outside.

I know everything's going to be "settled" eventually. There will eventually be a normal again. But right now I'm just having a really hard time. And I'm really worried about my younger brother. He never shows his emotions about this stuff. He'd rather keep this stuff to himself and when somebody tries to bring it up he just says that he'd rather not talk about it. We ask him if he's fine and he'll just nod and go back to whatever he was doing. I know I'll be alright eventually. I'll go to college when the fall comes around and I'll try to make some friends. I don't know where I'll be living, but I know I'll be with my mom. However, I have no idea what's going on through my brother's head right now. I just really hope that he's genuinely fine.

I must say, though. I'm a bit jealous of my older sister. She grew up, moved out, got married and she didn't hit a single snag as big as this while she did it. It's just a joke, though. I love my older sister more than almost anything, especially when these kind of things happens. She's always there for me and I know it will be the same this time.

Well, that's all I can really say right now. The rest of this summer will be tough and will probably be the worst summer of my life; but I'll be okay in the end. If you read this whole thing, thanks for putting up with my venting.
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CandyCoatedLSD's avatar
Aw hun...*hugs tight*

Like you already said...Yes, there will be a 'normal' again. Everything will be alright eventually.

As for your brother, maybe you could tell him you're really worried about him. Or you could tell him you want to vent and he could listen and maybe he's start talking about how he feels.

I'm glad you have your sister to be there to help you through. I'm here, as well, if you ever need to talk, vent, cry. I'll let you cry on my shoulder[virtually, unfortunately] anytime you need to.


Love you, Cotaku-Twinneh. =]

Cotaku's avatar
Thanks so much. *hugs*

Right now I'm just feeling really alone because I'm at home without my mom or sister and I just can't vent to my dad about anything. And I'm too much of a coward to call either of them. (That and today is my mom's birthday and I don't want to ruin it for her.)

So yeah. Thanks for reading through that entire journal. XD