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but I have promises to keep

By Conundra
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the woods are lovely;
dark and deep,
but I have promises to keep
and miles to go before I sleep; 
and miles to go before I sleep.

taken by Alan-H-Bruce, November 2011

I'm in the middle of my fourth round of IV antibiotics in three years.  
I've been in treatment since April, and still have a long way to go.
I haven't left Alaska since I returned to my hometown in 2012.  
That's a long, long time for a person born with the heart of an explorer and very, very restless feet.  

One of the things that brings me solace is the amount of life I managed to pack into the time I was given before my illness became too serious for me to stay in California. 
I modeled intermittently from 2007-2012, and I have enough material in my archive portfolio to post a different photo every day for at least 2-3 years. 

I'm a little thinner, a little older, and a little more tired around the eyes, with a few more scars for good measure, but I still see this woman in the mirror every morning. 
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Date Taken
Nov 19, 2011, 3:53:33 PM
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J0H0R's avatar
Such beauty and grace. ❤️ 
Solus-Photography's avatar
Beautiful shot of a beautiful woman, hope you get back to modeling soon.
Conundra's avatar
I would begin modeling again tomorrow, if only I could find a photographer here.

I wish I could afford a decent camera. I would rather learn to photograph myself than allow this hiatus to continue indefinitely.

Thank you very much.
Your comment means a great deal, coming from someone with your skill and taste in models.
Solus-Photography's avatar
Here's hoping 2015 will bring you new good luck.
Sithspit's avatar
Even if it's an old photo, it's always a pleasure to hear from you.  Please be well.
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Beauty:) ***Submitted to: IconCutieShots: For Your Approval IN: "Red Head Hotties" ***INVITE To Join On Your Front Page:)
scottjamesprebble's avatar
You will always be beautiful.
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I'm glad that woman is still there.  I have often caught myself thinking of you and wondering how you were doing.  I'm glad that your heart remains as strong as ever, and I hope that your restless feet will be able to wander again some day.
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tonepainter's avatar
Thinking of you.... it's so great to see you posting. I hope things get easier soon.
misspixie93's avatar
You have the most beautiful soul and it shines through. Sending love.
Alan-H-Bruce's avatar
Meggers, you wouldn't believe the young guy I see in the mirror in the mornings… hehehehehe.  I smile every time I think about that wonderful November afternoon, and thanks for shaking my cage today with the nice comments...

:)  :)
LuminonPhotography's avatar
I'm sure you are still gorgeous inside and out!  And eat more!  You shouldn't get any skinnier (and this coming from a guy who "likes'em thin")!
remuko's avatar
Glad to see you still around. Hope the meds are helping. I miss you. Keep being awesome! :iconbigheartplz:
MacDude4's avatar
Your photos always brighten my day. And I am really impressed and inspired by how you are handling your illness.

Best wishes that the coming new year is your best one yet!
skiesofchaos's avatar
My friend, you are, and  always will be an incredible muse, no matter where you are in your life. And a very blessed and safe Yule to you and your puppy too.
levarre's avatar
Kinda sad, but shows the value of photos to say "this is me" & in some even sadder cases "I was here"
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