it's hard having a mutual that has the same name as the guy who made me super uncomfortable and admitted to stalking me and kept pushing me to date him because like. they seem nice and it's like??? i wouldn't mind chatting with them? but i also get really panicky because i've just learned to get all weird when i see that name due to association.
i mean it's probably really fuckin dumb but it's just a a a a a a a a a a a i want dea th