Sometimes i feel like Cloud Strife (from FF7), we're haunted by our memories and the past, trying to do everything on our own and in the process pissing everyone off with our self pity. I recently returned from my holiday to Melbourne and the Gold Coast (where i had attended both the Supanova conventions) with the desire to make a change, as i held in my hands a large garbage bag full of items connected to my past (gathered from 3 days of cleaning my room), i tossed away the old me and excepted this new person i've become.
Truth is i didn't want to admit i've changed, i always had my head in the clouds, thinking about life, believing that forgetting who you are, was in a way like dying, but we never really remain the same... "I can't go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.." ~Alice in Wonderland
It'll take awhile to get use to, old habits die hard and temptation is cruel. Changes/the unknown/the future still terrifies me, but the difference is, this time i have a reason, motivation, muse or whatever you may call it, there's someone that i like who makes me except my past and memories as apart of me, who has made me shed tears i never thought i had, who puts me in my place and drives me mad~! but in the end of the day, makes me feel as though reality is finally better than my dreams~
wow, a rather deep first journal entry >___< and with that i shall end it with a "Hello, nice to meet you, please stay awhile and join me in this story of life" Photos from my trip: