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Emiliya Suki
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Coco Kanade: Otaku, Cosplayer, Procrastinating Multi-Tasker, Predictable Smartass.

'Sup dudes and dudettes! I am the one known as Gash-chan. But y'all can call me whatever you'd like! ^-^ If you prefer you can just call me Emiliya. :)


Peace out, dudes and dudettes! :peace: Live long and prosper.

Peace and long life. :heart:



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I know I've been pretty negative on here for a while because of my health stuff, but I think I might be finally starting to feel a little more like my old self again. Just a little but it's progress.

And honestly... good things are happening. I feel so blessed to have amazing friends.

One step at a time. I'll get there. Little Pixel Heart 
Came on here for the first time in weeks... saw over 1,500 notifications. Blindly deleted a ton of stuff without looking. I need to stop feeling guilty for putting my mental health first.

Kept more important things, gonna work on unsubbing from people I'm not very familiar with anymore. Brought my notifications down to less then 300. Starting to feel the mental weight being lifted.
  • Listening to: Air particles
  • Reading: A sandwich
  • Watching: Paper
  • Playing: Fruit salad
  • Eating: Water
  • Drinking: Pie
Yeah, original title. ^^; I'm just gonna be updating here every now and then as things progress.

So Monday I saw my new primary care doctor, he was helpful and gave me a regimen to follow regarding the new pill I need to take. He's also asking me to make appointments for a few other things that are in relation to the problem I'm experiencing with a specialist and other things. I'm still not feeling that great and my anxiety is acting up at the thought of seeing this specialist (because reasons I'd rather not discuss publicly), and I'm stressed out over a current family situation (nobody's hurt or dying, I'm just stressed and it's affecting my sleep or lack of sleep) so that's not helping me at all.

But, hopefully soon thanks to his recommendations on what I need to do, I'll be feeling more like my old self in the next few weeks. I am in dire need of new glasses as well and I'm way overdue for going to the eye doctor, so hopefully that will help too.

I swear though, I'm taking so many pills and supplements just to stay alive it's almost laughable... :doh And I gotta see more doctors, and I have a follow-up on my progress in two months.

I really hope that I can see a difference soon... I need to feel like myself again so I can focus on getting back to the job search.

As I am right now, I'm just... stagnant. The only thing making me feel better is the fact that it is a legit medical problem, and it's not just in my head. I've always been paranoid about doctors not believing me when I'm not feeling well, which the rational part of my brain knows is just anxiety, but the irrational part doesn't know that.

I'm just a mess of normal and happy right now, eh? :XD:


Hopefully soon I'll have a good update, but for now I'm just gonna withdraw for a while again.

My brain is frazzled just trying to concentrate on writing this, so I'll stop here for now.

See y'all soon... hopefully with good news. :peace:
  • Listening to: Air particles
  • Reading: A sandwich
  • Watching: Paper
  • Playing: Fruit salad
  • Eating: Water
  • Drinking: Pie
I'd say everyone is getting tired of my weird status updates at this point, eh? :XD:


Anyways... I just wanted to write out a short update here for now.


First off, thanks again for putting up with my sporadic... stuff? (Brain fog is hitting me right now, how wonderful, eh? Eye Roll ) As in my popping in here randomly on and off. My concentration is just so shitty right now, I'm having days where I feel good enough to come on here and actually be able to focus... then most other days I just can't. Like, I legit can't focus for very long. Every now and then I wonder if I should even stay on here anymore... but there are friends I have on here I don't wanna just drop contact with so I don't want to deactivate and disappear.

... And I just lost focus and stopped typing for an amount of time I can't even remember... :sigh: 

Second off... I'm gonna stop my status updates for a while unless something noteworthy actually happens, if that makes sense? Cuz it's like beating a dead horse right now saying I keep working on clearing my Inbox, then I stop, then like a week later I'm back doing the same thing. It's clearly getting me nowhere. :XD:

... And now I just forgot what I was originally going to say next. T.T (Just about two more weeks till I can see a doctor, I hope after that things can start to improve with me.)

Thirdly, thanks so much again for putting up with me through all of this. This is why I'm just going to take breaks when I need them, and I promise I'll catch up eventually. Right now I just wanna focus on my health and see what I can do to improve, because I want to feel like my normal self again. All of this has really exacerbated my depression and anxiety problems, I'm getting paranoid and anxious about the littlest things (i.e.: making a phone call, asking someone a question, telling someone something... the list goes on) so until I'm feeling more up to it, I'm going to just do what I can handle at the time.

I keep losing my train of thought and I just can't remember what else it was I wanted to say.

As I am right now, dA is just too much for me to handle, and even when I can it's not for very long.

So... long story short, I'll be back full-swing (or just on a more semi-regular basis when I get back into the groove) when I feel more up to it.

That's it really, I just wanted to get this off my chest, despite how hard it's been just to sit down and type something lately.


And I know this is probably a random-ass thing to tack on right now, but I want to anyways cuz it feels good to finally know who I am again. I'm a lesbian. :3 An asexual lesbian to be exact. Just wanted to come out officially again cuz I've been questioning myself for probably way over a year until recently.

So yeah. In conclusion, I'll be back when I can manage to, and I'm a lesbian 

(Becky from Dumbing Of Age is my spirit animal and current mood. Plus, her undercut is AMAZING )


I'm falling asleep trying to finish writing this, so g'night I guess? See y'all around when I can. Little Pixel Heart 



(P.S.: I filled silly things in the spaces above my journal for what I'm doing because I just wanna be able to goof off for a minute.)
  • Listening to: Air particles
  • Reading: A sandwich
  • Watching: Paper
  • Playing: Fruit salad
  • Eating: Water
  • Drinking: Pie
Yeah, original title. ^^; I'm just gonna be updating here every now and then as things progress.

So Monday I saw my new primary care doctor, he was helpful and gave me a regimen to follow regarding the new pill I need to take. He's also asking me to make appointments for a few other things that are in relation to the problem I'm experiencing with a specialist and other things. I'm still not feeling that great and my anxiety is acting up at the thought of seeing this specialist (because reasons I'd rather not discuss publicly), and I'm stressed out over a current family situation (nobody's hurt or dying, I'm just stressed and it's affecting my sleep or lack of sleep) so that's not helping me at all.

But, hopefully soon thanks to his recommendations on what I need to do, I'll be feeling more like my old self in the next few weeks. I am in dire need of new glasses as well and I'm way overdue for going to the eye doctor, so hopefully that will help too.

I swear though, I'm taking so many pills and supplements just to stay alive it's almost laughable... :doh And I gotta see more doctors, and I have a follow-up on my progress in two months.

I really hope that I can see a difference soon... I need to feel like myself again so I can focus on getting back to the job search.

As I am right now, I'm just... stagnant. The only thing making me feel better is the fact that it is a legit medical problem, and it's not just in my head. I've always been paranoid about doctors not believing me when I'm not feeling well, which the rational part of my brain knows is just anxiety, but the irrational part doesn't know that.

I'm just a mess of normal and happy right now, eh? :XD:


Hopefully soon I'll have a good update, but for now I'm just gonna withdraw for a while again.

My brain is frazzled just trying to concentrate on writing this, so I'll stop here for now.

See y'all soon... hopefully with good news. :peace:

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AlchemyFox Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks, Matthew. :3
Oh wow, you must love Vulpix as much or more than I do!
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GreenandnavyblueRae Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the fave
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JocelyneR Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2018
Thank you kindly for the faves, Emiliya!  :iconflyingheartsplz:
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treecko101piplup Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2018
happy b-day
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CocoKanadeChan Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks so much Tree-chan. :huggle:
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Angelinia Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2018   Digital Artist
happy birthday!!  <33
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CocoKanadeChan Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you. :meow:
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gxfan537 Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2018
Happy Birthday! *hugs you* www.deviantart.com/gxfan537/ga…
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CocoKanadeChan Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks so much. ^^
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gxfan537 Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2018
You're welcome 
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