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Cleo the Leo
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Ode to Pain
I scream out to you "How can you stand there And watch me die?" But you just lay still Motionless, not caring But you don't understand This is to you, dear Pain Caused by The delicate blade The dear lighter The pills of poison The sweet, slow, Senuous slice The deep red trickle Flowing down And down The disappearing of My flesh Replaced by blisters And tears That dear warming Sensation The little blue capsules Sliding down my throat Filling me with happiness Filling me with peace ------------------------------ I'm just... I don't know. I don't like this too much, I'll probably delete it
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Burn
"Why'd you do it?" "Because I'm not happy" "But why?" "I don't know" I feel so alone Can anyone hear me I'm screaming to get out But it just sounds like Whispers I'm trapped in a cage Doesn't anyone notice I'm dying to be free But for some reason I keep on Living I want to be happy Why won't that happen I don't know I'm just sick of being Alive
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Pain
The pain I want to forget the most Is the pain I'll always remember
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Unwritten
I want to be happy I'm sick of being alone I'd cry myself to sleep But now I can't even cry I want to trust her Tell her secrets And not worry that they'll Be known by all I hate her I hate it when she Betrays me I want to trust her I want to trust her But know I can't
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Death
I'm falling Into a dark despair There's no way out And even if there was I wouldn't take it I'm going And not coming back I'm leaving I won't turn around Goodbye now I won't see you again I want to die I want to die In so much pain
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Title 72
I can't stand the way you look at me But I always get lost in your eyes I hate you but love it when you say to me "Babe, you'll always be mine" I hear all those lies when you speak to me Yet I fall for every line It's unbearable, the way you touch me Though I can't get you out of my mind
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Repeat
Maybe I could scream "I'm sorry" Until my throat tears. Maybe I could write "I'm sorry" In my arms And bleed until I'm gone. Maybe I could die With a note that says "I'm sorry" For everything wrong I've ever done.
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Sometimes...
While people try to give me the world They have yet to realize That they're taking away The few things that are dear to me
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I Wish I Knew
I wish I knew What to do now Because I've fucked it up So badly My life is At it's crossroads I think I'll Just lie down "I dream of angels But live with demons" The worse demon Being myself I can't get Enough pain To take me away I need more pain I want to sleep Sleep it all away I want to die Rather than live another day
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I Did it Again
I hurt your feelings And disregarding my own I tried to make it up to you I'm not good enough It doesn't seem like I Ever will be I'm sorry I didn't mean it I didn't want to hurt you I tried to make it up to you But that isn't enough I guess it never will be ------------------------------------------------- I don't care anymore I've tried to explain I'm not who you think I am I'm no one special You think that now If you think of me at all I read the original again And now I'm angry at myself I keep trying Or my mom would say "Beating a dead horse to death" I can't get it to you You've lost me I've lost you And th
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Untitled
You make me live like there's no tomorrow to love like you'll be my last opened my eyes and made me see how beautiful this ugly world can sometimes be
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You knew
you felt the pain saw the blood saw the burns you saw me cry felt the tears falling from my eyes there's no coming back no turning around this time i'm going to stand my ground you messed up you're gone for now you made your move you had your chance you knew the pain i would experience
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The life of Me
One more tear, mascara running another day in the life of me one more feeling, one more flutter my heart in your hands shall it lay forever a cold stare and turned back you think you know me so damn well the scars on my arms and stains on my cheeks just mere memories now
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My best friend
Don't say that you're my friend don't say you're suicidal you lying deceiving person you don't even deserve that title you lied, deceived, cheated, betrayed the only place where you belong is down in a grave
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giving up
say good bye fight back the tears pull the trigger no longer here
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Is all lost?
I look out onto the field poppies decorate the bloodstaind ground the battle is over we have won but yet so many have lost we have lost that certain sense of safety the sense of happiness all is lost the bodies are buried the lies are forgotten, but not by all tears still remain fears are still here but, with hope not all is lost i have lost family and friends in this battle and what have i lost them for? who knows? to what was i fighting for? no idea maybe, all is lost
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The children
it was a dark and stormy night and the little girl wanted to play little did she know that today would be her last day her last day to run free and wild wreak havoc throughout the place leaving a mark of utter shock on every single face when they hear the news of her death when they see her mangled body all is lost and hopeless when we live our lives this way letting murderers run rampant with little children down in a grave all is lost without them they are what holds this world in place
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This is all your fault
I look back and remember saying "this sucks, this fucking sucks" the pain in my voice is nauseating the fresh new wounds both inside and out first time i have seen my parents cry not the first time though that i have wished that i would just die i'm sitting on a hospital bed my new roommate my new sister my new family no more sores from the blister no more "i'll never be good enough for you" no more "i'm sorry that i act the way that i do" you can't even put me in this hospital on your own you make me do make me act like i'm grown you're the grownups here try to remember that i shouldn't have to parent you it's the othe
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thinking about the past now
Thinking about the past now of all the pain all the tears all the blood all the damned fears hiding behind long sleeves hiding you all from who i was i was a cutter no one else i loved to feel the pain to see the blood leaving my veins have it running down my arms leading to the source of it all a blade, a mere blade that could cause so much you caused this pain you made me ashamed ashamed of who i was ashamed of who i would never be you say you love me you don't even fucking know the tears i have hidden from you the lies i have told you all so i wouldn't have to disappoint you
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My new life
I come back home from the hospital after 6 long days of hell i come back home to what i thought was my life until everyone just said "oh well" "she's doing it for attention she'll do it again" so i gave them a reason to say that a reason for them to wish me dead my life embarassed them i'm so damn sorry i should have known better than to be different from you perfect people sorry for the pills i have to pop and the nights when i cry myself to sleep when i run the blade up and down my flesh in hopes to wake up from them dream to open my eyes and see a family that cares a family that understands a family that isn't ashamed
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To love and Shakespeare
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Walkway to Nowhere
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There Are Times...
The are times I wish I knew Just what I'd done wrong And if I knew, I'd fix it now Make it new and improved Get done with what passed There are days I wish I could Hear your voice, your laugh See the smile on your face Though it may not hold Any light for me anymore There are moments I curse I am angered by your name Frustrated by your absence I want to break through this The wall you set before me There are stretches these days Where I will say, "Fuck it" For I am lost without reason I dont understand how come And why you are now so cold There are periods I suppose The warmth of my memory It swells around me in waves
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Fishermens Lake
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Magnus.
When you open up my body, You're fingering my heart I'm waking up at night-fall And crawling darkened halls Just to escape you, Magnus, Just to be alone, I'm suffering just for you, And I'm doing it on my own. You lick my flaking lips, Magnus You tickle my torn-up tongue, You've got me in your grip, Magnus I cannot resist anymore. When you open up my body, You linger in my veins, I love you like a lover And yet I hate you more each day because You cut me to the bone, Magnus, You cut me to the bone... All those nights together, Magnus When I'm really on my own.
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Happiness is no piece of cake.
I've got a body, Dying. To get bloody. I've got somebody, Dying. To get lucky. I've got some boy, Trying. To get Lucky I've got some boy, And he's had No luck with me. + My friends want a break from me- I need a break from myself. You can leave, I guess you're lucky, But I can't step outside my body. I hate it so much, I just want to hurt it, Don't want to hurt you, But my body deserves it, It lets me down and gets me down, And I don't think you Get it. I've got a body, It's quite pathetic, It's purple from scars where I Cut, then regret it. (I never meant to tear us apart) I know when I cut, I'm Cutting your hea
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Slipped.
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Obsession 1
I've got guns for fingers Pointing at you, I've got thumbs that are triggers Aching to move, Cupid didn't give me arrows, He gave me bullets instead- And he whispered 'Don't aim for the heart, But rather for the head...'
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winds of change
change we will, these ways of yor. end they will, these times of war. peace and happiness will sail ashore. luv and kindness, we do implore. the feminine shepard, each man must adore. follow her will and open, will doors. with open harts we can lern so much mor. we must hav respect for ourselves and for others. if we stay true to ourselves, we'll never be whores.
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What Do You Want Me to Do?
Please tell me, because I have no fucking clue. Please tell me, that'll be all I ask of you.
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I Want to Forget
This is to the pain The pain I've caused The pain I've inflicted The blood, the blister The cuts, the burns I want to forget the blood Running down my arms Staining my skin I want to forget the pills Dry swallowing Overdosing I want to forget the flesh Burning away from My arms I want to forget But can't bear to Let the memory go
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PunknEra's avatar
You probably haven't bothered to check your page or messages in a long time, but just in case I thought I'd write to let you know that I still pop by once in a while hoping you will be back. I miss you and still have one of your poems in my faves. I hope that whereever you are, you're still writing.
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englishgirl's avatar
cleoooo! you should submit some more stuff.. and note me when you have because i have so many deviations in my inbox and i cant be bothered to go through them XD..

love you x
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GirlOfBrokenDreams's avatar
your work is great keep writing
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foraweorsympathy's avatar
Thanks for the fav!
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Lailonn's avatar
thanks for fav ! ^^
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lumorra's avatar
thx u kindly for the fav
unfortunately that pic is gonna be moved to scarps-it has a lot of mistakes...

but i realy apreciate the gesture
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PIRATE-WHORE's avatar
Thanks for the fave!
I have been reading through some of your work and I think its absolutely fab!
Some really great stuff there!
Keep it up!
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