Well, it's been a long while. A full year has now passed from the first hardship and things have only slipped little by little all the while.
Financial hardships are tricky to navigate, but one always hopes they'll bounce back. Sometimes you don't.
Not that it's a bad thing, mind. If you go without for long enough, you become rather ingenuitive. Smarter. Better for it, really, in many ways.
You learn what you can do without. You learn what you can take, what you can do, how to make something work when you haven't the proper resources or tools.
It's really a good thing when you boil it down.
A pain in the ass all the same.
So for a year, I've fought headlong, as I tend to do, tooth and nail, spitting and clawing and swearing. Trying. Succeeding. Just not at having any real cash flow.
A full year, and I have less to show for it.
I've been in the city for... 7 years? Almost 8? Not bad, but the rent will eat you alive. It was affordable when I got here, and I'm making way, WAY more money that I was then.
And hell, I've been in a full time management position for almost 5 years now. I love the job. I love the people I work with, hell, I'm good at it! I'm a talker, and that's what you need in retail!
Anyways, it's time to move on. I've been too far removed from family and friends for too long, and getting a little closer to home gets me much cheaper housing.
A good friend has a job, so I figured... after much badgering, I'll take it. In a month's time I'll be out of the jungle here and, well, into the woods I suppose. Should be fun. Should be. But I've been doing this for so long, working alone, living alone... This... isn't like taking a step backward really. It's like something totally foreign. Something I've never done before. Obviously it IS something I've done before, but it's been a long time.
It's for the better, I know that. I know because I'm a rational person.
But something, something in my brain, way down deep, way at the back. Something back there is nagging at me.
I'm not quite sure what it is...