absolutely great... Lydia isn't here and i'm sitting alone with Seb. ugh, i hate being alone... great.
hasn't been good for me lately...
1. I've been sick for the past 4 days and my parents don't give a fuck even though it's so bad that it feels like shattered glass in my throat
2. I lost a good friend of mine and i doubt that i'll get her back
3. i have SO MUCH HOMEWORK! like, oh god, i can't even explain it. HOMEWORK:
chapter 11 in the fault in our stars
complete the math homework for week 7ish
Viola: practice for comp and exams
4. i had an anxiety attack yesterday and i have barley recovered.
5. I can't use my headphones to calm myslef because they're fucking busted.
6. the junior school coordinator pulled me up at lunch yesterday to see how i was going with the bulling.
7. Nathan and Jhya's suicidal jokes are getting worse and now are making homophobic jokes
8. cat got hit by a car yesterday and got a bruised leg. He seems to be fine though, just this morning he was chasing Carla around the house.
9. shit subjects...
10. i don't feel like talking to anyone
11. i feel like punching someone in the face... um, i get like that a lot when anxiety has kicked in. not so much depression... all i do when that is at it's worse is scream, slam the door on my sister, cry for about 3 hours and then stare at the knife for 5 minutes and force myself to ignore it.
well... shit has happened and i'm struggling with a fear of mine right now. yeah, that's right. I have a fear of being alone. nugh... where's your best friend when you need her?