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oh wow, today was really embarrassing...

so, i had to get up early for strings rehearsal as usual... don't yell at me, but i hanged my instrument on a stand and i was sitting next to a year 7. We were in the drama space, so the noise was bouncing off walls and yeah... anyway, this year 7 kid next to me knocked my viola and made a huge crash sound. Aaaaand all the strings band was staring at us. I got about 8 or something chips in my viola, fuck. The poor girl next to me, she was so so so sorry xD she was so embarrassed and scared. I kept telling her "it's fine it's fine, don't worry" but she couldn't get over it. then her sheet music was all wrong. 'Cause year 7's always have fingering drawn at the top of the note. So we both kept playing the wrong note. 

Then i tripped over the string conductor's dog.(yes, she brought her dog to the rehearsal) aaaand then after i accidental kicked someone's double bass... ITS THERE GOD DAMN FAULT FOR LEAVING IT ON THE GROUND!

Then we had French... it was kinda awkward 'cause usually i am the upset one about to break into tears every 3 minutes. Pretty much everyone apart from me seemed upset. like wtf? what happened? suddenly i am the happy one and everyone else is looking like they're gonna jump of a cliff. IDK. Anyway... The french teacher makes you say a sentence in French before you are allowed to actually go in to class. I said "c'est le bra" which is "it is the arm". Yes, i know it's weird. It sounds like your saying actual bra. the friken teacher must be def or something 'cause i had to repeat it over 8 times and it was just... really awkward. During the class i was trying to write "foot ball shirt" i turned to Tallsilly and said "how do you spell ball?"  MADDY WHAT THE HELL?! IT'S BALL; IT WAS ONE OF THE FIRST WORDS YOU LEARNT! LIKE WHAAAAAT. I am laughing about it right now.

Oh, and we had this talk about suicidal comments... thank you Niamh for talking to the teacher about it, It really means a lot. So... recently my school has been making a lot of "kill yourself" jokes... come on... really? there are others in your class that still have the feeling to actually do that. And even if it's a joke, it's really upsetting. Aparently kids were making a joke about it on the bus.

kid1: oh, go kill yourself
kid2: yeah mate, i'll go cut myself and drink bleach when i get home

fucking hell... it actually REALLY upsets me. I do get the nerve to just end myself sometimes, and that's actually quite often and usually the time when bae is asleep... so i'm kinda left alone. but i'm still trying, and i am not giving up. As for the cutting... the whole way through the speech i was running my nails on my wrist trying to stay calm. I didn't have a hair tie and besides... most of my class know i have cut before. So if they saw me using a hair tie, they'd be concerned.

Then at break i was hanging out with the usual group (they're all boys btw... i don't really like hanging out with other girls for some reason. I just seem to get along better with boys). Connor wouldn't leave me alone.. he was being really annoying by singing. Which honestly, his voice is actually really sweet and nice when he's actually trying.... but when he's not there's a voice break every 5 seconds. soooo i slapped him in the face. I slapped him a lot harder than i thought i would... uh, whoops XD Adam for some stupid reason keeps singing "love is in the air" whenever i am around Jensen or Connor. It's really fucking annoying.

GOOD NEWS:
Something i am actually really happy about... I did have music today. Lydia and I are playing photograph for our live composition. We sounded really good! even though you could hear shay who is better than me by a long shot... but apparently, i nearly made Lydia cry and i had about  3 compliments from class mates, so i guess that was nice. but yeah, i'm happy about that

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Eve-The-Emoji-Domo Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2016
i understand the shitty day thing... I don't think I've told you what happened.. hm
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city-galaxies Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeah... lydia told me ...
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Eve-The-Emoji-Domo Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2016
it wasn't that that was making me actually want to die yesterday. It was something concerning my mother
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city-galaxies Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
okay? My mother was in hospital yesterday for an MS checkup. was it something like that?
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Eve-The-Emoji-Domo Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2016
my mother said something completely unacceptable about me.
She yelled for no reason 
then when I asked her why she was yelling at me
she called me a skank
and told me to "cover up"
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city-galaxies Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i understand... Eve you're amazing
you have everything i don't have, that i'd like to.
Shit happens dear, and it's only gonna get worse. 
Eve, you're beautiful and SO talented, if your mother can't accept that,
then she's the unacceptable one. I know she's your mother... but sometimes
you have to ignore what they say. 
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Eve-The-Emoji-Domo Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2016
mm
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city-galaxies Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You don't believe me, don't you?
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5KarmaKitty7 Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww, shit days suck. :( But hey, at least you can get to the next one.

About the suicide thing, that's never happened at my school. And I hope it never does because the only people who know I cut at my school are my best friends who cut too. So we'd be looking at each other the whole time and it would be a mess of emotions. Just sharing my opinion.

PS kids never tell someone to kill themselves. It's fucking rude.
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city-galaxies Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
yeah, but apparently the kids at my school find it funny... i hate 'em
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5KarmaKitty7 Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I've never met them, and I hate them. Seriously, what's funny about telling people to kill themselves? Do they enjoy death? How would they like to die?
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6tails6 Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2016  Professional Writer
Jeez. Your day sounds crazy.



And about the kill yourself jokes...yeah I'll admit I am kinda guilty about that(fake like we snap out necks. Say the window is the exit). As well. Yeah. Sorry m8
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city-galaxies Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
it's fine. It just makes me upset when people talk about it
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6tails6 Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2016  Professional Writer
That's understandable. It depends with me tbh
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