Sorry I haven't submitted any art lately. I'm working on a gift for a special someone.
Anyway, I just noticed something. I'm quite proud of myself for this, but I just noticed I am dying on the inside and I still wish that I was dead, but I am still able to smile for the ones I love. That's a good thing right? I mean, people at school haven't even noticed I have depression. Sebastian said to me the other day "I don't think you have depression, depression is a real illness but you can smile and laugh." Yeah, I have been better lately, I am more happy with my life, I have a boyfriend and he makes me so happy, I just wish we were closer and not halfway around the fucking world. But, Seb is right, I have changed and I a lot less depressed than what I used to be about a 2 months ago. I am so happy I have someone to actually love me. I have stopped attempting to self harm and I am crying a lot less. I still get days when I think that I have no reason in life, and even then Rob was able to make me happy. Speaking of which, we've been together for a month now, with no real arguments or anything. One month may not seem like a lot, but it still means a lot to me. Even better, apparently I have helped him with his depression as well. I hope I have.
Okay, goodnight DA