I'm terribly sorry I am never online here. I want to post more drawings and everything because I enjoy drawing and I love the community on DA, but I am struggling with everything else in my life so i just want to lie things down so i can keep you updated and I only hope you lovely folks understand.
First of all, My dog was diagnosed with lung cancer late in December last year (2017). He has grown up with me since i was 3 and he is a huge part of my life, hes technically my brother with fuzz. He's that close to me. It's effecting me seeing him limp every time he takes a step and he has lung issues that often result to A LOT of coughing. We don't want to put him down because although he is ill, he still looks happy being around us. but i cant bare to see my boy struggle.
Secondly, three family members of mine are dying. My uncle has been diagnosed with MND (motor neuron disease) and is in a wheal chair and can barely talk. i hate being near him because when i sit next to him all i can think about is how he is dying right besides me and it hurts so badly. He has been given around 2 years to live and my auntie and cousins are barely surviving through it. Sometimes I'll play fortnite with my cousins and on the other side of the microphone i hear crying over him. They are bankrupt and are currently living on Australian welfare. They cannot use their car because they have no money and my cousins are starving because there is no food for them. My Auntie has already been diagnosed with depression and she is suffering more than i am. Then there is my Mum who 7ish years ago was diagnosed with MS (multiple sclerosis). Multiple sclerosis doesn't kill, but it kills specific functions in the body. My mum can't hold glasses anymore and she is almost always falling asleep at the wheel of the car. My nan had a stroke in the car with my other nan the other day and she was having a seizure. she was not taken to the hospital but she is struggling to do the things she could before and it makes me so sad.
Last, I'm having issues with my boyfriend. I would have broken up with him months ago... everyone tells me to leave him but i can't. I have abandonment issues... I am so bloody attached to him that I am too afraid to let him go. He is so depressed and struggles with things and he puts all of it on me. He keeps taking my money and asking me to do things i don't really want to do for him, but i do anyways because i love him.
so i will be posting a lot less often than i used to- I will be opening emergency commissions to raise money for my Uncle and his family so they can have some money for food and necessary medical items for my uncle. so when i do post that journal, I will be working hard amd i would appreciate if you could spread the word. you're their best shot. The Australian Government is not paying them the living standards.
thank you for understanding