I'm haunted by thoughts of What we once shared What was lost What can never be again What I should of done What I should of said I'm haunted by thoughts Of what did happened What should of never been By what will forever torment me
I'm haunted by images Of kisses once shared Embraces freely gave Smiles in the candle light Endless hours of love making Laying safe in your strong arms The warmth of your naked body next to mine The sent of you, after a shower The taste of your flesh, as my tongue explored The silkiness of your hair 'tween my fingers Im haunted by images of who you were
I'm haunted by our last fight It seems so silly now How I wish that I wasn't so stubborn And I would of listened But no I knew I was right and You were wrong, oh so wrong Im haunted by that one mistake That was made in a rage of anger How was I to know what fate Had in store for us How that night would forever Change us
The rain began to pour The lightening streaked across The pitch black night sky The thunder boomed louder As the seconds turned into minutes Voices raised in such a fury Tempers flared, boarding on out of control Angry words slashed deep One verbal assault after another
Tears sting my cheeks as if someone Had smacked me hard across the face You beg me to listen to what your saying But all I can think of is How could you of done that to me Didn't you love me, didn't you care I wanted to make you hurt Hurt as much as I did Feeling as if my heart was being Ripped from my chest I couldn't take any more I couldn't stand and listen to this
I turn away from you And thats when it all went from bad to worse I seen it gleaming every time The lightening would streak across the sky I had known it was there all along I knew it was loaded I knew how to use, that you insisted upon For my own safety you had said You never would of guessed It would lead to your own demise
I don't remember walking over to the dresser I don't remember picking it up I dont remember turning and aiming it at you I don't remember pulling the trigger I don't remember the noise of the shot I don't remember you falling to the ground
But I do remember that look I remember that desperate Look on your face I remember looking down at you I remember seeing you on the floor Surrounded in red, so much red Then it hit me, it was your blood, I had shot you As I stood there time seemly stood still Your words distorted, your movements so slow All except the blood, it was everywhere and The stench of gun powder hung heavy in the air
Falling to my knees, a sob escapes my throat My hands are shaking, my ears are ringing Thinking this must be a nightmare This can't be happening, I couldn't of done this I wouldn't of done this, I love you too much It was just a little fight, we always work them out What went so horribly wrong this time? What made me snap? What made me go over the edge? What?
The feel of cold steel against my wrists Brings reality crashing back They load you and race off into the night While I am seated in the back of patrol car Thinking why I am here? What have I done? What did I do? What did I do? Tears are streaming down my face Yet, I make no sound I just stare straight ahead Into the black night... I can't remember what happened next
Until they tell me your gone, they was Too much damage There was nothing the could do, It was too late Too much blood was lost You didn't make it through the night They say you never had a chance I cant believe what Im hearing, This can't be true, it can't be true They tell me, Im facing charges And it dont look good It looks bad, very bad
My day in court comes and goes The lawyer wasn't much help, nor was I I just kept saying I can't believe I did it, I didn't mean to, I was mad because You cheated, I didn't want to kill you I just wanted you to hurt. like I did I wanted you to hurt so bad So you'd never do it again I didn't mean to kill you, I didn't mean to
The judge said he didnt think I was sorry He said I wanted to do so much more then hurt you Said I wanted to kill you, thats why I watched While you laid there bleeding, doing nothing Nothing but watching the puddle of blood get bigger and bigger and bigger He said he'd seen it before and I wasn't Getting away with it Those are the last words I remember hearing Standing in the court room I don't remember anything after that
Next thing I know, Im here in This cold jail cell, all alone, so very alone Holding on the bars, holding on so very tightly Holding on wondering how...wondering how Things got so carried away, how I ended up here? Wondering why you had to die? Wondering how it all ended this way... Haunted by the memories of what once was By what will never be again... Haunted by memories of us... Haunted by that night, haunted Haunted by images of you.