Cibbwin

Not meant to be a strife...

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This World

Most days I think the world Just isn't ready For me And who I am And I've accepted That even at My happiest I am lonely Within my head Only sometimes Does it really sadden Like now Come on, world Hurry up And understand me The next time I see my loved ones Or feel joy I don't want it tempered Or restrained Let it gush out Like a river breaking through a dam Like I just don't give a damn About appearing calm and collected About needing to be respected The next time I want to Say something Instead of furrowing And shrinking I'll let it rage out Like I don't care about who I'll hurt Like I'll scream at the sky and rip my shirt And I'll l

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Neverland by Racketeered, literature

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Neverland

Sometimes I think I'm meant to be alone in this world, close to few and intimate with none. Everyday I lose a little more faith in humanity, and little by little, my hope for the future dwindles. I used to believe in heroes and fairy tales, but no amount of Peter Pan magic could save me from the truth. The villain always triumphs and the pixie dust only blinds; people like me are destined to become old and die miserably. I've fallen in love with strangers who barely know my name, I give everything to them, then watch as they walk away. It's easier to love someone when you can color in their lines, see them as you please, forget th

Thunderstorms by Racketeered, literature

Ten easy steps. by Racketeered, literature

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Ten easy steps.

1. Tell yourself that you deserve better. You won't believe it for a second, but you need to start somewhere, and every little bit helps. Progress is progress, after all. 2. Listen to every song about loss and heartbreak and self-pity until you're able to laugh about how silly they all are. Therapists call this habitualization; I call it my way to find humor in self-destruction. 3. Admit to the people you care about that you're not feeling like yourself, and cut out the ones who can't find a few minutes to show a little concern. 4. Love the people who love who you are. 5. Don't forget to give yourself a little more credit, and don't be as

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A Retrospective by Cibbwin, literature

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A Retrospective

I will best remember my youth as too much fast food, piles of bills and tickets, and uncertainty over who (let alone how) to worship. I will best remember my parents as incredible blessings, embarrassing messes, how I remained afloat, and quite possibly insane. I will not remember you except in those moments I'd rather not admit: when mere mention of your name (never mind how many men share it) will cause my head to snap up and my ears to flex and my heart to sink. I will not remember you except on my birthday, and yours. I will not remember you except if I ever get married or adopt a child or visit France or die.

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The Big Things by Cibbwin, literature

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The Big Things

Excuse me for placing stock in joy And believing certain things Hoarding abandoned hopes and dreams Forgotten wishes and silver rings So what if I plan my own epiphanies and revelations? Sometimes fate is a disappointment Sometimes chance leaves one wanting more And I'd rather save myself the regret If my output Really is all the same to you Just hold your tongue, then! 'Coz I'm gonna keep doing what I do I can't really deal with the big things My mind won't wrap around them But I'm good with the little moments That don't seem to mean all that much When they add up They define who we are I'm no good with building alternate r

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How My Heart Behaves by Cibbwin, visual art

How My Heart Behaves

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About Cibbwin

Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Aug 25, 1987
United States
Deviant for 19 years
www.facebook.com/robert.zador
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My Bio

Hello everyone! My name is Andy. I'm 25 years old and living in Southern California. I'm a halfway decent poetry/"lyrics" composer and occasional short story teller. In no real order, I am also: a music geek, a roleplay addict, constantly scribbling, obsessed with history, languages and geography, an avid reader, Hungarian and Austrian, a neo-pagan who reveres Athena, happily gay, perpetually exhausted, very friendly, fascinated by desolate landscapes, often drinking, always dramatic and ridiculous (thanks to the Hungarian blood), the biggest feminist you'll ever meet, and hopefully one of the more interesting people who could enter your life.

Favourite Movies

The Lord of the Rings, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, Dancer in the Dark, Amélie, The Sound of Music

Favourite TV Shows

Star Trek: The Next Generation, Legend of the Seeker, It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia, Make It or Break It, The Simpsons

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Björk, Kate Bush, Animal Collective, Goldfrapp, Tori Amos, PJ Harvey, Enya, Kylie Minogue, Utada Hikaru, Loreena McKennitt

Favourite Books

The Silmarillion, His Dark Materials, Harry Potter, Starlight & Shadows, Songs & Swords

Favourite Writers

J.R.R. Tolkien, Emily Dickinson, Philip Pullman, Ed Greenwood, Wisława Szymborska

Favourite Games

EverQuest, Dungeons & Dragons, Lords of Magic, Baldur's Gate, Scrabble

Favourite Gaming Platform

Computer or nothing, baby!

Tools of the Trade

Interaction. Human action, emotion and thought is my muse.

Other Interests

Just about anything!

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Cibbwin

Feb 26, 2013

The Great Purge

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With the optional name change dA now offers, and the fact that I've been so inactive for the past two plus years (and desperately want to get reinvigorated by this damn website), I decided I needed to go through my watch list, brutally, and prune the fuck out of y'all. I went from watching 133 deviants to 98, and I feel so guilty somehow... That's only step one of my organization process. I still have to tackle some 3500+ deviations in my inbox and my own gallery, ohfuckkillmenow. If we were mutual watchers and you're wondering why I threw you to the wayside, note me and we'll talk about it. :) Edit: ALSO, if you watch any really amazing

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Cibbwin

Feb 15, 2013

Where Do I Start?!

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How in the hell do I have 352 deviations? How am I supposed to go through all that and viciously prune and organize 'til I'm satisfied? If I didn't actually care about page views and favorites and comments especially (and anyone who says they don't is a pretentious fuck), I'd delete everything and just make myself a new page. I'd title it "Róisín-the-Best" and just write with her inner voice as my guide. Holy shit, that sounds like a good idea... Ugh. I probably only like about 40-50 of these deviations. This is SO not a new anxiety, too. I thought this kind of whiny self-important bullshit only came to me at 3 A.M.! XD LUV U ALL K BAI

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Cibbwin

Oct 26, 2012

:3

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OHAI FOLKS. I still have watchers. That's pretty nifty. WHO WANTS TO BE FACEBOOK FRIENDS?! (Or Tumblr, AIM, etc.) I love you all. <3

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happy birthday!

Happy Birthday Andy!

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RiseandBe

May 14, 2013

Welcome to #PoeticalCondition!
We are happy to include you as one of our members and look forward to your contributions.
We hope to see you as an active part of our humble group.

Your Founder, RiseandBe

Racketeered

Apr 21, 2013

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