So I've pretty much disappeared without an explanation, drip-feeding some time on here into the forums but not much else on the artistic front. Totally out of character for me whose been persistently active on here since I began. But then again out of character probably describes how I feel. Not necessarily in a "bad" way, but in a way that I feel like my priorities and personality are changing after some realizations about many things this year. In some ways it's been a good thing, I feel myself actually having a desire to start doing a little more than sit in front of a computer all day. Wanting friends, company and activity in my life more now when before I didn't really care either way (not to say that days off where I'm at home alone aren't still a blessing) but because those are getting rarer I haven't really been able to invest as much time into making new art anymore (It's one of those things I hate doing when there's other people around, and goddammit it's always
a full house here
) That combined with reworking my garden over the past year taking up most of my free time (almost done now, that'll free up time when finished) and trying to at least get some sort of social life started up again (pfft, again
- implying I had one to begin with) means until I've found a new routine where I can get all these things slotted into place and balanced with each other, some are going to suffer in favour of others. My art had to be the thing I sacrificed for the time being, mainly because that is going to be the easiest thing to pick back up again once I get my shit sorted and unlike my other activities, there's no time-frame I have to do that in, it's the only thing I can still do at 2 in the morning and I am still chipping away at some new pieces. But it's taking a back seat while I'm figuring out everything else in an attempt to live a happier lifestyle. Because before, and in the past few years I wasn't really happy - that's why the art dried up. When I'm not happy, I don't draw. I'm trying to change that.
And what better way to pump some fun into my life and some creative inspirations into my mind than buying Nintendo's latest console - the Switch (oh now
the journal titles makes sense
) Look how happy I am, like a kid on Christmas morning!
When real life continues to be disappointing and uneventful, Nintendo steps in to fill the void. That's one of the few things that hasn't
changed for me after all these years. I kinda stopped with the games along with my art for a while there. I now need to get everything else wrapped up so I can start up again in both and remind myself of the simple things that brought me joy. Maybe once I'm happier again I'll be more motivated to create again.