Wow wow I'm 30 now
I've been having mixed feelings about it for months, on one hand I feel pretty bummed out that my 20's are over forever now which seems to be the only age demographic the world still considers fun and cool. On the other hand it has given me a little kick in the bum when it comes to trying to motivate myself to actually be
be more fun and cool, since I spent a lot of the past ten years tirelessly working away on my hobbies, most noticeably my art. It's paid off in many ways and kept me busy during a time I didn't really have much else going on, and I definitely want to keep at it. Yet I want to start living a little more in between. I started this weekend actually and went clubbing for the first time with some trusted friends from work. In the course of just a few hours I went from shy and feeling out of place to dancing on a raised platform shirtless, and no - I wasn't on anything, unless you count the esteem boost from getting compliments from multiple people in a night as a drug
I really needed that, to feel sexy at an age where many men start to turn a little bleh
. I could easily do more of this
Also bought this totally sick new jacket for myself, arrived in the mail just in time!
Plus I got some nice gifts from my family and got to spend some time with everyone who matters to me. It really took the sting out of getting a little older and now that all the excitement is over I can finish off my annual birthday-landscape piece I started, even if it means being a few days late - it's justified this time, I actually did fun stuff
Here's hoping I can do in my 30's what I was too afraid or just under-resourced to do in my 20's - live a little, find out who I really am and what I really want out of life. Some things never change though - I'm still pretty invested in deviantART, the one place I felt like I could always be myself from the very beginning, now I want to try and transcend that feeling into my personal life. Who knows, my experiences might even inspire some new art ideas.