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Check out Lacrimas Profundere's new video "And God's Ocean"...…

It's been a while since I have heard such a powerful song, with so many emotions.

I hope you have someone who holds your hand while you listen to that song.
Unfortunately - I don't have.
~Christina Death

Lacrimas Profundere - And God's Ocean

Watch me fall against my will
Holding my last breath of life
(Suffocated by divine)
Watch me fall against my will
Losing my last drop of blood
(You buried deep inside your mind)

I try to kill you with your poison love
Falling in darkness
Hope you try to kill me
And poison my heart
Drowning in darkness

Watch you fall against your will
Spilling blood of Christ through love
(Crucify me with your smile)
Watch you fall against your will
Losing sight of life and god
(Crawling blind towards the light)

I try to kill you with your poison love
Falling in darkness
Hope you try to kill me
And poison my heart
Drowning in darkness
  • Listening to: Lacrimas Profundere - And God's Ocean
  • Reading: Sergej Lukianenko
  • Watching: the darkness in myself
  • Playing: with my thoughts
  • Eating: my feelings
  • Drinking: my soul model:

Solemnity - Lords of the Damned…

Uuuh! ;)
It's the teaser for the  upcoming Solemnity live-DVD (it will be published probably this Autum).

What do you think?
  • Listening to: Solemnity - Lords of the Damned
  • Reading: James Patterson - When the wind blows
  • Watching: a pretty man... ;)
  • Playing: with html
  • Eating: chocolate cookies
  • Drinking: blood
  • Listening to: Solemnity - Black Horizon
  • Reading: Kafka - die Verwandlung
  • Drinking: blood

Well, some of you may know that the WGT festival in Leipzig, Germany takes place this weekend.

>>> And I will be there, wheeeeeee!!!!!! :D

See you next week! I guess I will upload A LOT of photos! ^^

~Christina Death
  • Listening to: Faderhead - Dirtygirls Dirtybois
  • Reading: Sergei Lukyanenko - Night Watch
  • Playing: with my nerves
  • Eating: can't eat
  • Drinking: blood
Taken from :iconsentientshadoe:.
Lets see what I am. ;)
Oh, and I just have to comment some things!

•[ ]You go/have gone tanning. (lol, me!)
•[x]You own an iPod/mp3 player.
•[ ]You love Starbucks.
•[ ]You have been called a brat.
•[ ]You have tons of shoes.
•[ ]You hate buying things that are on sale.
•[ ]You have a laptop.
•[x]You love shopping. (but only in shops I like: XtraX, Aderlass, Borderline...)

•[x]Black is one of your favorite colors.
•[x]You wear chains.
•[x]You like heavy metal. (but that has nothing to do with being a goth...)
•[x]You've shopped at The Crypt/Gallery Serpentine... (I hope XtraX does also count; it's the biggest Goth store in Germany ;))
•[x]You have worn black lipstick. (sure!!)
•[x]You have/had/or wanted piercings. (I wanted a lip piercing, but not anymore)
•[x]You own a pair of Tripp pants (I guess Tripp is the same as ADERLASS in Germany, so I say "yes"; I don't import goth clothes from USA... don't remember who said it but: "Gothic in the USA is a trend. In Germany it is like a religion. I agree. :))
•[x]You have at least one unnaturally colored haired friend.

•[ ]You can skateboard.
•[ ]You like plaid.
•[ ]You have/love Converse.
•[ ]You hate MTV.
•[x]You have/had/wanted blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair. (wanted purple, but... now, I don't want to color them!)
•[ ]You love mohawks (what?!)
•[x]You LOVE Music. (sure!!)
•[x]Hate people who pretend to be something they are not (oh yes!!!)

•[x]You are depressed sometimes. (yes, but only for some special reason...)
•[ ]You have dark colored thick-rimmed glasses. (only dark colored thin-rimmed glasses because I need them. ;))
•[x]You cry easily. (depends on my mood! I am not always depressed!!!!!)
•[ ]You like emo music. (question: what exactly IS emo music?)
•[x]You've kept a journal/diary.
•[x]You have written a sad poem. (I only write poems when I'm sad. thank God it's not that often!
•[ ]You have dyed your hair
•[ ]You're sad when you're drunk. (I don't drink!)

•GHETTO:• (-> F*ck you, suckers, I HATE those "big bad ghetto freaks...)
•[ ]You like rap.
•[ ]You have said "Fo Sho, Fo Shizzle, Fo Sheezy, etc."
•[ ]You have worn/wanted a grill.
•[ ]You have had a freestyling contest.
•[ ]You have worn your shoes with the tongue flipped out.
•[ ]You've said the N word to a black person and didn't get punched
•[ ]You know most of the lines from Boyz N Da Hood
•[ ]You own a huge gold chain with a giant gold pendant

•[ ]You like loud music.
•[ ]You love/like the Ninja Turtles.
•[ ]You have/had slip-on shoes.
•[ ]You like Norma Jean.
•[x]People have called you a freak and meant it lovingly (I really am! :D)
•[ ]You love to "hardcore" dance
•[ ]Your hair has been dyed more than one color.
•[ ]You wear jeans a lot.

• PREP: (girl version) (btw, what is "prep"?)
•[ ]You LOVE The OC. (the what?!)
•[ ]You had/have/want a tiny/small sized dog.
•[ ]Your usual outfits consist of pink.
•[ ]You like buying shoes A LOT.
•[ ]You say "awesome" at least once a day.
•[ ]You shop at Hollister.AE,and/or Abercrombie
•[ ]Getting your nails done is a fun thing.
•[x]You had/have big sunglasses. (yes, thanks to :iconlordblasto: !!! :hug: )
•[x]You can't go anywhere without your hair perfect. (I don't want to look like... well.)

PREP: guy version
•[ ]You have been mistaken for somebody named Abercromie or Fitch
•[ ]You have a large hairy, slobbering, purebred dog
•[ ]Half your wardrobe is LaCoste and chinos.
•[ ]You own two pairs of socks.
•[ ]You got your first beamer at age 16.
•[ ]You pretend that you are a metalhead or rapper on the weekends.
•[ ]You have box seats but don't play.
•[ ]Nantucket
•[ ]You inherited your tee time.

•[ ]You watch the Superbowl.
•[x]You own track shoes or cleats or other sports related shoes. (only because I needed them at school)
•[ ]You collect jerseys.
•[ ]You have/ had special shelf for trophies and awards.
•[ ]Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment.
•[ ]You belong/belonged to a team.
•[ ]You have a specific number preferred for your jersey.

•SCENE:• (chick version..) ..real guys don't do scene!
•[ ]You like putting little bows in your hair
•[x]You have mini-skirts (sure!)
•[ ]You have parted your hair to the side.
•[ ]You think polka-dots are way cute.
•[ ]You have done a peace sign while you pose for a picture.
•[ ]You've been called scene before.
•[ ]You have dyed your hair a bright, neon color
•[ ]You wear/wore long, colorful socks with your skirts/shorts

•[ ]Gone four wheeling.
•[ ]Went hunting.
•[ ]Owned a four/three-wheeler or dirt bike...ect.
•[ ]Like to go fishing.
•[ ]Eat beef jerky
•[ ]Ever said GIT-R-DONE.
•[ ]Listened to the song Redneck Woman.
•[ ]Know who Bocephus is.

•[x]You wear band shirts alot. (but only The 69 Eyes & HIM)
•[ ]If people down talk metal you down talk their favorite music.
•[ ]You like bands like As I Lay Dying, Lamb Of God, and All That Remains.
•[ ]You HATE emos.
•[x]You love Black Sabbath. (Oh yes!)
•[ ]You have gone to Ozzfest.
•[ ]You like to headbang. (I guess this would look cool with my long hair, but no...)
•[x]You don't like rap.
•[x]You have a taste for classic rock as well.

I knew it! I am an emo-goth! :D
Or perhaps a metal-emo-goth or whatever.
  • Listening to: Apocalyptica - Epilogue
  • Reading: Sergei Lukyanenko - Night Watch
  • Playing: with my nerves
  • Eating: can't eat
there's nothing more to say...
My poems fade as flows of time
Tear apart my withered state
The written words no longer rhyme
A broken soul, the paper torn

Letters that once made up words
Don`t have a meaning anymore
Carried away by nighttime birds
A blank page left to die

The songs I wrote fade with the wind
As the wheel of ages turns
The muses once upon me grinned
But now they speak no more

Notes that made up melodies
Distort into disharmony
Like a ghost that swiftly flees
And vanishes as daybreak comes

L'Âme Immortelle - Disharmony

that's what I feel right now... *disappears in the night*
  • Listening to: L'Âme Immortelle - Disharmony
  • Reading: Sergei Lukyanenko - Night Watch
  • Playing: with my nerves
  • Eating: can't eat
Yeah, more than 6,000 people had a look at my page! :D
Thanks guys!
I'm so proud! *snif*

A special thanks to :iconleviathanangel: who was the first with his congrats! Even before I reached the 6,000... :XD:

Btw: on Saturday I will do another DJ job. So come to the greatest gothic event Black Evening to see DJane Spooky! *harr*

Keep on Gothing ;)
~Spooky aka ChristinaDeath
  • Listening to: Reaper - She's a Devil & a whore
  • Reading: Marion Zimmer Bradley - Priestess of Avalon
  • Playing: Neopets
  • Drinking: still water
A very big THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to


for this beautiful manipulation he did on one of my pictures:…

Wow! Thank you very much!!

I also want to mention :iconlordblasto: who did many manips with my pictures as well, e.g. this one:…

Thank you so much my friends!!!
  • Listening to: Tarja Turunen - My winter storm
  • Reading: Freda Warrington - Dracula the Undead
  • Playing: Neopets
  • Drinking: still water

As you may have noticed I am back from the festival:

AND IT WAS GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :heart:

I met the 69 Eyes and shook their hands... :faint:
I talked to them about my comic, showed it and they were fascinated. Jussi69 said: "Wow... we don't let anyone take photos of us anymore, we let you draw!!" :faint:

I wished I could upload some photos, but first I want to finish my Vampire Love Story:…

~Christina Death :blackrose:

Greetings! :aww:

This weekend I will be at the Mera Luna festival in Hildesheim, Germany. I guess I will come back Monday or Tuesday evening.

Have a good time! :)

~Christina Death
  • Listening to: The 69 Eyes - Radical
  • Reading: Margaret Mitchell - Gone with the Wind
  • Playing: Neopets
  • Drinking: still water
...or not. :D

FIRST 10 PEOPLE TO REPLY TO THIS JOURNAL (and mention this little thing) GET FEATURED ON HERE (a.k.a. I'll dive into your gallery and choose three of your best deviations and post them up here)
You gotta do the same thing in your journal though! Meaning, you must continue this game

1. :iconjujibla:…
2. :iconw01f3:…
3. :iconlordblasto:… really must have a look at his gallery! :blackrose: )
4. ~
5. ~
6. ~
7. ~
8. ~
9. ~
  • Listening to: Soko Friedhof
  • Reading: these lines
  • Playing: Neopets
  • Drinking: still water
  • Listening to: Agonoize!!!!!!!!!!
  • Reading: my presentiation about Feng Shui...
  • Playing: Neopets
  • Eating: cherry cake
  • Drinking: still water
Yeah!!!!! Yesterday I had my third photo shooting with one of my favorite photographers! :aww: My best friend Alexander and I were the models again; topic was Gothic Fashion & Psycho... :devilish:

But before I'm going to upload the new pics I want to present my
:blackrose: Vampire Love Story :blackrose:

I hope you will enjoy pictures and story...

Next photo shootings to come:

+ Second Part of the Vampire Shooting (no date yet)
+ Fetish/ SM (no date yet)

Last Saturday I had a great photo shooting together with 6 other models and 4 photographers. It was wonderful, we had lots of fun and many beautiful pics were shot! I will get them within this week... :aww:

It was a Gothic shooting (of course!), with many elements from romantic elegance to fetish. Well, you'll see soon. :D

I also thought about two new shootings (I am addicted, yes...):
+ Vampires
+ Fetish/SM
Together with one of my best friends. Lets see...

  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: these lines
  • Watching: my computer
  • Playing: with the keyboard
  • Eating: paper
  • Drinking: air
The Rules Are As Follows
1. Thou shalt put your music player on shuffle.
2. Thou shalt press forward for each question.
3. Thou shalt use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Thou shalt tag 5 people and rain hell upon humanity.
5. Thou shalt bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

How are you feeling today?

Sopor Aeternus - Only the Dead in the mist

(yes, that's true...)

Will you get far in life?

The 69 Eyes - Return of the Fly

(hm... can anyone explain that to me??)

How do your friends see you?

Sentenced - Ever-Frost


What is your best friend's theme song?

Entwine - Grace

(that's positive!)

What is the story of your life?

Nightwish - Once upon a Troubadour

What was high school like?

Sopor Aeternus - Penance and Pain

( :D that's true, that's true!!!!!!!! :D )

How can you get ahead in life?

Welle:Erdball - Starfighter

What is the best thing about your friends?

Deine Lakaien - Wasted Years

(O.O OMG, NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

What is in store for this weekend?

Negative - Naive

To describe your grandparents?

Deine Lakaien - Down Down Down

(that's not nice...)

How is your life going?

Unheilig - Sieh in mein Gesicht

What song will they play at your funeral?

Sopor Aeternus - The Goat

(okay! that's good!)

Will you have a happy life?

Entwine - Losing the Ground

What do your friends really think of you?

Sopor Aeternus - Tanz der Grausamkeit

Do people secretly lust after you?

Rob Zombie - Living Dead Girl

( :D )

How can I make myself happy?

Sopor Aeternus - Devil's Instrument

( :( )

What should you do with your life?

Apocalyptica - Nothing else matters

Will you ever have children?

ASP - Eleison

I'll tag:

:iconlordblasto: :iconketmara: :iconluna2: :iconmassmetal: :iconstargateangel:
  • Listening to: ASP - Eleison
  • Reading: Anne Rice - Lestat the Vampire
  • Playing: Neopets
  • Drinking: still water

1. FINGERS: Vanessa

2. CHIN: vca<ynedsswa< (cool, that will be my new nickname! :D)


4. ELBOW: gfvaqjhn4swswa

5. NOSE: vanessa

6. PALM: vanessa

1.) List Four fandoms you have.

+ Vampires
+ Sopor Aeternus
+ Fotography
+ Finland

2.) Have you ever slept in the back of a car?

yes... on a festival....

3.) Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?


4.) List four people that you look up to the most.

+ Dorian Cleavenger
+ Joachim Lütke
+ Anna Varney
+ Salvador Dalí

5.) How many pets do you own as of now?

a grey cat, a yellow/green birdie, a blue Shoyru

6.) Which do you prefer white or black?


7.) Who is your most played character?

a member of the Tremere or the Malcavian Clan in Vampire the Masquerade: Bloodlines

8.) Choose one or the other, not both:
>Being stuck on an island with your best friend
>Being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances to make friends

best friend!

9.) Name three aspects that tell who you are.

+ strange
+ vampiristic
+ "niekochana"

10.) If you could have a power what would it be?


11.) Who was the last person you talked to?

my mother

12.) Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?

can't remember; it's too long ago...

13.) Write down the first five words that pop into your head:

+ Nosferatu
+ DarkBat
+ music
+ The 69 Eyes
+ drawing

14.) What's one thing you wish you could do better?

being loved

15.) Do you like the way you are?

actually yes

16.) Choose, Summer or Winter:

Summer! I don't like snow and cold days!

17.) Choose, Rain or snow:


18.) Water or ice?


19.) List two odd things about yourself

+ when I'm in a bad mood you should better not try to talk to me because then I have a violent temper and want to hurt everybody...
+ I don't like to list things about myself like I have to do with this question...

20.) Now list 6 people who should do this quiz!

When I list them they won't do it, I guess... :) Chose on your own
  • Listening to: :Wumpscut: - Churist Churist
  • Reading: Anne Rice - Lestat the Vampire
  • Playing: Neopets
  • Drinking: still water
Today a colleague told me that the father of a an ex-classmate of mine killed himself with a gun... the younger sister of my ex-classmate found her father's dead body in the bedroom.
I will go to the funeral which takes place in an hour. God, this is so sad! Why do things like these have to happen? When I heard this I really asked myself: "And you are sad because a man has left you?"
I feel ashamed.
  • Listening to: Uniklubi - Huomenna
  • Reading: Anne Rice - Lestat the Vampire
  • Playing: Neopets
  • Drinking: still water
  • Listening to: ASP - Ich bin ein wahrer Satan
  • Reading: Goethe - Iphigenie auf Tauris
  • Playing: Neopets ^^
  • Eating: cookies
  • Drinking: still water
The Cute Quiz

How much do you rate on the cute factor? Take this quiz to find out!

[] You are smaller than the other girls of your age. (I was one of the tallest... -.-')
[x] You like pink. (I :heart: pink!!!!!!!!!!!)
[x] You wear skirts.
[x] You love stuffed toys.
[x] You have more than 100 stuffed animals. (don't ask...)
[x] Your pillow protector has flowers on it. (OMG... so embarassing...)
[] You act younger than you are.
[x] You love fairy tales. (just have a look at my gallery...)
[x] people said that you are cute

Total: 7

[x] You are waiting for a hero.
[x] You believe in unicorns.
[x] You believe in fairies.
[x] You wanna be an angel. (does "fallen angel" count? xD)
[] You believed longer than the other children in Santa Claus.
[] You still believe in Santa Claus.
[] You have a princess bed.
[] Your bed has a canopy.
[x] You always dressed as princess to carnival/ Halloween.
[] You liked to put make up on as a child.

Total: 5

[x] You love Hello Kitty/ Sanrio stuff.
[x] You played with dolls. (just Barbie dolls)
[] You owned a doll house.
[] People said that you look younger than you really are.
[] You owned or own rabbits, guinea pigs, ferrets or chinchillas.
[x] You love animals.
[x] You are romantic.
[x] You love moon shine.
[] When you get suddenly a kiss from a boy/girl you blush.
[] You blush when someone says s/he likes you.

Total: 5

[x] You love frills and ribbons on your clothes. (Gothic Lolita rulez!)
[x] You put stuff or real flowers in your hair. (very often!)
[] You nearly always smile.
[x] You try to make people happy.
[] You respect your parents.
[x] You try to see the good in people and the world.
[] You have been called naive.
[] You have a unicorn poster.
[x] You like TV shows for children. (some...)
[x] You love Disney Movies.

Total: 6

[x] You like books for children. (some...)
[x]You like movies with happy endings.
[x] You are kind and behave well.
[x] You like cute shoes. (Gothic Lolita shoes... ^^)
[x] You respect elders.
[x] You try to be good.
[x] You cry when someone dies.
[x] You get depressed by the evening news.
[x] You can't watch scary movies. One splatter movie in my life is enough... -.-'

Total: 9 (full house!)

[] You cry too when someone cries next to you.
[x] You like books with pictures in it.
[x] You love beautiful things.
[x] You have butterfly jewelry. (I :heart: butterflies)
[] You love movies from the 50/60´s.
[] You have been to Disney Land or World.
[] You like amusement parks.
[] You have deer eyes.
[] When you ask your boyfriend/girlfriend or dad for something s/he always give it to you, cause you are everything for him/her. (I am NOTHING for my father...)

Total: 3

[x] Adults like you. (don't know why...)
[x] You love swings.
[] You are the eye apple of your grand parents.
[] You like to play skipping rope.
[] You like little children. (not at all!!!!)
[] You enjoy playing with little children.
[x] You still have your sticker collection. (somewhere)
[] You still have your glitter picture collection.
[] You have animal earrrings.
[x] You love sweets.

Total: 4

[] You love decorating the christmas tree. (we don't have christmas trees anymore)
[x] You are still curious what you will get as presents.
[] You wished for a ring from your boyfriend/girlfriend.
[] You love Swarowski stuff.
[] You love everything that glitters and sparkles.
[x] You're dreaming of a house with garden.
[x] You wanna have a white wedding dress.
[] You love weddings.
[x] You always jumps in the arms of your family/ friends when you meet them. (friends yes, family no)
[x] You hold hands with your best friend.

Total: 5

And all-together: 44

well... that is quite a lot... now it's up to you, am I cute? :)

I'll tag :iconketmara: :iconlenshaya: :iconluna2: :iconstargateangel:

Well, I decided to start a new project. Fotomanipulations again (I haven't drawn or painted interesting pics for months...). The topic is *~*~*fairy tales!*~*~*

Lets see whether you like it or not. :aww:



I'm back from Munich and it was great! I saw so many interesting things!!! Pics will be online soon! :)
My feet are aching but I could go there again and again and again!
BTW: Saturday was Christopher Street Day... ;)

Greetings :rose:

Hey folks! ^^

I won't be online this weekend because I'll spend some nice days at my cousin in Munich.
Hope you will miss me?! :)

Greetings :rose:
The Finnish Rock Monsters LORDI  won the Eurovision Song Contest!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

You see, Rock is not dead! ^^

:love: :love: :love:
No kiss upon my lips, not one.
No saviour came to call my name.
(„Fading Away", ASP)

This song reflects my present feelings.
I am still sad about the loss of my friends. I know I should not think so much about this but it is hard. They ignore me at school. Try to tease me wherever they can.
And the worst thing is: They want my best friend to leave me too.

I can't believe that I called these two girls my "friends" once. It seems to be an eternity ago.
I want to forget them but I can't. There were too many beautiful moments we shared together.

Sometimes I think "friendship" is just a word.

Where is my saviour? Will my saviour come to call my name one day? Someone save me from my memories, please.