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Dakota by Chipuplover1 Dakota :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 1 0 Rust: Up Close and Personal by Chipuplover1 Rust: Up Close and Personal :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 0 0 Ceder by Chipuplover1 Ceder :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 1 0 Rail of love by Chipuplover1 Rail of love :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 0 0 Down the Rabbit Hole by Chipuplover1 Down the Rabbit Hole :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 2 0 Fireside cabinets by Chipuplover1 Fireside cabinets :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 0 0 Down the Stairs by Chipuplover1 Down the Stairs :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 0 0 forever alone haunted???? by Chipuplover1 forever alone haunted???? :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 0 0 Forever Alone inside by Chipuplover1 Forever Alone inside :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 0 0 Forever Alone by Chipuplover1 Forever Alone :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 0 1 Rock Formation by Chipuplover1 Rock Formation :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 0 0 That Face by Chipuplover1 That Face :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 3 3 Puppy Pointer by Chipuplover1 Puppy Pointer :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 0 2 Puppy Portrait by Chipuplover1 Puppy Portrait :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 0 0 Dancing Leaves by Chipuplover1 Dancing Leaves :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 1 5 Mist Down the Creek by Chipuplover1 Mist Down the Creek :iconchipuplover1:Chipuplover1 0 0

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Go To Sleep, The Sun's Up by Ski-Machine Go To Sleep, The Sun's Up :iconski-machine:Ski-Machine 29 8 Half Kitty, Half Bat by Kyttibat Half Kitty, Half Bat :iconkyttibat:Kyttibat 332 136 England's dress up game by Royal-Guard-Lover England's dress up game :iconroyal-guard-lover:Royal-Guard-Lover 1,789 1,193 Animation - French Food by yolin Animation - French Food :iconyolin:yolin 1,097 337 Smoking Russia by animartchic Smoking Russia :iconanimartchic:animartchic 5 0 I Promise by animartchic
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I Promise :iconanimartchic:animartchic 6 2
Smack that by animartchic
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Smack that :iconanimartchic:animartchic 4 2
+ APH + USA + by KajikoKylance + APH + USA + :iconkajikokylance:KajikoKylance 448 51 Hetalia - America emotions by kanae Hetalia - America emotions :iconkanae:kanae 6,242 600 APH: OTP sketch by Minuiko APH: OTP sketch :iconminuiko:Minuiko 286 34 APH Postcard :: America :: by scarlet-xx APH Postcard :: America :: :iconscarlet-xx:scarlet-xx 1,911 95 the joy of sunflowers by AlaisL the joy of sunflowers :iconalaisl:AlaisL 153 47 FIRE ZE MISSILES by Larutanrepus FIRE ZE MISSILES :iconlarutanrepus:Larutanrepus 152 121 APH: Bow by invisikid APH: Bow :iconinvisikid:invisikid 317 25

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Christian Arthur Gaedike
Artist | Hobbyist | Photography
United States
(profile pic by my good buddy Brid for my Wolf/Bunny 2p hetalia AU)
I'm a nerdy 26 year old who wants to get into photography. I'm not so good in my opinion but hopefully I can improve with time. I don't have anything fancy, just a digital camera and my mobile phone. I like to do things outside, so expect a lot of that, and a lot of stuff that involves nature and animals. And cosplay. I love cosplay and costumes. If I'm not in costume, I'll be taking pictures of poeple who are.

I'm also a writer. I like to write erotic fanfiction, mostly for Hetalia.
Interests
1st one:

I wish people would take the time to try to understand me and where I am coming from. I don't think I'm a bad person. I don't think I'm ugly. More plain than ugly. I just dont see how people can just... throw me away like a piece of trash. Like I'm not worth even the shirt on my back. I love deeply, and hurt easily, and I am sometimes too quick to trust, but... I never thought of those as faults until recently. As much as I have been hurt, you'd think I would lock my heart away forever, but I just can't. Love is the ONE thing that I have always wanted. I go to sleep at night dreaming that I am being held close by someone. I wake up, and wish I was still dreaming. I always thought by now I'd be with my soulmate. I thought for sure I'd be on my first kid. I just knew I'd be married, or as close to married as a lesbian can be. I was certain that every night, I would be kissed softly, and told that I was loved more than anything, with arms wrapped around me. Of course, I never expected it to be perfect... But I expected the love to be there. I feel like every day I am wasting more and more away. My hope and faith are dying, along with my body, slowly. It hurts so very bad. I want nothing more than to look up at the sun and feel god's presance telling me that it's not so bad, that everything will be ok, but all I feel is emptiness... A cold wind on my cheeks reaffirming my loneliness. It feels like I have nothing. No hope, no faith, like everyone is turning their backs on me, even though I KNOW they aren't. It just feels like they don't understand, and that they can't. I no longer pray for love. I pray for an end to my suffering. How will that come? By death, by love, or by me no longer caring at all? Will i finally ever find peace?

2nd one:


Why is it wrong to want to die? I know that people say that suicide is selfish. That is leave behind broken families and hurt friends. But isn't it also selfish to ask someone to live just so you can be happy? And even then, be happy in that person's misery? People say that death is never the right way, but how do we know that for sure? How can we even say that when we do not feel that person's pain. We don't know how bad grandma is hurting in her last stage of cancer. We don't know how alone that gay teen is as he's being beaten in the locker room. We can't feel the pain of a broken heart of a mother who has lost her only child. Why is it ok for us to be sefish, and force people to live a life that even we would not want to live? Why is it a sin for them to end it all. To seek peace in death? The dead feel no pain, no loneliness, no longing. Why is it wrong for someone so unhappy to want death to seek it out to end their suffering? The answer we like to give is always the same. "It won't be like that forever." but in all honesty, we don't know that. We say that so we can continue to ahve that person in our lives, despite their misery. To me, that seems more selfish than suicide.
  • Reading: The Serial Killer Files
  • Watching: Apartment 1303
  • Playing: Viva Pinata
  • Eating: Nothing. food makes me sick at the moment
  • Drinking: Water

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:iconfluffyflaaffy:
FluffyFlaaffy Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2010
Thank you very much for the watch, it really means a lot to me~! ;u; <3
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Chipuplover1 Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
Well I loved those FrUk angst fics you had me read so much i wanted to be sure to read all your stuff!
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FluffyFlaaffy Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2010
Ohhhh, is this my pedo!England? o3o
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Chipuplover1 Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
Why yes it is~ <3
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tsukurotta Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the :+fav:! :iconimhappylaplz:
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Larutanrepus Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2010
Thanks so much for the fave! ^^
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Pairou Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
Ahahaha hiii
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LittleGothBoyRobin Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2005
hey sweets ^_~ watching u! ^_^
rock on
dani
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dragnfyre15 Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2005
Welcome to devaintart . If any qusetion or comments please come to me, I'll be glad to help you^_^, ANY TIME you can check out my gallery here:[link]
I hope you like it ^_^
I can't wait to see what you can do
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