Playing: Katawa Shoujo
Eating: Cereal and fruit
As paradoxical as the title is, I think that's how I feel, it's something like a "reverse art block". Let me explain.
Recently I realized I'm forcing myself to draw something at least once a day. To practice, to not get rusty, to improve, to get a vague idea out of my head, whatever reason. But the thing is, either I never finish any of those drawings, or I feel even more stranded and mediocre than before, like this daily routine is actually doing more harm than good.
But drawing a little bit every day should help me get better, right? Well, I guess I'm somehow wrong here.
I actually don't even want to draw for a while, but I always find myself picking up the stupid tablet pencil and doing it anyway in the end, and when I finally notice, the cycle just repeats itself over and over.
I don't know in what other way I can spend my time, I'm reading Lolita again right now, but I don't have any other.. relevant.. hobbies. And that makes me feel if I don't draw, then I'm nothing. Maybe that's why I'm forcing myself to do it, idk.
Actually, this shouldn't even be affecting me the way it is. Making art is not even my job, in fact I don't make a cent out of it, so I don't know where all the self imposed pressure is coming from. This is merely a hobby...
I don't know if any of you reading this ever went through something like this (or even if I expressed myself clearly enough here), but I'd like to know how you deal with it, maybe it could help me too.